It made me laugh for some reason. 2 weeks ago
1.) Did a chinup with CG(<3) hanging off my waist. I took a chance and asked and she didnt hesitate.
2.) New strings on my guitar, I love that bright silvery tone.
3.) Helping my friend get back into shape.
4.) Movies at said mate’s place.
5.) Being with CG(<3)
6.) getting started on Paul gilbert’s piece ! 2 weeks ago
The downside today was checking my results, the incredible highs of today plummeted down as I found that I have failed a mandatory paper. I am fucken beaten, I never knew I could sink this low so fast. This was the last paper Ive ever had to do and I fucked it.
I dont want to deal with this right now and focus on the victory of the day. People are going to have food and water thanks to us, not trying to self glorify myself, $2500 is not that much, but its enough to make a difference to someone who has nothing. Their problems eclipse mine, and I should be thankful. I did what I could today, I did what I could. 2 weeks ago
Last night I was thrown on the deep end when I was told I would be helping to fundraise money for the typhoon victims. My father is not the most organised man and despite a rough start due to logistics, we got on the way. The ordeal involved me and another person manning a table with 2 buckets and a sign. The thought of facing any stranger is distressing enough for me but on top of that this was in a busy mall. And I was to stay there for 8 hours.
I did not have a choice in the matter because there was noone else on the roster. I begrudgingly sat down, my heart was nowhere near it to be honest. I detested this city and have a negative perception of the people, I thought we’d be lucky if we got $200. To my surprise, within the 2 minutes of sitting down someone came up and dropped a twenty. The response was overwhelming as people’s kindness just flowed. My heart softened, there are good people everywhere. I have never said so many sincere ‘thank yous’ till today. I have never said so many hellos, I have never smiled at so many strangers till today, my face hurt.
I have talked to more people today than In the past 4 years combined. Its kind of crazy kind to think of it now but I held up just fine. People were so generous, I almost wanted to cry because I have judged them so wrong and these people cared so much, giving whatever they could. This was a very defining moment to me, realising that there is more good in people. I thought of the people suffering and this sense duty overcame my filthy selfish narcissistic attitude.
By the end of this exhausting day we raised almost $2500 between the 5 of us. More than we thought possible. The response was just so amazing…. 2 weeks ago
for typhoon Haiyan victims, I never knew sitting down for 8 hours would be exhausting. fucking tired now. 2 weeks ago
1.) Designed a poster and fundraised 2.5k for the Haiyan typhoon Victims, today.
2.) Faced my social anxiety by being thrown on the deep end and talking to hundreds of people.
3.) CG was there with me <3
4.) Grandma’s fish curry.
5.) Counting the money we raised, it was fun. 2 weeks ago
1.) Gymed with the sister, C and CG(<3).
3.) Got started on Floreio!!
4.) Made a poster for the Haiyan victims.
5.) Lunch at the beach. 3 weeks ago
hows things? You still single? you want to go on a date? Have some chicken, maybe some sex? 3 weeks ago
Donald trump’s wife. 3 weeks ago
I think everyone does a little suppression and plays along putting up a different front with different people. Im guessing this all depends on what you want or need from the other party.
but not me, to hell with relationships, and to hell with the world, you will not breaaaak meeee! 3 weeks ago
what does that say about you? I kid, I kid. These things are messy and I hate the little mind games that are played. Pretending to be happy just to make the other party feel worse and they in turn pretend to not care when they do….
I cant stand the bitterness. I hope you move on fairly quick and find someone youre truly happy with. 3 weeks ago
good luck when you stalk his FB page and find out hes happily in another relationship with what appears to be a better you 3 weeks ago
I dont have job, so 24/7.
As for whats the most effective, Id say anytime after Ive spent myself on something physical ( working out, fishing, boarding, which in themselves are relaxing in a different way). 3 weeks ago
1.) Longboarded :D
2.) Went fishing with the old man! Caught 2 big ones.
3.) Seeing C when we dropped fish off her house,...... <3
4.) Took a hilarious picture of me and my grandma holding the fish I caught.
