Beth

Things I’m grateful for today:

1.Medicine that allows me to BREATHE again. It’s not a long term solution, but for once in a while, I can deal with it.
2.No matter what happens, it’s always going to be okay. Things aren’t crumbling down, and it’s nice to remember that.
3. The boat is IN the water. :). We are cleaning the remainder up this weekend and fixing the water heater, so we can shower and do all that great stuff you need to do on a daily basis :).
4. All the boat shopping is DONE. We have everything we need! Shampoo, food etc.!
5. Signed up for a 5K and it’s free!! Excited for my first goal getting met! And so soon into the season! 1 month ago

Well, I’m closer than last time!!

Not much. But a little bit each week is better than 0.

I have a ways to go to get to my goal, but I’m feeling motivated lately. 1 month ago

Just a little love because I have so much.

Things I’m grateful for today:

1. I got offered a new position at work that will actually challenge me, and look awesome on a resume.
2. I got my fitbit in the mail, so I can get back to tracking my activity and sleep again!!!
3. Our new car is SO AWESOME. I love it so so much. It has heated and vented seats AND heated and cooled cupholders (which I wish I’d thought of because that is genius!)
4. My husband is so supportive of me losing weight and getting in shape. He needed a little nudge of me telling him it was important to me, and that I couldn’t have him complaining about how he doesn’t get to spend as much time with me on weeknights because I’m working out. He stopped complaining and started encouraging. He really wants what’s best for me, sometimes he just needs to be reminded what that is.
5. I will not have to be around the draining people I work around now, and I feel that while the other people might also be draining, it’s in a different way, and I’m really looking forward to that.
6. My husbands new job has him working hard, and I think he remembers that he actually enjoys that feeling.
7. We are going up to the boat this weekend to get it ready to splash! It’s getting so close and I can not be happier to have my summer friends back around every weekend! They’re just so great, and I am glad I keep in touch over facebook and texts but I am so excited that my summer family is going to be my summer family again so soon!
8. I just have so much to look forward to, it’s hard to let the negative nancys bring me down right now. 1 month ago

well I always start out strong, but I’m already having a hard time! i forgot to pack all of my clothes yesterday so I am only going to be on day two today! I do plan on going tomorrow and if all else fails I know I will get a work out on Saturday we’re going to the boat to clean it, and it’s HARD WORK. So, I know week one is good. :):). 1 month ago

I am working harder on losing weight, going to the gym every other day, and I am starting to be more aware of what goes in my body…even though it’s sort of a tough truth to realize EVERYTHING has to change but it’s still a truth. It’s getting better, and I’m already notciing a difference and I am certain the weight will start to go down soon.
Talked to my OBGYN about starting a family, starting on prenatal vitamins and we’re looking at selling our condo so we’ll be in a permanent home eventually…sooner rather than later.
I have nicer pants and nicer clothes, and I’m working on this, but being that I AM losing weight, I don’t intend on buying a ton of clothes right now, because I won’t be in them forever.
I am still working on the not letting others bother me thing. I have started to come to terms more with the fact that I won’t see eye to eye with everyone. I can feel good about it usually though, as long as I was the best person I could be. I will continue to try to live like this… it feels good.
I actually have made a few new friends, and they’re great. Lovely people really, and I look forward to seeing them…and my husband likes them. It’s been nice and drama free lately.
I just got offered a new position at work, and so I’ll be moving over to a different job with different people. I’m really looking forward to it. It will be a LOT more work than what I’m currently doing, but I think that will be good. I can honestly say, I think it will be a great fit for me, and I look forward to when I can go over there.
I am working on being a better person still, but I think I am getting better every day. It’s sometimes hard to take a breath and realize that I’m getting dragged down by someone who is just unhappy and miserable. I am getting better at it though. I can usually find a reason to smile. 1 month ago

I got a new job in the same company. It’s in a different location and I will be dealing with different people and different problems all together. I’m excited because the negative nancy’s over where I’m at will not be over there! There are four people I just need to distance myself from, not be around them constantly… and I will succeed in doing that. I don’t mind having a conversation with them, but I don’t want these people involved in my career what-so-ever. So, it’s a new opportunity for me. 1 month ago

It’s nothing super special, but I’ve finally started posting on a regular basis again. (ie: more than once a month lol)
this is my blog: http://devastatinglydorky.wordpress.com/ 1 month ago

I feel this goal is not specific enough. It’s pretty easy to call “regularly” a lot of things and I need specific otherwise I won’t get off my butt and do it. 1 month ago

doing this in April!

