Okay, so this is a big big day for this Goal. I have been gradually weaning myself off my Citalopram, I was on 20mg a day, so I decided for the last pack I would break each tablet in half and have 10mg instead. Of course this meant they lasted twice as long, which is annoying, but my health is more important than my desperation to get off the medication. I have had a fair few days where I have forgotten to take them all together, but I think that has helped with the process, making it more gradual.
So, the big news, today is my LAST ANTIDEPRESSANT EVER!! Okay that might be quite a bold statement (especially as I currently take an antidepressant as a pain relief for vulvodynia), and of course I can’t predict what is going to happen in the future, I may be struck down with depression again, but I have already been through it now, and I can recognise the signs. Hopefully hindsight can prevent a relapse.
It’s been a long, LONG road, overcoming my depression. It’s been nearly two solid years now, that I’ve felt there’s no hope. Finally I can see the light. In fact, I’ve already seen the light, and come through the other end. Of course I still get down, but I wouldn’t be human if I didn’t, but I sincerely believe that my depression is gone. So to anyone who believes that it is impossible to cure, I’m living proof that if you want it badly enough it will happen, it just takes time and patience.
I realise that compared to many people my bout of depression is nothing. There are people out there who have suffered every day for the majority of their lives, but people do care. I have received so much support, from forums, from the people on 43Things, and from friends and family.
I just want to thank everyone on 43Things who has helped me, cheering my goals, leaving comments when I have felt like there’s no hope, and generally just creating a feeling of support by their presence.
Right, tearful speech over :p So yeah… Now I only have to get off my Amityptaline (sp?) and my acne medication, and I will be completely medication free!! :D 15 months ago