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get over my ex

nobody@43things.com (Jamton) — Thu, 29 Nov 2012 19:21:57 GMT

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Well....

nobody@43things.com (Jamton) — Tue, 16 Oct 2012 17:03:51 GMT

Jamton added an entry about lose 1 stone:

I haven’t posted for a LONG time. I have not lost anywhere near a stone, but I’m not 11 stone anymore at least! Last time I checked I was around 10st 9lbs.

I’ve had a pretty tough time with regards to my body, I got rushed into hospital because of a severe bowel illness and I’ve had various other ailments, so for the past 2-3 months my body has been doing all sorts of crazy shit haha!

My body finally seems to be settling down, so I’m back on the diet wagon, but I seem to be doing OK at least. I’ve just got into a new relationship, and I’m very happy, but I’m not certain whether this will help or hinder my attempts haha. On the one hand, there’s less in the way of comfort eating, as my therapy has worked really well, going into hospital put a lot into perspective, and getting into a relationship with a wonderfully loving person has made me generally very happy. HOWEVER, from experience, new relationships often come with large quantities of food and drink and enjoyment… So I’m sure we’ll soon find out haha!

Wish me luck!

Read at least 5 books

nobody@43things.com (Jamton) — Tue, 16 Oct 2012 16:55:44 GMT

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Update 16/10/12

nobody@43things.com (Jamton) — Tue, 16 Oct 2012 16:55:19 GMT

Jamton added an entry about Read at least 5 books:

So far I have fully completed 6 books, and I’m over halfway through two others.

1. Wuthering Heights
2. Jane Eyre
3. Lemony Snicket’s Bad Beginning
4. The Hunger Games(The Hunger Games Trilogy)
5. Catching Fire(The Hunger Games Trilogy)
6. Mockingjay(The Hunger Games Trilogy)
4. Little Women (Nearly Finished)
5. Anthony Kiedis’ Scar Tissue (Over halfway)

By the end of the year I would like to have finished the last two and possibly The Picture of Dorian Gray.

So Far...

nobody@43things.com (Jamton) — Thu, 28 Jun 2012 11:24:07 GMT

Jamton added an entry about Read at least 5 books:

1. Wuthering Heights
2. Jane Eyre
3. Lemony Snicket’s The Bad Beginning
4. Halfway through Anthony Kiedis’ Scar Tissue (again)
5. Started the picture of Dorian Gray

Untitled

nobody@43things.com (Jamton) — Wed, 09 May 2012 11:41:14 GMT

Jamton commented on an entry by Jamton titled "This year..." regarding Find my creative haven:

Heyy yeah I am :) x

get a job

nobody@43things.com (Jamton) — Tue, 08 May 2012 08:21:25 GMT

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find a job

nobody@43things.com (Jamton) — Tue, 08 May 2012 00:46:39 GMT

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How to get off medication

nobody@43things.com (Jamton) — Mon, 07 May 2012 20:21:43 GMT

Jamton wrote about How to get off medication:

"Liberating!!"

How I did it: This was very very challenging, as I was on quite a lot of meds for a 21 year old girl.

I was taking Citalopram for my depression, Amitryptaline for vulvodynia, And Lymecycline for acne.

The most important to come off in my opinion was the Citalopram. I really hated having to take medication in order to control my moods. I basically waited until I had one strip of pills left, and instead of taking a whole pill I took half. This lengthened the life of the strip of pills to one month, so I was taking half my dosage for a month. Towards the end of the strip I left out the odd day, which really helped with the withdrawals. Although the tablets really helped in the depths of my depression, once I had come off them I felt more human and generally more alive. Coming off of them pushed me to come off my others.

I used the same technique with my pain medication, which I came off about 1 month later.

With my acne medication, I felt it wasn't really helping me anyway, and I've always been sensitive to antibiotics, and really didn't like the concept of being on them for another year. So I made a conscious decision to just stop taking them.

My acne isn't great at the moment, but at least I'm no longer reliant on any tablets!!

Lessons & tips: If you are trying to wean yourself off a medicine that has withdrawals, please PLEASE do it properly. Don't just stop taking them. I tried with my Citalopram, and on several occasions nearly fainted, or got a spinning head, or nausea and so on. It's not worth going cold turkey!!

It took me 3 months.

