43 Things: Recent Activity by Mimi Gilbert

go to Mono Lake, CA

nobody@43things.com (Mimi Gilbert) — Wed, 11 May 2011 05:59:16 GMT

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How to jump off the ventura pier at night

nobody@43things.com (Mimi Gilbert) — Tue, 16 Mar 2010 05:51:35 GMT

Mimi Gilbert wrote about How to jump off the ventura pier at night:

How I did it: im just going to write what i wrote in my journal:

Friday night (march 13, 2010) was a LIFE appreiciation dinner at CLC. Afterward, me briana, maddie, emilie and skyler went to main st. I didn't wanna pay for the movie so me and skyler didn't go. instead, we walked to the crowne plaza, and i said "HEY! perfect time and tide, let's jump off of the pier!" He got excited and so we walked up the pier a ways and took our clothes off and hid them under the bench. Then we climbed up onto the railing and jumped *with dramatic emphasis* into the black bitter sea. Swimming in was exciting. When i got to shore, my body was tingling everywhere from the cold cold water. After that, we snuck into the hot tub at the C street apartments. ..

at first it was fun, but then we started to get really quiet. this is long after me and skyler weren't dating. We were looking at eachothers hands, not talking, for what seemed like 15 minutes. He was all shaky and he started breathing sort of heavy/irregualrly. (which is not unusual for him... he becomes winded easily it seems). I was curled up, holding my knees to my chest. This was most because i felt naked. He put his lips to my forehead for a minute and then kissed me there over and over and over. Then i leaned into his chest and said "this isn't helping you skyler" i tried to say other things like "lets not get confused" but he didn't reply to anything, he just stayed really quiet. i just decided to stop talking. I loved that we were in water. Eventually I looked at his face, something i had been avoiding. He looked so small and sad and hopeless :( so i put my hand into the water and started to trace his face and eyes and chin with my hand. I then, and this is what i probably shouldn't have done, put my hand back in the water and touched his lips. Then i kissed him, his face was all salty from the ocean. Then he kissed me back. Then kissed my face all over, then my collar, and me again. I said hey we should put our clothes back on". So we did, and we walked and talked back to century 10. He was talking as gentle and shy as a little boy. He was quiet the rest of the night, he told me to keep this between the two of us. He's trying to not talk about his personal life in public as much. Apparently. We talked a lot on the way back and made firm, our grounds again. We're not anything but friends. He said "but comfortable friends don't kiss" and i said haha "yes they do." I told him i won't use him in that sort of friend with benefits way. What's the reward in that? I don't get how people are so tempted to use people they aren't attracted to or are passionate about. Ive never really seen sky like that. Anyway, it's one of those nights that i'll put in my pocket. I can imagine people telling me that was not the right thing to do. i can't explain why but , yes it was. We didn't really get to tell each other what we felt, because my break up with him was so abrupt. Now we're done. And it makes sense to both of us, if not to anyone else.

It took me 1 day.

It made me done. pier=thrilled!

How to get a job

nobody@43things.com (Mimi Gilbert) — Sun, 27 Sep 2009 20:01:59 GMT

Mimi Gilbert wrote about How to get a job:

"a few different things "

How I did it: I give several guitar lessons a week now, I sell eggs form our chickens, when in season i would get 50 or more $ a week for selling oranges but greatest of all i was offered an internship/paid job at my church for assistant worship leader.

It took me 2 months.

It made me good

How to break up with my boyfriend

nobody@43things.com (Mimi Gilbert) — Tue, 18 Aug 2009 07:26:01 GMT

Mimi Gilbert wrote about How to break up with my boyfriend:

"finally did it"

How I did it: i told him finally. It went so well. As well as it could have. But i was so worried and anxious and ugh just feeling terrible for the last few days thinking about it. It was ripping me around way more than i ever thought something like this would. i always thought that movies make such a big deal out of young (teen)relationships, and how they tear people (even the people like me who are not wanting a relationship) up inside.

I ran into him today at the shops, and then jenny called and cancelled plans that we had for tonight so i asked him if we could do something together. I drove to starbucks and waited for him to do some errands or something. He came after 30 minutes or so and we walked to blockbuster to find a good movie to watch at his house. the movie was really great. Black Sheep with Chris Farley. so funny! We started it at around 8pm.we were laying in his bed. His bed is better than yours by the way. Like a heaven cloud. but black sheets. lol anyway.. a few minutes after the movie ended, after we looked for stunt people in the credits, he leaned over me and kissed me and then i told him to wait. and we just stayed there and stared at each other for a really long time. When ever he stares at me, i always used to give up before him. you know and look down or something before he did. He always won staring contests haha. then i asked 'how are you'? he said, kind of worried, good. and a few other things. then he asked me, and i said "okay." I dont know what all we said, what i said but when i finally got it across that i dont want to be with him, that i dont feel like myself with him, and that i dont love him, as hard as ive tried to, he totally crumbled. Its so weird, youknow skyler, he always, even if he doesnt realize it, builds up his man rep. He does it as a joke sometimes but its really the truth. His real dad, step dad, brothers...all his men influences in his life are raised up by this manliness persona. Anyway, when i got it across to him, all that false face totally disappeared and he like wheezed kind of and got all shaky and just kept asking, "but what do you meeean?." i started crying in front of him, which probably made everything all the more confusing. He was teary too at this point ,and i kissed his forehead and eyes and said that i was sorry.

So there you go. No one has ever loved me like that. At times i would almost get selfish. Being cared for is something everyone wants to feel. But i couldn't stay with him for a stupid reason like wanting to be wanted. So yes. My first boyfriend. He said that if i move away for college and come back in ten years or whenever, he will still love me. haha who could know who they will be in 10 years time. I cried because i was so frustrated that i couldnt accept that, want or have that. I want to want that. everyone does. Our whole conversation, when we talking or were quiet, was the most real moment we'd ever had together. I typed this because im saving it in my 43 things.

It took me 2 weeks.

It made me sad glad.