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they may be aphids. 11 months ago

i hope you have success avoiding anything that isn’t going to be productive to you. i also hope you have something else you can latch onto. 11 months ago

have you ever had 2 bananas, and decided to eat the ripest one first, two minutes before you eat the greener one? 11 months ago

when the urges come, they bring thoughts with them. don’t let them take root, and turn from them immediately, and toward whatever ‘higher power’ you can thank for keeping you free. keep doing this each time. it may not work for you, but i say try anything that may help.

oh, and you were asking why did you take the wrong action – the part of you that would have been satisfied if it were made to be satisfied with alcohol, has only alcohol to latch onto. try giving it something real. 11 months ago

the alternative is really scary, since you don’t know what is the outcome. not only that, but success is even scarier, if you believe in hell (torture for murder). i say this to prevent you. 11 months ago

maybe give yourself a break. like, self forgiveness… then you won’t berate yourself, but find possible answers to how you’re feeling. this is just a suggestion, and i’m sure you know yourself better than anyone :) 11 months ago

firstly, i want some! secondly, i agree with your opinion, crunchy. does she ship milk, or would it even last that long? lastly, i’ve got to make some more hommade yogurt! 11 months ago

looks like you hit a few things there. 11 months ago

ah, the browser ate my comment… here goes my memory of it:
Queen hit on 2 things: personage, and will.
these two things are yours. personage isn’t “self-loathing”, but your qualities.
will is your arms, legs, mind, and heart. you can work both, although you may have the limitations of being slower and having more difficulty accomplishing something.
if you forgive yourself, and give to yourself, depression is only the luggage that comes along, that hopefully you drop along the way. 11 months ago

sorry zeroid that you have to deal with those temptations.
your post, draco, made me think of how prevalent drinking is (along with its temptation and peer pressure) in every place and situation around the world. if i step outside of the world’s perspective, i can see that i don’t want to be a part of that system. so the members of that system are a part of it, and must abide by its rules. i’ll just tell them i don’t want any part of it, and if they ask why, i’ll tell them i don’t want to be fooled into a hangover or a lost day because of it. if they keep pressing, i’ll get mad and tell them that drinking is a hoax. they don’t want to hear the explanation of that, cause it involves them being a puppet. 11 months ago

i’ve tried to find answers for depression for so long, that, as you suggested, it seems as if there’s an outside influencing factor. 11 months ago

like a possession? 11 months ago

i wouldn’t wait… i’d spray at least some sort of organic bug killer, like soap or something. they’ll reproduce, and they’re there for a reason. 11 months ago

i like the ideas, i never thought of poem subjects in colors. 11 months ago

it must feel very hurtful that his expectations are different than yours, especially if he led you to believe something. but you know your qualities. and he’s in the wrong, cheating. so you’re the better man. 11 months ago

please don’t let unforgiveness stay in your mind and heart, since it ultimately hurts only you. if you have standards you place on people, they’re bound to let you down. i think you do have it right that you’re responsible for your own well being. then perhaps it’ll be easier to let people in. 11 months ago

“Jer 31:33 But this is the covenant that I will make with the house of Israel after those days, saith Jehovah: I will put my law in their inward parts, and in their heart will I write it; and I will be their God, and they shall be my people: “

so it’s really about your heart that god is concerned with. i think your body will follow, and that god really is the answer to any insecurity, since he is so concerned with your well being. 11 months ago

i was just at my desk feeling stressed, and reading your suggestion to post a haiku. 11 months ago

lol! 11 months ago

hands approach ceiling
orange and banana rest
will sugar destress? 11 months ago

i’m so glad you’re really keeping your perspective! 12 months ago

it’s hard completing duties when your insides are crumbling. it sounds like you’ll have to come up with plans to cope for when it may occur again. then you’ll be more prepared.

the inner dialogue probably isn’t true at all, just the negative things your mind tries to rationalize, for the frustration of not being able to solve the problem immediately… a defense. if you consciously take control, you can have a more true perspective.

what i’d do, is sometime sit and go through that situation mentally, and as it appears to you, change it to be as you want, actually hypnotizing yourself to feel the emotions that result from a true perspective’s outcome. i believe it will program you for a better feeling later. 12 months ago

lol at first i thought you wrote ‘crayons of foodlike substances’. cause that’s how i feel about them anyway. i say avoid free glutamates. 12 months ago

oh, i didn’t mean writing it isn’t the best way to learn, but that, like me, people just read about the way to write them, then say,
‘that’s nice’, then write what they usually write. i’ve learned that poetry is really hard to write well. 12 months ago

after writing poetry, then going back to prose, it was like the karate kid – the skills from poetry suddenly improved my writing. what a challenge to learn poetry form by trying to write them! 12 months ago

that poem makes me smile cause i write poetry. it’s a great idea to help him cause he’ll feel like he doesn’t have to stress about it. plus, i think he’ll actually enjoy learning to write. if he’s as smart as you, he’ll be writing in no time. 12 months ago

i’m so glad! 12 months ago

have you ever considered that you’re under attack? i think people are busy looking to counter their impulses, when they also should be looking for the causes of them. 12 months ago

was your back hurting cause of your kidneys? i’d try to alkalinize myself, and take epsom salt (only 1/8 tsp increments). maybe it would get the kidneys in better shape. the water definitely helps them. if you have dandelions, you can cut and boil the roots, then drink (make darn sure they’re dandelions).

to make your body more alkaline, don’t eat acidic foods, and look up ways to make your system more alkaline. 12 months ago