It made me Proud

get off medication

nobody@43things.com (Jamton) — Mon, 07 May 2012 20:13:50 GMT

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Argh.

nobody@43things.com (Jamton) — Mon, 07 May 2012 20:07:46 GMT

Jamton added an entry about lose 1 stone:

I’ve been really sucking at this one. Again, life has got in the way of my plans. Feeling down, mega stress, I am unfortunately one of these gals who eats her feelings. And I have a lot of feelings. I’m down to about 10 stone 7, so I’ve lost like 3lbs…. But it’s very very slow.

I’m kind of hating myself at the moment, and I need to change, so I’m trying this thing where I challenge myself, so I can get back in touch with who I am. So my challenge is to lose 2lbs in the next two weeks. That’s a much less intimidating goal that 1 stone over an infinite period of time.

I’ll get back to you in two weeks!

Finished Wuthering Heights...

nobody@43things.com (Jamton) — Mon, 07 May 2012 20:03:14 GMT

Jamton added an entry about Read at least 5 books:

Now moving on to Jane Eyre. I’m not actually this slow of a reader, just unfortunately life kind of gets in the way. I aim to have finished this by the 7/6, that gives me one month. Here’s to hoping!

Develop at least 2 new skills

nobody@43things.com (Jamton) — Tue, 17 Apr 2012 14:00:55 GMT

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Today is a BIG day!!!!!

nobody@43things.com (Jamton) — Fri, 23 Mar 2012 09:50:29 GMT

Jamton added an entry about get off medication:

Okay, so this is a big big day for this Goal. I have been gradually weaning myself off my Citalopram, I was on 20mg a day, so I decided for the last pack I would break each tablet in half and have 10mg instead. Of course this meant they lasted twice as long, which is annoying, but my health is more important than my desperation to get off the medication. I have had a fair few days where I have forgotten to take them all together, but I think that has helped with the process, making it more gradual.

So, the big news, today is my LAST ANTIDEPRESSANT EVER!! Okay that might be quite a bold statement (especially as I currently take an antidepressant as a pain relief for vulvodynia), and of course I can’t predict what is going to happen in the future, I may be struck down with depression again, but I have already been through it now, and I can recognise the signs. Hopefully hindsight can prevent a relapse.

It’s been a long, LONG road, overcoming my depression. It’s been nearly two solid years now, that I’ve felt there’s no hope. Finally I can see the light. In fact, I’ve already seen the light, and come through the other end. Of course I still get down, but I wouldn’t be human if I didn’t, but I sincerely believe that my depression is gone. So to anyone who believes that it is impossible to cure, I’m living proof that if you want it badly enough it will happen, it just takes time and patience.

I realise that compared to many people my bout of depression is nothing. There are people out there who have suffered every day for the majority of their lives, but people do care. I have received so much support, from forums, from the people on 43Things, and from friends and family.

I just want to thank everyone on 43Things who has helped me, cheering my goals, leaving comments when I have felt like there’s no hope, and generally just creating a feeling of support by their presence.

Right, tearful speech over :p So yeah… Now I only have to get off my Amityptaline (sp?) and my acne medication, and I will be completely medication free!! :D

So excited!!

nobody@43things.com (Jamton) — Tue, 13 Mar 2012 11:14:43 GMT

Jamton added an entry about Find my creative haven:

Over the past couple of weeks I have been applying for a house that is up for rent across the road from where I’m living now. It’s one bed, and pretty big especially for just one person! The house is basically mine, I just need to find a job to make sure I can keep up to then rent.

I am SO excited it is unbelievable. I can’t wait to have my own home. A place of solitude that can be as creative as I wish. It’s going to be so amazing!!!

Daily: Reflect on 5 things for which I'm grateful.

nobody@43things.com (Jamton) — Sun, 04 Mar 2012 20:49:47 GMT

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First I need to get a job...

nobody@43things.com (Jamton) — Tue, 14 Feb 2012 17:21:35 GMT

Jamton added an entry about learn to drive:

Hopefully if I can get a job I can save enough money to finally learn to drive. I’m sick of being unable to get around!!!

