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It is getting to be a real challenge immersing myself in all the material necessary to become certified (something I am not even sure I intend to go through with, as I really want to be a doula for the experience and not the money) while separating how strongly I feel about wanting to be a mom before it’s too late for me to be a young mom. I feel like everyone sees this strong desire but the man I am in a relationship with, and possibly he sees but does not want to acknowledge it.

I am very confused by everything I am feeling right now and I don’t really know how to work through these feelings on my own, or at least I haven’t found a good way to yet. Thoughts? 9 months ago

http://jezebel.com/5894635/trolling-politicians-facebook-pages-with-vaginal-news-is-hot-new-trend 11 months ago

somewhere along the way i have gotten stuck in the quick sand of cynical thinking. most of the time i don’t notice it but then i encounter a situation where, all at once, i mentally get this smug look on my face and think to myself “oh, how naive/unrealistic! really!” usually it’s directed at somebody i should probably feel happy for, but instead there’s really a mix of emotions too complex or painful for me to process and so i fall back on cynicism.

i want it to stop. i want to be the light-hearted person i once was, i want my friends to see this change, i want to let this weight go and be open to everything again. i want to say “good luck” to the people embarking on new changes and i want to wholeheartedly mean it when i wish them the very best. this is my rededication. everyone’s life is different, our decisions take us to different places, and we all deserve to have these differences respected instead of cut down and belittled.

no more cynicism! 11 months ago

There were penguins roaming around this very fancy hotel in Maui. I couldn’t believe it. No cage or anything, they just had a little space to themselves in the middle of this giant lobby!

On the one hand it was sad, because I imagine they would have preferred to live in the wild, but on the other it was cool to be so close to them with no cage. 11 months ago

The Birth Partner by Penny Simkin is a fantastic resource! It’s required reading for DONA certification, but even beyond that I’m happy to have it join my bookshelf because it seems like it would be a great quick reference for friends who are looking for a beginner or one-stop-shop text. 11 months ago

- join a book club

- join a gym or yoga class and create a fitness routine. again.

- make significant progress on my career goal

- hold the same job for at least 1 whole year

- overhaul my wardrobe 11 months ago

Instead of telling yourself that you “don’t have time” for things, rephrase it so that you are saying “that isn’t a priority for me right now.” By doing this, you get a really good idea of what is actually important to you and what isn’t, and the things that aren’t get filed away instead of continuing to sit on your mind making you feel guilty.

I’ve been doing this ever since I read about it: http://joannagoddard.blogspot.com/2012/03/are-you-too-busy.html 11 months ago

I’m curious!

What are your thoughts on working with someone you had a pre-existing relationship with? Did you like the homebirth experience? 11 months ago

it’s likely too warm anywhere around here to ice fish. 15 months ago

...preferably in europe. 15 months ago

I am once again showing my solidarity in the global struggle to end modern slavery by participating in the DC SMS walk on the National Mall. It’s a truly inspiring event and I want to make this year even better than the last… so I upped my fundraising goal to $300! And I’m happy to report that I am a little more than halfway there, with six days left until the big event!

Below is a copy of the message I sent out to my friends and family, and if anybody I know on 43T wants to support this amazing movement I truly and deeply appreciate it. This issue is something that has really taken ahold of me and I want others to become as informed and passionate as I am, so if you are at all interested in learning more or having a conversation about what modern slavery looks like or how you can help in your own community, please message me. I’d love to bring more people in to the growing network of abolitionists! Okay, I’m repeating things I wrote in the original message so I’ll stop now and just post it:

“On October 22, 2011 I will be joining hundreds of others participating in the DC Stop Modern Slavery Walk on the National Mall in Washington, DC. The goal of this Walk is to raise awareness about human trafficking while also raising money that will help combat this issue. Human trafficking may not directly touch your life in a noticeable way but it exists in all of our communities, no matter where we live.

If you are unable to physically participate in the Walk with me, making a tax-deductible donation is a great way to take part in the abolitionist movement. Donations can be made online via the link at the bottom of this email or by visiting http://walk.stopmodernslavery.org, where you may then select the “Sponsor a Walker” from the left-side menu options and enter my name (I am registered as Allison Butts).

If you have any questions, or would like to join me at the Walk on October 22nd, please email me for information. Also, if you are new or unfamiliar to the cause and would like general information about sex or labor trafficking, or links to some of the great organizations that exist in opposition to these slave situations, please let me know and I will be more than happy to send some material your way.

Thank you so much for your support. Our united response is the first step to liberating millions of modern day slaves. Have a wonderful day!” 19 months ago

- After a meltdown, I gathered the last of my motivation to drag myself to anatomy. I discovered, to my pleasant surprise, that other people in my class ask me for help clarifying things the teacher has said or things that are unclear in the lab manual. I was starting to get really stressed, thinking I knew nothing and that people were bugging me and wasting time I could spend learning/doing more anatomy, and then I realized that 1) it’s kind of a big honor for people to trust that I know the answer and can help and 2) teaching is one of the best ways to really master anatomy material. So I guess to make a long story shorter, it made me happy that I was able to get a new perspective that made me realize how important helping others can be. 21 months ago