I am going to purchase the book and some crayons tonight and do this at the boat. It will pass time and calm me down and it’s perfect for the boat! I’m excited!!! 1 month ago

Due: Aug. 31 2014 …516 days
Done: 48
Left to do: 53

I have more than 101 things on my list, but if I get 101 done, It’s done :).

http://dayzeroproject.com/user/ehilgenberg10/list/40015 1 month ago

I joined a gym a bit ago! My goal for April is to go three times a week. We’ll see. 1 month ago

• be nice to people even when I’m upset.
• laugh more
• get the boat in!!
• clean up the boat
• dress well for work every single day.
• work out three times a week
• clean my parents house 1 time per week
• drink only one soda per week day. 1 month ago

So I’m starting over. Clean slate.
Today I will be working out for an hour at the gym.
My goal for April is to work out for one hour three times a week. A total of 800 minutes working out is the real goal, it’s an average of 1 hour three times a week plus 20 minutes.
My other goal is to eat within my calorie goal for the day 25 out of the 30 days. This means I will have to be diligent about logging my food for the month to know what I’m eating. I just need to get back to paying attention to what goes into my body. 1 month ago

It’s time to just do this. I have a phone and a camera now and I even own a vehicle to transport me. I am going to go be a tourist this weekend and do this:). 2 months ago

Stay somewhere I’m unhappy just because I don’t know where else I’ll go. Sometimes you can’t find somewhere else to go until you have nowhere else to be. 3 months ago

lol someone already tried to ruin this. but I think he’s forgotten about it :). 3 months ago

2301. Who is the hottest celebrity you can think of?
Um. I don’t know Jake Gillenhall maybe? I don’t really think of celebrities as hot, I’m weird like that.

2302. Have you ever been to the following diaries(on opendiary.com)? If yes, what do you think..if no, then based on the name, does it sound interesting to you?
Hicks:No.
Shukhevych: No.
Cinderella: No.
Oliver:No.
A tinfoil valentine: No.
Burning River: No.
joebeginswithajay: No.

2303. Do you ever get so nervous that you can’t even think?
No.

2304. Do you sing when there is no music?
Sometimes, if there is a song in my head.

2305. Would you rather cast a spell or say a prayer?
Uh, prayer.

2306. Why does the US dollar bill have a pyramid on it?
Masonic ties.

2307. Who was the best political leader in history and why?
No.

2308. What was the first sex toy you ever used?
Uh. No.

2309. If you hated a book, would you burn it?
No. I’d give it away. Someone else might like it.

2310. What are your feelings about pornography?
I don’t care about it one way or another.

2311. What are your feelings about people who are against pornogrophy?
They are modest and have their own oppinions.

2312. If you could dance with anyone in the world right now, who would it be and what song would you dance to?
My husband to “Forver” by uncle jesse and the beach boys ;)

2313. What is your favorite flavor of schnapps?
I don’t drink schnapps… but I’ll go peach. You can mix it with a variety of things.

2314. Finish this sentence your own way. There are two types of people in the world…
Ones who suck and ones who don’t.

2315. What have you saved since elementary school?
My pig pillow.

2316. Have you ever won an award?
Not since 7th grade. Unless my scholarship counts.

2317. Are you more:

good or evil? good.
wise or foolish? foolish.
safe or dangerous? safe
satisfied or envious? satisfied
honest or decietful? honest
faithful or perfidious? faithful
sane or mad? sane
strong or weak? weak
enigmatic or plain? plain
aggressive or peaceful? peaceful…most days.
brave or timid? timid
humane or cruel? humane
critical or appreciative? critical.
temperamental or calm? calm.
sad or happy? happy.
normal or unusual? normal

2318. How do you feel about Terri Schiavo?
I don’t really feel any way about her.

2319. Do you feel more connected to the sun or the moon?
Uh, this is a dumb question. I’ll go Sun.

2320. Do flaws make people interesting to you?
It depends on their flaws. Sometiems they make a person interesting other times they just make them annoying.