5.) Listening to my grandma tell stories. 3 weeks ago
and Im in this state of thinking too. Cutting out things to make for room for other, hopefully better things. 3 weeks ago
1.) Table tennis with friends
2.) Longboarded! finally
3.) Finished and uploaded a video
Yeah, 3 weeks ago
1. Done a one arm chinup :D
2. Went to a birthday party.
3. Taught mates
4. bonfire on a chilly night
5. Good company
6. Not feeling self conscious
7. Met an attractive girl.
8. had a great music session at church
9. Day 39 of no masturbation.
Today has been full of win. Fucking aye today was special 3 weeks ago
who is college educated, and 23 years of age believes in the illuminati, especially its control over the music industry.
He showed me these pictures of rihanna and jay-z posing and pulling demonic signs, and although I know that you can see faces/pentagrams in anything if you tried hard enough, my initial feeling was one of fear and hesitation.
Our strict christian upbringing has primed our minds for something like this and even though I think I know better now, those things still hold a grasp on me. Enough for me to boycott their music, and videos. Although mostly I think their music/product is pretty shit. 3 weeks ago
should just give up on this goal. And this is not coming from a dark place. 3 weeks ago
They feel the pressure of snagging the right one because they live in a country where women are scarce. 3 weeks ago
It was women’s group gathering of my mother’s friends tonight, I stayed in my room and watched sons of anarchy and went out on the last minute to eat. Afterwards me my bro, C and Cr went out for a drive around midnight, we had nothing to do and decided to go out for drinks and ciggies by the beach.
The trail was dark on the way and we instead stopped at the crossroads where we sat on a large round concrete protrusion on the ground. We got talkin about some pretty deep subjects, our dreams, fears. It was very good to share our thoughts whilst we drank and smoked. I did not feel bad about smoking since I seldom do it, but I felt guilty since my father is an esteemed figure. I didnt want anyone to see me doing this since it could be used to denigrate my father’s cause.
He rang us up at around 1:30am calling us home which he has never done before and we left C and Cr alone. They wanted to be left alone and I understood why. I just didnt like it because a.) She was underage, b.) The pretext of the situation(sneaking out at night drinking) was not exactly appropriate.
But its their lives, they can do what they want.
I cant exactly elucidate on what it is I am feeling right now. 3 weeks ago
1.) My shoulders are healthy.
2.) I can still train.
3.) My grandma 3 weeks ago
are banned by the party. 3 weeks ago
Methinks this will take awhile to obtain. My shoulders and obliques are just not strong enough at the moment. 3 weeks ago
as there are no buses that drive up my hill. It became just another part of my day and Ive conditioned myself to almost enjoy it. 3 weeks ago
to do this for awhile now. Out of sheer boredom me, my bro and a mate shot one out of the blue. We did very little planning and a lot of the shots were off the cuff. The final product was rather rough despite numerous editing, which I expected. After getting about 20 shots, I managed to splice them up to a 3 minute film. Despite a rather ‘meh’ end product, I learnt a lot and enjoyed the process of filmmaking. Its really quite hard and ardous but fun as well. 3 weeks ago
Ive had them for almost 10 years, one of the few constants in my possesion. Ive carried them whenever I moved in my little box of sentiments. It was time to let go, it never blossomed into anything but I still held on to that faint hope, that naive adolescent notion. I havent talked to her in years and I dont ever plan to, time to have a new start and a new way of thinking about this whole thing.
I checked her fb page sometime ago and found out shes engaged, with a much older man. She looked like shes aged quite a bit, the wear and tear showing up on her face. I smiled and chuckled reminiscing of how much needless pain I put myself through because of her, how I let it colour my opinion of women and relationships in general. She has a stepchild, the girl looks about 4 or 5. Its great that shes willing to look after some other mother’s child, shes always struck me as someone very caring, in tuned and inclined to make the people around her happy. Except for me of course but thats ok.
I felt a pang of sadness as I poured more diesel over those letters.
On the upnote, it was a beautiful day today. I went to the playground, did my training. A group of kids (10-14) turned up and were interested in what I was doing. I taught them the basics and they enjoyed it. 3 weeks ago
for each family member, this will be the first christmas in 4 years where Ive gotten everyone gifts. Ive just never had a job. 4 weeks ago