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It made me
humbled 
How I did it: Rigourous emotional honesty - a willingness to confront my own darkest, most hateful thoughts, a feeling of semi-horror and disgust, and a strong motivation to NOT hold that toxic energy in my being. Realizing consequent to this unedited encounter with myself, that I really wasn't much better than what I was condemning. Humbling, yes. I didn't hate myself, consequently, but I feel like I've gotten over some illusions I've catered to about my virture and moral superiority.
Look - we are all human. We are wired for some pretty unpleasant experiences and sadly, actions also. This is because we are human, and we get hurt, all the time. In other words, because we are human beings with sensitive souls that live in an imperfect world that is really painful to be in, for all sorts of reasons.
AND THIS IS TRUE FOR EVERYONE.
I don't know why I never got this before. But we all suffer, and we are stuck in this place that really needs improving. I mean, we are hurting beings, and we need to be kind to each other.
When I came face to face with my own hurt and rage, I was able to forgive my oppressors because - are we really any different, when it gets down to it?
I want to be part of the solution, whatever that is. I know what it isn't.
Read how I did it… 3 years ago