2321. Who is your favorite historical figure?
Abe Lincoln. He makes me smile.

2322. White bread or wheat bread?
White.

2323. Would you rather never have sex again or have sex once with a walrus?
Uh never again.

2324. Would you rather sky dive or deep sea dive?
Sky dive.

2325. What is the kinkiest thing you’ve ever done?
Not writing it here.

2326. What is your favorite pick-up line?
No.

2327. Do you usually do things fast or right?
Right.

2328. What will the most common halloween costume be this year?
probably nothing, but if anything I might do firefighter because I have the costume.

2329. What was it last year?
Nothing.

2330. Is love a choice or something that can’t be helped?
It’s both. You have to chose to love someone in the beginning, but once you do, you can’t help but love that person.

2331. What is youur preffered method of birth control?
I don’t use birth control anymore. But when I did I liked the shot because I didn’t have to remember to take it.

2332. Is there someone you see everyday (or sometimes) that you would like to hug and talk to but you just don’t know them well enough?
No. I don’t like to hug.

2333. Are you or have you ever been in a band?
No. Unless you count middle school orchestra. for 1/2 a year.

2334. Here are 4 statements about me. Only one of them is true. Which one is it?

a. I lost my mind doing drugs.

b. I’ve been arrested before.

c. I have 9 cats.

d. I have a children’s book published.

I don’t care. ... E.
2335. What do you think of the smashing pumpkins?
I don’t.

2336. Would you wear a thong bathing suit in public?
How public? I’d probably wear one on my boat.

2337. Hello I love you won’t you tell me your name?
No. Stop quoting stupid songs.

2338. If you had to be surgically attached at the hip for two years to either Britney Spears, George W. Bush or an ugly creepy troublesome but nice troll, who would you pick and why?
No. Surgery is painful. So, no.

2339. Let’s assume that there is a “meaning of life,” a reason for humans to be here on this planet. Would you give up both of your legs and one of your arms if it would mean everyone else would learn the meaning of life?
No. What if the meaning isn’t worth living for?

2340. If you could meet God and talk to him for 5 hours, or find out whether or not there is intelligent life on other planets and make contact with them, which would you pick and why? (Note: If you meet God, you will never find out if there is intelligent life on other planets, so you can’t ask God if aliens exist. Also, you would get no proof that you had talked to him or her. And finally, if God doesn’t exist then you don’t get to meet him or her!).
God. Because he/she knows all and is all powerful and I really don’t care about aliens.

2341. Sixteen Candles, Pretty in Pink, or the Breakfast Club?
Breakfast Club.

2342. Before you read this question, pick a person from your life, any person. (You have to be thinking about someone before you continue!). Would you rather have the ability to watch that person for one hour per day, or would you rather have that person watch you for one hour per day? Who is it and why? (you pick the hour – they don’t know that they are being watched – it’s like there are invisible TV cameras following them around)?
I’d rather watch them.

2343. Would you rather be guaranteed to have your dream job or never be heartbroken?
Well, I’ve already been heartbroken, so I’ll go dream job.

2344. Have you thought about death today?
Well, because of this survey, yes. But otherwise, no.

2345. What is your favorite breakfast?
My mom’s scrambled eggs with bacon. They’re the best.

2346. What is your favorite classic movie?
Goonies! An 80’s classic.

2347. Gold or silver eyeshadow?
Gold with my face, but I like silver better in general.

2348. Are you the life of the party?
Sometimes, depends on the party.

2349. Do you wish you were?
See above answer.

2350. Sdrawkcab daer uoy nac?
I can, but why?

2351. If you realize that a student at your school or a colleague from your job has plagerized part of their work from the internet. What do you do?

2352. What does your computer look like when you aren’t looking at it??
Like a screen that’s lit up.

2353. If you aren’t looking at it, how do you know it’s still there when your back is turned?
Uh, that’s spacial perception. You know what is around you and where.

2354. If you hit an animal with your car would you get out to try and make sure it was okay?
Yes.

2355. If it was someone’s cat (collared with address) would you knock on their door and appologize for hitting the cat?
If it was okay.

