I have depression too, and I don’t take pills for it. I never have, because I agree with you. I encourage you to talk to your doctor about tapering off of the pills. Going cold turkey, dumping everything all at once, is too dangerous just because the body is used to so much of that particular sort of input, but you’ve got a right to get off of them, carefully and a bit gradually, if you don’t think they’re doing the trick. If you want someone to talk to along the way, you can talk to me. I don’t open up with loads of personal details right away but I really love people, from what I see of you here I particularly like you, and I can offer you an ear and some encouragement. I really want people to be able to live life intelligently, from the heart, and on their own terms, and I don’t hesitate to do what I can in support of people like you who aim to do that.
The truth that not everybody seems prepared to accept is that life hurts sometimes. Sometimes it hurts really, really badly. I have never met anybody who seems to understand that better than I do; most people seem to want to see me on pills so I can cheer up. Never mind if it’s a matter of my friend having died, my mother acting like a wench, having lost my job, people treating me like dirt left and right – the answer is obviously not to grieve, find a new way to deal with my mother, re-orient my sense of self around something other than a job, or standing up for myself; the answer is clearly some sort of pill. I’m sure there are cases where people really are miserable because their brain chemistry is off and they need some sort of a boost, but if that’s not the problem, then personally I don’t think that artificially cheering up while life continues in the same old painful way is really the best answer.
The more sensitive we are, the tougher life is, but that sensitivity is a gift and I don’t think it’s right to throw the baby out with the bath water. It makes much more sense to learn to cope. If it takes a lifetime, bit by bit, so be it – we’ll spend the rest of our lives doing progressively better, and I for one can deal with that idea just fine. We can cope. The more we engage with spirit, and the more people we have to treat us well, and the more clearly we can see and feel what it is that we’re dealing with in life, the better prepared we are to make real changes. This is a worthwhile goal and if you want/need some support on it, I will do my best to be there for you. 18 months ago