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so it’s been pretty the same all the time – yoga twice a week and lots of walking. But now I have an exercise bike in my flat, in my room (!) so I’ve decided to start using it. It belongs to my friend but she has no space in her room for it and she wasn’t really using it anyways …
It’s really difficult for me to find the motivation for something SO BORING but maybe I’ll watch a movie when cycling or an episode of Sex and the City (to observe Carrie’s arms …). I tried once – it’s nothing like a real bike, after 12 minutes (to burn 100 calories) I was sweaty and red on my face and really tired !
So it’s a challenge. I’ll start with 3 times a week for 10 minutes (or so, to burn those 100 cal) and I need to do sit-ups again, because I love to have flat stomach. 1 month ago

so we moved and the new flat needed A LOT of remodeling. It belongs to one of my flatmates, so he was taking care of all that, I did almost nothing. It was difficult to live with cans of paint lying everywhere, but we’re almost done. It’s cute, a lot of white, wooden floors, most of the space feels so fresh. My room is so big, I had never lived in such big room, even in my family house. The distance from the city centre is ok – could be better, but it’s not tragic and connection by tram is good and some of my closest friends live nearby (walking distance).
It’s almost perfect then. Almost … because, you know, I’m not a “modern” person. I like oldschool things in furniture, decor etc. I like original style, not the “fashionable” one. I like loud music, open house, dancing at home at parties and not sitting behind the table. My flatmates – who are otherwise lovely – are not like that. And it’s their house, I’m just living there. So it will never be the way I wish. But for now it’s really cool. More than I expected. 1 month ago

ok, this idea kind of died … I was facing many many things – I didn’t start volunteering and I didn’t start practising my russian. I moved a lot those past few months. I’ve had new jobs (plural!), did new things – it’s just not easy to write about this. It’s time in my life when a lot is going on … I hope it will always be like that, because I don’t let myself to be bored. Or my friends won’t let me.
I’m always searching for new ways to earn money, to experience new things, meet cool people, collect fun memories. I think I don’t need that challenge right now :) 1 month ago

It really tells a lot, what I wrote last time, that it’s really dependent on people how I feel.
Nobody has time these days. Including me. But I can really do a lot in the name of friendship. I need this. I need to see my friends, people who I love, I need to be surrounded by them, feel their interest, I need to know they miss me. Maybe it shows how desperate I am. I don’t know. I’m single. Without my friends I don’t exist.

I realized I focus too much on how my relationships with certain people used to be. When things change, I can’t accept it. I wish I could so it’d be possible to build on what we have now …
It’s so painful when somebody doesn’t have time for me. Because when I’m lonley, I don’t see the point of living. 2 months ago

I’m moving all the time these past several months. First it was a great apartment, terrible company. Then ok apartment, wonderful company. Now very good apartment, very good company. And we are moving together again. All that in just 6 months. That’s too much change, even for me. I like my current place, although the building is terrible, my worst nightmare. Who knew I’d be able to accept that, because once you enter our flat, it feels so nice to be here. 2 months ago

I didn’t find a place to do volunteer work yet, but I did some other NEW things this month.
*I went to a “casino” with a friend, played roulette and won ! It wasn’t a lot, but enough to buy dinner for 2 people. It was really a great, spontaneous evening.
*I cooked dinner for my friends and invited them to my new flat. I get very nervous when inviting people as well as when I cook for someone. This time I did both of those things and it felt really great.
*I came up with the idea of a photography project for myself. It requires finding people (“models”), arranging meetings with them AND taking good pictures. A challenge. Artistic one. I like it.

But I still want to volunteer also. Just time is passing so fast ! 3 months ago

I still take yoga twice a week (sometimes once, but that’s just lately) and I started to notice my body is changing a bit. I have visible muscles on my arms and it makes me proud, I always admired “Madonna’s arms” (maybe not so extreme, but muscular arms are beautiful to me).
I use my whole body muscles when I exercise. My thighs are getting stronger, my stomach flatter. It’s so wonderful. 3 months ago

really cool and inspiring !
I’m a new yoga fan – hats off to you for doing 25 classes in one month. I do 8 and sometimes it feels as if I was going to die. I love it though, I hope You enjoyed yours too :) 3 months ago

Now I’m in a phase when things are in my life are like a sine wave. I feel very loved right now, surrounded by wonderful people. I take yoga, it’s becoming a new hobby and a way to explore myself. I look at the mirror and think – this girl is cool.
At the same time I feel exhausted with my “work life”, I’m lacking inspiration and self confidence to develop myself profesionally.