Oops again! 14/02/12

nobody@43things.com (Jamton) — Tue, 14 Feb 2012 17:17:23 GMT

Jamton added an entry about Daily: Reflect on 5 things for which I'm grateful.:

1. The Big Bang Theory
2. True Blood
3. My new baby brother being born healthily (Kurt – 9lb 4oz)
4. That my stepmum is recovering well
5. Lighter mornings
6. Lighter evenings
7. My craft
8. Art
9. Painting
10. Beautiful things
11. Good friends
12. Strength

04,05/02/12

nobody@43things.com (Jamton) — Sun, 05 Feb 2012 21:39:45 GMT

Jamton added an entry about Daily: Reflect on 5 things for which I'm grateful.:

1. My Kindle
2. The Wii Fit
3. Me and my bestie finding the energy to go for a run
4. Having the self control to NOT pig out today
5. Making plans for the future
6. A really REALLY relaxing weekend
7. The relief I felt after kickboxing
8. This burning desire to start exercising regularly
9. Vaseline, after the cold weather has chapped my lips
10. That I seem to live in the only town that didn’t get snow today!

01,02,03/02/12

nobody@43things.com (Jamton) — Sat, 04 Feb 2012 10:20:19 GMT

Jamton added an entry about Daily: Reflect on 5 things for which I'm grateful.:

1. 3 solid days of feeling positive and downright happy, regardless of negative issues!
2. A lovely takeaway with my flatmate last night whilst watching Atonement.
3. Ed Sheeran, early on a Saturday morning.
4. An fear that’s been ongoing for the past month finally being put to rest.
5. Inspiration to get moving on my projects (now it’s just a matter of doing it!)
6. My two closest friends.
7. Making new friends!!
8. Getting excited for going to my friends Disney themed 21st!
9. The sun rising a little earlier every day, it makes getting out of bed much less of a chore.
10. Finding the mould in my bedroom early, before it crept into bed with me! (Eww.)
11. The fact that my tattoo is happening in FIVE DAYS!! :D
12. My health, both physical and mental. It’s not the best but it could be much worse.
13. A good cup of tea to warm me up on a very brisk morning!
14. The beauty of frost.
15. Another obstacle overcome in trying to move on from my ex.

learn to drive

nobody@43things.com (Jamton) — Tue, 31 Jan 2012 15:08:06 GMT

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Controversial!

nobody@43things.com (Jamton) — Tue, 31 Jan 2012 14:51:10 GMT

Jamton added an entry about get a boob job:

I know this one is probably frowned upon by many people, and I’m still not certain how I feel about it. However, I’m very unhappy with my chest, and have never been overly pleased with it, but after several years of yo-yo diets, and starvation as a result of depression and so on, my boobs have started to become less than attractive, and a cause of great sadness everytime I look in the mirror.

I feel very VERY selfish about this goal, and there’s a part of me that hates myself for thinking it, especially as there are so many people with “real problems”, but I DO have real problems, I’ve suffered so much emotional turmoil over the years, I feel that if this is something that could help restore a little of my self esteem and confidence then it might be worth doing.

It will be a HUGE decision to make, and not something I will enter into lightly, but I am seriously considering it.

31/01/12

nobody@43things.com (Jamton) — Tue, 31 Jan 2012 14:46:51 GMT

Jamton added an entry about Daily: Reflect on 5 things for which I'm grateful.:

1. The fact that I’m clearly in my own little world, as I just wrote the date as “31/01/05”, and it took my a few seconds to realise I was only 7 years behind there!
2. A nice cup of tea to warm me up on a cold day!
3. Having a wonderful friend who helped me get a nap, as she agreed to ring me up after an hour so I would wake up and get on with work!
4. Having motivation to work towards the body I want, and feeling good about myself
5. Having friends and flatmates who are all on the same path, so we can help each other to achieve success!!

get a boob job

nobody@43things.com (Jamton) — Tue, 31 Jan 2012 14:43:50 GMT

Jamton adopted this goal

30/01/12

nobody@43things.com (Jamton) — Mon, 30 Jan 2012 07:32:33 GMT

Jamton added an entry about Daily: Reflect on 5 things for which I'm grateful.:

1. Waking up early for once!
2. Being awake early enough to watch the sun rise
3. Being awake early enough to have breakfast and get ready leisurely
4. Having a healthy healthy breakfast
5. Re-organising my bedroom giving me some clarity
6. Re-organising my bedroom so my rabbit cage is off the ground, so I can keep it open through the night (I feel less like I’m caging her, and she can’t chew on the bars and keep me up all night!)
7. A new app that monitors my sleep and helps me wake up gradually
8. My best friend joining me on my health kick, so we can work together to keep up motivation
9. The concept of going running and swimming with her every Saturday
10. Being able to invest in a very small amount of silent meditation this morning, I only counted from 100 back to 0, but it was more clarity and tranquillity than I’ve had in months
11. Getting all my uni work in order ready to hit the ground running
12. My Kindle, with it’s free classics
13. My Kindle, with it’s free books on Buddhism
14. Getting up early enough to pack myself a healthy lunch!
15. This huge boost of motivation and energy I’m currently feeling!! :D

(OK, that was 15, but it should sort of make up for the ones I’ve missed :p)

Halfway through...

nobody@43things.com (Jamton) — Thu, 26 Jan 2012 10:23:07 GMT

Jamton added an entry about Read at least 5 books:

Wuthering Heights. Love this book.

