Alyssa

It’s a sort of… personal adventure. I learned a lot about myself, and gave into my natural human instincts. It was great to spend some quality time with the forces of beauty and strength. 12 months ago

I have Asperger’s Syndrome, a type of high-functioning Autism. I wasn’t diagnosed until the age of thirteen, but always knew something was different. In my early years of school, I had few friends, but the ones I did have were loyal, trust-worthy, and respected me without question.

As third grade came along, it seemed like everyone else was changing, but I stayed the same. I am still told that I was a quick learner, mature beyond my age, and least like my peers in many ways. Still, it hurts me to think that people were freaked out by me.

I started to speak at around a year old, walk at eight months, and read at three years old. It’s possible, and anyone that says I’m lying is a fool, because it’s true. I hardly caused trouble around the house, and never killed any small animals, so I was innocent.

Yes, my .I.Q. is only at 102 points, but I am keeping my grades up a lot better than my peers. Straight ‘A’ students are hard to find in my classes nowadays, but as long as drugs and alcohol stay out of our way, we will keep up the pace. I’m a teenager now, but I never use illegeal substances, drink, smoke, or have sex, so I think I’ll be okay.

Eye contact, touching, panic attacks, and speaking out loud are still a problem. Hopefully, my peers will try to understand one day. I can’t stress it enough that teachers must be aware of us with Autism, but my own Interior Design instructor wasn’t even aware of the way rooms are best set up for us with Autism until a guest speaker came to visit our class.

My teachers all comment on how mature, resourceful, and helpful I am, but I hate it when they say it. I’m not, but I want to be so badly, and sometimes it hurts, but as much as I want to cry about it sometimes, I still can’t do it. My body won’t allow it, and that makes it worse.

If there is someone I adore, I dare not tell them, for I believe that there is always something better for them, so I try to keep my distance. If I hear that someone adores me too, it frightens me.

How can I live up to their expectations if I can’t live up to my own? How can the lamb love the wolf? If I fail, does it mean that they planned it to do so? Is it trickery, or honesty? I pledge my love to them, no matter what, but how will I know that it’s a mutual feeling that is felt? 16 months ago

I used a basic light green first, then put large, blue stripes right through the middle. It’s a little harder to do stripes after you’ve put in the base color, but I think it turned out fine. Just make sure that when you rinse it out to let it blend with the first colors!

I get asked a lot about where I had my hair done, but I don’t know if I should feel offended or proud, because I do my hair all by myself at home. 16 months ago

1. 20,000 Leagues Under The Sea by Jules Verne
2. The Importance Of Being Earnest by Oscar Wilde
3. The Aneid by Vergil
4. War And Peace by Leo Tolstoy
5. The Old Man and the Sea by Earnest Hemmingway
6. A Midsummer Night’s Dream by William Shakespere
7. Pride And Prejidice by Jane Austen
8. The Adventures Of Huckleberry Finn/Tom Sawyer by Mark Twain
9. Roverandom by J.R.R. Tolkien
10. Inferno/Purgatory/Paradise by Dante Alighieri
11. The War Of The Worlds by H.G. Wells
12. Gulliver’s Travels by Jonathan Swift
And another for good measure:
13. The Good Earth by Pearl S. Buck 17 months ago

Everyone has flaws. In my opinion, some flaws are beauties. 17 months ago

Look for these: To Kill A Mockingbird, The Day The Earth Stood Still, Moby Dick, The Hunchback Of Notre Dame, The Wizard Of Oz, The Secret Garden, The Picture Of Dorian Gray, Julius Caeser, and The Three Stooges. These may be for starters, but watch them all, I tell you! You shan’t be disappointed. 17 months ago

A lot of people call Muslims crazy, but that is just stupid. I have some new people of the Islamic religion in my school. They and their family are taking the English-As-A-Second-Language class. I go to a career technology center, but we also have regular academy classes and some students only come half a day.

I think it will be very interesting to finally understand the Islamic version of the bible. I’ve already read the Bible, so I know what goes on in Christianity. I don’t believe in most of it, so I am not a Christian. I’m not sure of what I am yet. 17 months ago