I helped the family of a friend to move their house. Nothing big, given my fucked up back, just the smaller things in the truck. A small community comprised of their church folk were there to help them out. There was a light drizzle throughout and we ended up having lunch under the roof of their garage. The atmosphere was friendly amidst all the clutter. They were very warm to this unkempt, stranger from another city.
I had to say I had a good time too. I was surrounded by the younger women of the church, who were all lovely and surprisingly hilarious. 9 months ago
On a prawnfish. The smoking ember the morning after. I am the moment she looks down in regret. The tears falling on her shoes. I am an exasperated sigh of a dying planet. The collective prayer of a billion sleeping children. I run barefoot through filthy city streets, leaving autumn leaves as notes of hope. I am the smile of a homeless man, born of rusty needles and paper boxes. The shards of broken window about to hit your face, who never knew you were colorblind. 9 months ago
- Hranah <3, I am dangerously infatuated. She is carefree, unrestrained and just so happy, qualities I seek to nurture within my own soul. We spent just a day together, with another man who is interested in her also. There is an unexplained emotion that runs through me when she speaks to me. The way she looks me in the eyes, as if shes probing for something else, I cant hear what shes saying.
The best thing about her is that she is a school teacher, looking after toddlers. The moment she told me that it reminded me of a dream where I had this almost ideal life where I was engaged to this woman who taught music in a preschool.
She most likely sees me as nothing more than that friend of a friend, her kind hospitable nature an expression of her natural inclination.
Pretty sure she is with someone though, and that is the finality of it. It is wrong and the intensity of how Im feeling right now about her is dangerous.
I’m just about to unfriend her on facebook. 9 months ago
I depart in an hour. :D 9 months ago
The first set was great, the compounding errors on the 2nd set made it awful. My heart was in the wrong place during the 2nd half. I felt angry and hateful. My insecurity flared up out of nowhere, I felt I was being judged by the people in the audience, I felt I was being blamed by the music leader for all the fuckups we made. Oh man why do I feel this way, like everyone is hating on me. 9 months ago
I saw the shadows the tree made on the grey concrete wall. There was the lightsource, the tree, the wind and the wall. The shadows rose and fell, at one point it looked like ants/people clambering on top of each other. They were fighting to get to the highest position. Eventually the whole thing was brought down. 9 months ago
There are infinite ways to play with numbers :(
I think Im straying too far away. Thank you though. 9 months ago
? im actually curious, I dont recall ever writing about this subject before. 9 months ago
I dont understand why my subconscious is focusing on this number. The closest thing I have come up with is that I did a weightlifting program called ‘5/3/1’ some years ago.
I’m not sure if it alludes to something during that time period or to something about the concept involving the program.
I dont believe in numerology being a christian and a rationalist. But then again I believe or try to believe in God and that is not reasonable or rational either.
I’ve never had divine experiences apart from dreams and when I was under the influence of a drug this one time. Those I interpreted as simply being a product of my imagination.
It takes a lot for me to believe but at the same time there is a yearning to do so, again maybe its some innate desire built in people to find meaning.
All I know is that I don’t know enough. There is no way for my finite mind to ascertain such things and it troubles me. Is it wrong to believe in this? Will it bring harm to me?
I dont know,. 9 months ago
A couple of months ago I started seeing this particular number, at first I thought it was coincidence. Being the skeptic that I am, I reasoned that my brain was simply looking out for this number that occurs with the same frequency as other numbers.
The number is ‘531’. Now I am not one to believe in numerology but I cant help but wonder if this has some kind of meaning/message behind it. I guess I like many, like to feel some kind of importance, that external events occur with special relation to us.
Has a similar thing happened to you? If you believed it was a message from God/the universe did you follow it through? Did you keep on seeking or did you just dismiss it? 9 months ago
Hope you fare better, our summer has not been all that warm compared to previous years. 9 months ago
To try something different may my actions arise out of
Mastery of myself and
Duty. 9 months ago
for our upcoming church performance. 9 months ago
The problem is that I do not see the reward. 9 months ago