I just dropped out of uni. I don’t know how I’m feeling exactly. I’m terrified and excited at the same time. I have no idea where to go or what to do but I’m so excited to find out.
I know I should’ve probably thought of a plan before quitting, and I know that I could’ve waited another month till the term is over, and I know that I will probably regret this later,...
but I just couldn’t wait any longer. I was suffocating!
Not because it was hard, it wasn’t, not because I didn’t fit in, I had and still have the most amazing friends there, but I felt like I was wasting my time.
I was just doing it to buy me more time to think about what I really want to do. But in fact it was pulling me further from what I want. I didn’t have the time to reflect or search for what I want, and I was starting to settle for what I don’t want. And I knew that the longer I wait the harder it’ll get.
I just need some time off to explore new things, to figure out what I really want. I know I can’t afford to do that for long, but I think a couple of months wont hurt.
I’m still young and I already have my Bachelor’s degree. I don’t need a Master’s degree (at least not in something I’m not passionate about).
IF, and I hope I won’t, but IF the day comes when I regret this decision I could always register again. It’s not the end of the world.
I still haven’t told anyone about this. I still can’t believe I actually did it. Writing this now is making it real. Wow I’m really terrified. And excited. And… I don’t know, I’m just filled with all sorts of emotions…
Step 2: tell my parents. 1 week ago
“Creativity is allowing yourself to make mistakes. Art is knowing which ones to keep.”
- Scott Adams, Dilbert 1 week ago
Daily:
- Establish a morning routine that works for me:
- Wake up at 6am
- Plan the day in bed (Review Calendar, ToDos, etc…)
- Read motivational quotes
- Stretch/Yoga
- Go for a morning walk/run
- Sing in the shower :)
- De-clutter for 5-10 mins
- Have a healthy breakfast
- Get ready for uni
- Stay up-to-date with my studies
- Eat healthier (3 meals/day)
- Drink lots of fluids
- Exercise
- Read
Weekly:
- Go cycling
- Spend time in nature
- Spend time with my family
- Volunteer
This month:
- Continue Spring Cleaning
- Clean the car
- Meet new people
- Buy a new swimsuit
- Save money for summer trip 2 weeks ago
The problem in my case is that I understand very well why it happened (although I haven’t heard it from the other person), and I keep defending her, saying “it’s ok she’s going through a lot, and this is all hard on her too, etc…” But even though I understand, it still hurts, a lot.
It took me a while but I came to terms with the fact that things ended, and why they did (I think). But what bothered me the most is How it all ended. I just wanted a chance to say goodbye. and I know I wont have that, and I understand why. It just hurts. But I guess it’s just one of those things that need time…
Thank you so much for asking. :)
I hope things are working well for you on all levels. 2 weeks ago
Wishing you lots of Happiness and Positivity ~~ 4 weeks ago
Plans for today:
Spring Clean technology:
Spring Clean my body:
Spring Clean my soul:
- Meditate ✔
- Surround myself with positivity ✔
- Surround myself with Music ✔
- Breathe ✔
- Smile ✔
Spring Clean my social life:
- Remove toxic people from my life: Stop thinking about K ✗ – Not Working!!
- Spend more time with my family ✔ – Had coffee with my grandmother :)
- Meet new people ✔ – Met someone new at uni today, he wasn’t exactly interesting, but hey, he’s someone new.
- Do something new and write about new experiences ✔ – Spent time in a public garden chatting with old people.1 month ago
Plans for today:
Spring Clean my room:
- Get rid of “stuff” I don’t need ✔ – Part one is done, part two will be some time this weekend
Spring Clean technology:
Spring Clean uni:
- Organise uni files ✔ – Part one done, part two this weekend
Spring Clean my body:
Spring Clean my soul:
- Meditate ✔
- Surround myself with positivity ✔
- Surround myself with Music ✔
- Breathe ✔
- Smile ✔
Spring Clean my social life:
- Remove toxic people from my life: Stop thinking about K ✗ – Can’t get K out of my head!!!
- Spend more time with my family ✔
- Do something new and write about new experiences ✗ – The weather was terrible and i was a bit sick, only managed to get to uni and then straight home.1 month ago
I think that’s exactly what I need right now.
Spring Clean my room:
- Donate clothes and accessories I don’t use
- Get rid of “stuff” I don’t need
- Organise papers and magazines and donate/recycle the ones I don’t need
Spring Clean my car:
- Clean it inside-out
- Take it to the mechanic
Spring Clean technology:
- Organise files and folders on my laptop and back them up
- Organise folders on my phone and back them up
- Update iPod playlist
- Organise my bookmarks
Spring Clean uni:
- Organise uni files and keep them up-to-date
- Donate textbooks I don’t need
Spring Clean my body:
- Eat healthier (gain 5 Kg if possible)
- Exercise
- Go cycling more often
- Detox treatment
- Get a blood test
Spring Clean my soul:
- Meditate
- Surround myself with positivity
- Surround myself with Music
- Breathe
- Smile
- Go to nature at least once a week
Spring Clean my social life:
- Remove toxic people from my life
- Spend more time with my family
- Say yes to at least 2/3 invitations
- Meet new people
- Do something new and write about new experiences
- Volunteer 2 months ago
I managed to find a counselling centre where psychologists volunteer. It’s free, but people are welcome to donate. And the best part is that it’s anonymous, I don’t have to give out any information I don’t want. It’s a bit far, but it’s the best thing I found for now.
Thank you so much for your support. :)
Love xx 2 months ago
Thank you both for your comments. :)
Love xx 2 months ago
The main thing I need to work on this month is to find a good therapist.
I’ve got a lot I need to work on as well, but I can’t seem to be able to get my head together. 2 months ago
I’ve been going through a lot for the past 2-3 months. I’ve tried everything but I’m still not feeling better. I just need someone to talk to. And I realised the only way I could get people to listen to me is to pay them (at least I hope they’d listen).
It’s getting really bad. I’ve been having lots of seizures and panic attacks. I haven’t stopped crying for the past 2-3 months.
The main reason I’ve been postponing going to therapy is because it’s too expensive. But now I think it’s worth it. I’m ready to do whatever it takes to get better. 2 months ago
He’s lucky to have you as a mum. :) 2 months ago