26/01/12

nobody@43things.com (Jamton) — Thu, 26 Jan 2012 10:19:23 GMT

Jamton added an entry about Daily: Reflect on 5 things for which I'm grateful.:

My life at the moment is so painfully hectic and confusing. I have no idea what I’m doing with it, I’m questioning every decision I’ve ever made. Nothing seems to be going right, and my motivation to carry on is draining as the minutes while away. I feel so completely out of control. There’s not a problem that I know how to solve right now, and I feel like I’m drifting through life with a huge weight on my chest, and I’m too weak to get rid of it.

I know this is supposed to be about being grateful, but I don’t think I’ve ever felt more ungrateful in my life.

16/01/12

nobody@43things.com (Jamton) — Mon, 16 Jan 2012 22:20:37 GMT

Jamton added an entry about Daily: Reflect on 5 things for which I'm grateful.:

I aren’t going to try and catch up for the past few days, because in all honesty there hasn’t been much I’ve felt grateful for, and the few things I do feel grateful for, I can’t talk about ‘cos they’re secret.

1. A good shopping trip with my best friend
2. A really enjoyable night out with people I love
3. Not COMPLETELY breaking down when I bumped into my ex for the first time since we broke up, and him being nasty to me
4. The fact that people have told me they’re proud of how well I’ve been handling this whole shitty situation
5. Alcohol and it’s ability to numb the pain. Even if only for a little while.

6, 7, 8, 9, 10, 11/01/12! Oops! :/

nobody@43things.com (Jamton) — Thu, 12 Jan 2012 09:39:16 GMT

Jamton added an entry about Daily: Reflect on 5 things for which I'm grateful.:

Yes, I know I’m useless! But I’ve been very busy with uni work so I should be excused a tiny bit!

1. Losing 4 lbs!
2. Having some really good friends surrounding me when times are so hard
3. Having uni work to keep my mind occupied
4. Completing one of my projects a week before hand in
5. Giving C all his stuff back, gaining a bit of closure
6. Having people interested in me – helps gain my confidence a bit!
7. Loan day! I can afford to eat again!
8. Having a bad day and having the will power to NOT drown my sorrows in takeaway or alcohol!
9. Being excited about a little shopping spree I’m having with my bestest friend on Saturday!
10. Nearly completing my tattoo design!!
11. LA ink – completely addicted!
12. My information evening with the Samaritans – really excited about doing something for other people
13. All the volunteering and work opportunities I have this year!
14. Not having to work to someone else’s schedule, it’s really good to be able to go out and come back whenever I want without working what my bf will think!
15. Feeling better as a result of drinking my 2ltrs a day
16. Knowing that I can start looking for a new place soon
17. That I didn’t go to France this week as originally planned, there’s no way I could have done my work if I had
18. The RHCP, for once again proving their ability to help me out of tough emotional situations!
19. Excitement about the prospects this year holds for me!
20. That I’m going to have a free house again as of tonight! :D
21. My creativity
22. being prescribed something for my agonising knee pain!
23. That I managed to get out of bed before 10 for once
24. My knew curlers, that give me the 40’s hair I’ve always dreamed of!
25. knitting!
26. My funny bunny playing with her toilet roll tubes :D
27. Lidl! So I can get my shopping for cheap!
28. My iPod, I love listening to music as I work out
29. Being told my family is proud of me for how well I’ve dealt with stuff over the past few weeks.
30. (THE MOST IMPORTANT ONE!) Having a roof over my head, a warm bed to sleep in, and some way to buy food, unlike the poor homeless people living behind my university. Seeing them broke my heart. I’m considering taking them some food today.

This was difficult!!

Weigh In...

nobody@43things.com (Jamton) — Thu, 12 Jan 2012 09:24:29 GMT

Jamton added an entry about lose 1 stone:

10st 10lbs! :D