2356. How do you feel about the people who are teased in high school sueing the bullies who teased them for emotional damage?
I think they should grow a thicker skin, that’s life and we should learn to live it. Not everyone is nice.

2357. Do you have an interest in any of the following:

guns: yes
explosives: no
marilyn manson: no
trench coats: if they’re cute.
the mafia: sure.
death: only to the extent that I don’t want to be dead.
satanism: No.
nazis: No.
that doom game: what’s that doom game?

2358. Do you believe that people live in their own worlds or realities or do you think we all share the same world/reality?
Somewhere in the middle.

2359. Do you believe that Nazism was a characteristically German thing, or do you think a similar type of government could spring up in any country?
It obviously took over Austria without a fight, so it’s just a matter of whom is brainwashed.

2360. Is your diary in the internet archive wayback machine (http://www.archive.org/web/web.php)?
No.

2361. When do you get your most peaceful and satisfying sleep?
When I’m at home.

2362. What thought gets you out of bed in the morning?
I don’t know, I just get out of bed without thinking about it.

2363. Do you get along better with guys or girls (as friends)?
Girls, I don’t have guy friends they make my husband mad. lol.

2364. What does tx81z stand for?
I don’t know.

2365. How many points is the letter Z worth in Scrabble?
I don’t know probably 10.

2366. In poker, which hand is better: four of a kind or a straight?
I think it depends on the four of a kind #/face card.

2367. What is the official language of Australia?
I’m guessing English.

2368. On what continent would you find British Columbia?
North America.

2369. Have you been to homestarrunner.com?
yes.

2370. What promise could you never keep?
I’ll be neat.

2371. No cat has 8 tails.

Every cat has one tail more than no cat.

How many tails does every cat have?
Uh, 9.

2372. What are you a member of?
Nothing right now.

2373. If you and your mate were stranded at sea on a scuba diving trip like in the movie Open Water, how would you survive?
I haven’t seen the movie. But I think I would stay on the boat and try to fashion a trap to filter water.

2374. Do you feel confident that you would know what to do under emergency circumstances?
Yes. I’ve been there and done that.

2375. Have you ever been stood up?
No.

2376. Use a similie to describe yourself.
I’m like a person who thinks this is dumb.

2377. Good. Now use a metaphore.
I’m an enigma wrapped in… who cares?

2378. Have you ever had an unusual piercing?
No.

2379. Have you ever experianced culture shock?
Yeah, it’s called the South.

2380. Imagine you were trapped in one of the world trade center towers on 9/11/01. Who would you call and what would you say to them in those last few minutes?
I’d call my husband and tell him I love him. But I don’t think cells were working, so I’d probably just say goodbye to the person next to me.

2381. Do you ever go to school or work when you feel like you do not look your best??
Of course I do.

2382. Does doing this effect your whole day?
Well, probably, but I don’t really think of it like that.

2383. What was the last movie you watched and what did you learn from it?
I don’t remember, probably Iron Man 2 , and I learned that Iron Man 2 wasn’t as good as the first.

2384. Do you believe that everyone who doesn’t believe in your religion is going to hell?
I don’t.

2385. What is the best thing about winter?
Summer is coming. Sometimes I need a little break from all the fun. The first few weeks of winter are great, because I can sleep in on weekends and be by myself for a bit, but over time it really gets old, and by Feb. I’m ready to get to summer.

2386. Do you ever shovel your neighbor’s walk?
No, I live in a condo, we don’t do that kind of stuff, that’s what we pay our HOA fees for.

2387. How often do you hold back from saying what you are thinking?
As often as possible, I often think really mean things.

2388. Have you ever looked back at someone you loved and wondered ‘what attracted me to THEM?’
Yes, all the time. But I know it was that I was a different person then and I’m a better person now.

2389. What do you think of Drew Barrymore?
I don’t

2390. Name one thing you refuse to ever do.
Be untrue to myself.

2391. Nmae one place you refuse to ever go.
I don’t think there’s anywhere I REFUSE to go to, but there’s places I’d rather go somewhere else.

