bratika84

I love to draw, im not a professional, yet, but i will be one day. 10 months ago

I had wanted to visit New York since i was a a youngster. Something about that state that just called my name. I went there with my spouse in september of 2004 and returned january 2005. It was awesome! We drove the whole way there and back to California! and we took our dogs :) and came back with a kitten. That was the first time. The second time was in November 2010 and we drove out there with our 2 kids and 2 cats. We stayed there for about 8 months. Its really a beautiful place to live but let me tell you, the people are much different from californians. Some of the people were just fine though. The snow fights and sledding were memorable. The frozen windshields and key holes on the car were not so pleasant :/ but we managed. oh and getting stuck in the snow! oh man, looking back it was kind of funny. :) The drive across country is what made living there so worth it. If you can get out there just to visit for a few weeks to a month, i would do that first, you dont want to be in a foreign place with no family and no idea how to adjust. But if your like me and do before you think…..then go for it. you only live once right! 10 months ago

i feel like not having that one really good friend i can talk to about anything has really changed me. & not that other people or having a friend defines me, but not having at least one really good friend does. im not close to anyone i once was with. i mean they’re my fb friend but come on…well i feel like if i could just stay 100% involved with something i can start getting to know people again and start opening up more. bit i know thats not realistic. ive had that opportunity and i blow it every time. i guess maybe im insecure or sometimes to critical. i really dont do it on purpose tho. people are just so damn shallow and i stay away from those types of people. idk. sometimes it isn’t me tho, i see people do cold hearted things or say 2 faced things that i just keep it professional and try to turn a blind eye and just stay to myself. because obviously you see them do it tp someone else, its only a matter of time they’re going to do it to you. 13 months ago

So busy trying to be supportive and putting my all into making something work for someone else that what I want and need stays on the back burner. I just want to put all that energy and even stress into something that will make me feel happy complete and accomplished. 13 months ago