So I can be high as the sky one day and very very VERY low the next. I think it’s really dependent on people, they make my life better. I wish I wasn’t feeling so lonley so often. 3 months ago

I’ve decided to be more specific when it comes to making resolutions like this one. If I stay with “something new”, I’l never do anything.
So I need to make a plan for myself … a list of 12 new things, each one for a different month this year.

So, for now it’s like this:
JANUARY – join yoga classes. Check. I loooove it !
FEBRUARY – volunteer
MARCH – start practising my russian

t.b.a. 4 months ago

that’s how long this goal has been on my list. That’s too long. And it’s not that I’m not trying. I’m struggling all the time.
I don’t do diets, for me it’s unnatural for our bodies. I try to make permanent changes for life – more sport, more vegetables, more self control. Holistic vision, responsibility for my organism, things to imporve the quality of my life.
But somehow it’s not working. I think I’m too lazy and I don’t exrecise enough.
So I’ve decided to add something to this goal.

UNTIL THE END OF FEBRUARY I need to weigh less than 70 kg. 4 months ago

so today I got my membership card for yoga classes. I took it before already, so I know I really like it and my friend is going there too and it will help me with my back pain so I’m really happy that I made up my mind. I was worried that I can’t afford it, but what the hell, I couldn’t postpone it any longer. 4 months ago

Actually I think this goal should be more explicit when it comes to me. I’ve done so many new things lately – found new flat, started new job, took new classes … Looks like I’m not in a rut at all.
But I’m thinking I should find really “new” things for myself – to get new experiences. Like start a new hobby, volunteer somewhere or do something regularly.
I’ll think about it more this month :) 5 months ago

for rent, I’m not thinking that big yet. 5 months ago

I really recommend You “180 South” (http://www.180south.com/) Beautifully filmed story about travelling, the environment, nature and sooooo inspiring people ! 6 months ago

hah, I get it, I have the same problem when I speak English, even though it’s not my native language.
But in my native language I have different words I use too much in a wrong way. I use something like “You know?” at the end of the sentences (especially when I’m telling a story) and “I’n general” – all the time.

It’s like you said – you have to realize you’re using that words first to try to make an improvement. I think speaking more slowly and less “emotionally” could help me as well. Maybe it’ll work for You too :)
I wish You luck ! 6 months ago

that’s really cool you didn’t just find out about it and let it slip away, You made a first step to become more responsible person. I really respect that. I know it’ll sound really pretentious but I think you are a pure example how everyone can make a change for the planet. 6 months ago

EVS is short for European Voluntary Service. It’s a youth program for UE member countries and basically it means you go to a different country to work as a volunteer for a non-governmental organization. It can be short-term (like mine) 2-3 months, or long-term (9-11 or even a whole year). They don’t pay you for the work, but you also don’t have any expences, since they provide you accomodation, money for food and pocket money.

Thank You for your comment :) 6 months ago

I’m not 100% independent yet, but I’m kind of proud of myself already. I work in a cafe, my salary is low, my hours are long and I’m looking for opportunities to make some extra money all the time … but I like it ! It makes me feel like an adult (that I am) and really teaches me to prioritize.
I’m the kind of preson who likes stuff, but also I’m very anti-consumption (?) oriented. I like bikes, recycling, used clothes and no television. So not buying thins is not really a problem (although it’s nice to get a new pair of shoes once in a while).

But I’m also the kind of person who likes to travel and go to cafes and pubs and cinema with friends, so I need to balance my expences.

My father still pays my mobile phone bills and I still owe him money I borrowed this summer, but I WILL pay him back. Not because I must, but because I want to. 6 months ago

wow, how my life changed. I actually did move back to my old City and it’s been the best decsion I could’ve made. Considering my friends, my family, my career opportunities and in general the quality of life.
I also did an EVS project in different country during this summer and this experience changed my life – even if just for a little while. I met wonderful people who were making me happy and positive every day. I tried to keep it this way when I came back home, but I just missed them too much and I was so so sad.
Now things are getting better, I feel so much “lighter” and I feel like I can see the world around me again. So I hope I’ll be able to remind myself of my attitude during EVS and live this way again :) 6 months ago

LSD is still on my “to do” list, but after something else I’ve experienced lately I’m kind of more afraid to do this. You know, I’m the kind of person who likes to be high for not a very long time, epecially when it’s intense. So I don’t know. We’ll see. 8 months ago