2392. Do you think people see you more as who you are or what you are?
I believe that’s the same thing.

2393. Pick 3 random letters:
SLC

Now think of the first 3 things that pops into your head that starts with each letter.
Salt Lake City

2394. Do you dress more revealing or more to cover up?
In between. It really depends on where I’m going. Work- to cover up. If I’m going out I might dress a little bit more revealing but not too much, I’m married and I don’t need to show the world something that only one person needs to see.

2395. What does it take to be a ‘real gentleman’?
Be kind to everyone. Including men. Be a kind person with a good heart. And always pick up my tab ;).

2396. Where would you go if you were going somewhere you don’t usually go?
I would go to Florida!! I miss it and I was hoping to take off next week and thinking I might take a flight down there and check it out.

2397. On the first sept 11th anniversary, the new york lottery’s winning numbers were 9,1 and 1. Do you believe this is fate, coincidence or a conspiracy/plan?
I don’t really believe anything.

2398. Have you ever noticed that there is a lie in the middle of the word believe?
What?

2399. When (and if) people (or animals) go to heaven, do they become angels?
I don’t know what happens and I’m not sure enough of what happens later to count on it.

2400. What is your most important body part? my brain. 3 months ago

No progress since Jan. and I am feeling like I don’t know how to do this. I need to start saving money again just for this purpose so I can purchase clothes and shoes and accessories. :). 3 months ago

1. Walk 10,000 steps
2. do ten flights of stairs
3. drink 8 cups of water
4. eat veggies at lunch. 3 months ago

my goal is to work out four days this week. 3 months ago

walk 10,000 steps
do my work out tonight.
eat between 1200 and 1500 calories
add more veggies to my meals 3 months ago

Once a week at least. That’s how often I feel I should write something. It doesn’t need to be the BEST THING EVER WRITTEN every single time. But I still need to keep up with it. If i don’t, it’s just going to be something else I’m just going to lose… like drawing. I can still draw but it isn’t the same as it used to be. It takes more time I have to look harder at things… and I miss what I used to have. I don’t want writing to be the same way. I need to do it more often. 3 months ago

I saw someone had these questions posted on their page, and I thought they were such great wonderful awesome amazing questions that we should ask ourselves every single day. So… that’s why I’m doing that.
I’m still on a bit of a high today from dinner last night. It was just so lovely, and I’m just so happy I got to have one really really nice Valentine’s day where my husband didn’t give me a gift that he wanted and where no one complained about…well… anything. It was just a really great night.

What am I grateful for today?
1. A lovely dinner that I had last night still making me smile.
2. The video of my bird playing with his shadow. It makes me giggle.
3. Knowing I have a massage to go to soon!
4. It’s Friday and I have two days off from work now.
5. I can take that time to search for my passion. I finally have no real plans this weekend other than eventually getting laundry done.
What do I praise myself for today?
1. I have been able to laugh at silly things that would normally make me mad.
2. I have a good outlook today on my future… and I can see myself making plans.
3. I did pretty good with lunch today—getting a salad like I promised myself.
4. I have been kind to others today. Moreso than usual today I have been kind.
What was the best thing that happened to me today?
I was able to have a normal conversation with a person who I don’t always care for and it was really nice. Also, I’ve learned my husband might be up for a new job that will pay A LOT more and possibly allow me to work part time in the future when we have children. Which would be AMAZING. It would also allow me the opportunity to pursue anything I wish.
What could I have done better today?
I have been a bit lazy today with myself. Allowing myself to do nothing for the first…like three hours of work. Granted, I was able to get all my work done but I should do work first and then be lazy.
What did I learn today?
I have dreams, and I think I might be able to work towards them soon, and knowing I might be able to one day is amazing.
What is the most important thing (or most important things) I must accomplish tomorrow?
Laundry.
Applications.
Who is the most important person (or most important people) in my life and what am I doing for them?
Jon. I have to give him his valentine’s gift tomorrow (it’s food, and as we were eating dinner out for Valentine’s Day, I told him what his gift was and told him he would receive it on Saturday when he could actually eat it and enjoy it.). I need to do more for him though…including helping more around the house. He’s tired when he gets home too and he still finds the time to do things… (even though he DOES get home an hour before me). 3 months ago