Ottilie

Maybe next time around. Sigh… 2 months ago

I long for something closer to this. My home life is on the right track, but work is leaps and bounds away. I have a good, new job and I know should be happy. I just don’t feel aligned with it which makes me horribly sad at times. I’m trying, but truly only because I don’t know what else to do at this moment. Hopefully an idea of some sort will present itself to me, sooner rather than later. 2 months ago

Having a certain person come into my life some months ago has really pulled this forward. I’ve done things I thought I would never do! 2 months ago

...in Portland at least. =) 2 months ago

I was laid off (again) nearly two weeks ago from another corporate slave-driving sales job. Something is a bit different this time though… I am viewing it as an opportunity to get a bit closer to where I’d like to be. I’ve got good people around me as well who believe I can attain whatever I choose. So, here’s to truly beginning anew—new place, new people, new life… 8 months ago

I inadvertently dropped three pant sizes since moving to Portland in March! What a huge difference a lifestyle change can make. =D 10 months ago

Struggling with this a bit again as of late. I may have taken on more than I can actually handle. I’m in the habit of just walking away in situations that I’m not sure of, but I’m really trying to work through it this time around. 10 months ago

I received a Kindle for my birthday last week, and I’m thinking it will actually help in this endeavor as many of the classic novels are free of charge! I will have to semi-get over my ‘print purist’ stance, but we’ll see where it goes.

Here’s to a lot of (free!) happy reading! 12 months ago

Hopefully soon I will be able to take a big chunk out. I am very excited for it!!! 13 months ago

This has been on my mind quite a bit as of late. I’d love to get started on it now, but there more pressing matters to attend to financially. Soon though, definitely soon… 13 months ago

I am definitely getting better at this. I would certainly not consider it mastered yet. But getting better… 13 months ago

Moving to Portland has been very good for this! It’s a very pedestrian friendly city, so I tend to be walking more. I hope to keep increasing this as the weather continues to get better. 13 months ago

Slowly letting go of the baggage I so dutifully carry with me. It seems that there just isn’t much of a point to it at all.

I must remember that when I’m feeling overwhelmed, to go on a walk to clear my head. =) 14 months ago

I made it! I actually moved to Portland in under six months!

I am feeling much less anxiety and stress now that I am actually here as well. =) 14 months ago

I bought three new pairs of eyeglasses that are leaps and bounds away from my last pair! I definitely did not play it safe this time around… Best decision I’ve made in awhile. =D 15 months ago

I suppose I knew I would lose a couple friends while going through this process, but it doesn’t lessen the blow much. I also know that my true friends are the ones who want what is best for me, are happy for me, and excited about new adventures. I wonder if in time whether I’ll say it was all worth it, or if I will be desperately wishing I did more to keep these people in my life? Although, that is a question only time has an answer for. Being a fairly solitary person may have its benefits this time around.

So here is to letting go, I guess… 15 months ago

=) 15 months ago

Flight is booked for a week from Friday as of this evening.

I am feeling a little bit better about this, but I still think the entire idea sounds insane. This is probably the single most terrifying thing I have ever attempted. 15 months ago

My reaction is the inconvience. 15 months ago

Oh. My. God.
I actually received a job offer today.

I am absolutely terrified of following through on this now. If there was another alternative, I would most certainly find myself chickening out. It shouldn’t surprise me that I feel this way, because unfortunately this occurs nearly every time I have ever wanted something and then been allowed to actually have it. I lose my nerve or something of the sort. This is horribly inconvenient… 15 months ago

I cannot seem to possibly make both them and myself happy at the same time currently. I feel so stationary… 15 months ago

I’m fairly certain that this will not ever happen for me… =/ 15 months ago

...this one has me a bit scared. 15 months ago

I’ve been a bit lax about this in the past few weeks, due to family obligations. Although I have received another phone call regarding employment in Portland. This one sounds quite promising. 15 months ago

Kissing in the snow is much better than in rain! 16 months ago