So I was told that this district ‘wants’ to hire me, but they ‘can’t’ because I ‘bomb’ the job interviews. So they keep hiring people who are from somewhere else & have never worked for them before. Sounds like an excuse to me.
I figure that if they wanted to hire me, they would hire me. I’ve been working for them for 2 years, so obviously I suck as far as they can tell. [ I’m keeping in mind that the people who hire are not the people I am directly working with, so they don’t really have a clue what goes on anyway. ]
Sooo, I was all pissed off for a week or two, thinking, “I don’t need to suck up to you jerks anyway, I guess my time here is done, unless I want to keep working part time for the rest of my life.” (Except that I have no money so I can’t afford to move in the next 6 months)
But then I was talking to my roommate, who said “I can tell you are a good teacher and you like your job because every time you come home from work, you are enthusiastic about the day. And even if it was a bad day, you laugh and say I’m glad that’s over with!”
So, yeah. I enjoy my job. I don’t enjoy waiting around to see if I’ll be working today/ tomorrow, and I don’t enjoy not knowing if I can pay off my credit card and debts each month. I certainly don’t enjoy the politics of applying for jobs when there is no way I’ll get them because they don’t even post a position until they’ve already chosen who they want to hire.
But when I’m actually working, it’s great.
So – I guess my bad attitude and stubbornness about the completely whacked hiring process is self-sabotage, because I do really like my job. Sigh, I just have to force myself to jump though these bloody hoops. (Why does that make me feel so defeated?) 2 years ago