VioletMyst still believes that Unusual traveling instructions are dancing lessons from God

and it even comes with skills workbooks, encouraging CD’s, and maybe even a ‘process’ support group in a city near you….!

But to be more serious, it’s the new concept of ‘Dialectical Behavioral Therapy’ or DBT….theres also earlier form of Cognitive Behavioral Therapy or CBT. Both have been proven extremely effective in treating people with anxiety disorders, PTSD, borderline personality disorder, anger management, et al…
I havent yet been very long on this path, but the small taste i’ve gotten has given me a great insight and beginning tool-set to deal with that tricky brain thang…and all the analyzing it has done as a (highly ineffective) coping strategy against my depression and ptsd. Here’s one example: i’ve been told to ‘stop living in the past’, and have always retorted “i’ve worked so hard to heal my past!” But a new perspective given to me by DBT is “the past can be Just This Morning” Meaning if youre still mulling or lost in thought over events of the A.M…...you wont be very present throughout the P.M. Just this one tool has made drives to appts when running late much less stressful….instead of stewing over all the ways i screwed up in running late, i focus now on: “Okay, accept that youre running late, thats present reality….perhaps you can apologize when you arrive, but thats in the future, but for right now the only task & focus is driving safely, listen to music, enjoy the scenery…BE PRESENT WITH THE CURRENT MOMENT.

and what a difference that makes… 7 months ago

i did this before. i did weekly sangha meditation for 2+ years some years back. i know it would do me good. i know i need get back into doing meditation, for so many reasons in my life right now. Its free. All it takes is for me to put on sweatpants & head out the door by 6:30pm each tuesday….

SO WHY IS IT NOW 28 MONTHS LATER & I STILL HAVENT GONE ONCE YET ??

talk about deep resistance! 19 months ago

Much like other’s, i got inspired by Kim N’s idea on this, except i’m going to list “Future Tense” goals, rather than things already accomplished…

But it will take awhile to compile the list

A- Accumulate inner security, not external “trinket fixes”
B- Buy back my Grandmother’s Farm
C-
D-
E-
F- Finish my B.A. in Humanities
G- Give birth to my own child
H-
I- Italian language, be able speak italian fluently
J-
K- Keep a job for more than a year again
L-
M- Marry the love of my life
N-
O- own an old house i love
P- Publish my poetry
Q- Question my favorite writers, directors and screenwriters on how they work
R- Ride in a 3-day Event
S- Sing a bossa nova solo in a club, once i’ve well-trained my voice
T- Train a racehorse to run in the Kentucky Derby
U-
V- Visit Montremont, Glastonbury, Shikoku
W- Walk the labyrinth at Chartres
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Y- Yield all hope of having a different past (quote)
Z- Zapatear all paralyzing forms of anxiety that keep me from living the life i want 5 years ago