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But I’m also incredibly grateful for the opportunity. 2 months ago
This internship has been incredibly stressful, but luckily it will be over by the end of the week, and I can finally relax!
The best thing about it is that it has been challenging, but sometimes the challenges have been quite stressful – dealing with passive aggressiveness, managing people (I really don’t like being a boss to anyone), being beneath a manager who can’t help me (because they are almost as new as me). It’s been… challenging. But okay. Very good hopefully for my CV, helped me gain a lot of insight into this sector.. but enough is enough, I’m ready to GO. 2 months ago
The good: Experience, both the good and annoying stuff is all a learning experience.
The bad: bosses who change their minds about what they want 2 weeks after you’ve started doing something completely different which you had both agreed on.
The good: Working for kids
The bad: not working WITH kids
The good: Bonding with colleagues
The bad: patronising CEO
The good: constant supply of tea and coffee
The bad: Sitting at a desk all day
The good: Money to pay the rent
The bad: going home in the dark
The good: leftovers for lunch
The bad: ...
The good: a massage chair in work!
The bad: repetitive strain injuries
The GOOD: knowing a little more about what you want to do with your life, and a little more about yourself 4 months ago
It’s taken me 2 years to complete this goal… I think something about counting my blessings every day irks me. Perhaps it’s the lack of original things to say; I’m grateful for my family, friends, love, sunshine, home, life, health. It’s the same each day, but for this I will put down one thing I’ve been grateful for each day.
Friday: I’m grateful for snow
Thursday: I’m grateful for my French teacher
Wednesday: I’m grateful for lovely leftover food and the people who make it
Sunday: I’m grateful for the invention of buffs
Today: I’m grateful for haggis, kind people and good friends 4 months ago
So I graduated this summer and I expected to find SOMETHING, however mundane, to do with myself while I figured out the next step. I found a part time canvassing job which I found daunting but enjoyed parts of. I started to get sick of the targets though, and working evenings became problematic when it started to get dark at 7. Then I fell off my bike and hurt my knee and can no longer cycle (which is integral to this job). In a way I’m glad, because I have time to actually think about what I DO want to do and I have the time to apply to interesting things, mostly internships, because those seem to be the only way to work within industries that interest me and develop skills that will get me somewhere someday. I’m still looking for a job, but I think I’m going to be a bit constricted by my crutches no matter where I go. I’ve also started French classes, which provide further purpose. Oh gosh this sounds depressing, but actually I’m doing alright. Still applying to jobs, usually to no avail, I’ve had two interviews which didn’t lead to anything. It’s not easy, it’s often lonely, and to any other graduates out there or anyone else currently unemployed, I know what it’s like. I’m a graduate with a good degree from a good university with four languages and plenty of voluntary work on my cv, and I’m struggling to get work doing basic admin work. Maybe shooting higher is a solution… or having patience. 7 months ago
How I did it: I spoke to a professional who told me to wash my face twice a day -morning and evening. This alone made a huge difference.
I just started using the site in the title, and it’s made calorie counting so much easier, it estimates how many calories I need a day for the amount of weight I want to lose in 5 weeks, and calculates calories burnt which increases the calories allowed for the day. It also takes note of fat and carb content, and gives me an estimation on how much weight I am losing. Great tool! In the past week I’ve only gone slightly above my 1200 calories a day twice (by about 50 calories) and had one day off. I feel much more confident already, and I think the exercising to be allowed to eat more is a fantastic idea because my body feels great (compared to a week ago) and shapely. Happy :) But I’ve been a bit naughty tonight and had too much focaccia. I just love that this site allows me to easily calculate what I can have, including treats. If I go about it the right way I can have a very healthy diet of mostly vegetarian food with a few meat and sweet treats each day, so I don’t torture myself by denying myself what I like, but don’t accidentally go totally overboard either. My biggest mistake was having Domino’s pizza on my day off, crazy amounts of calories, at least 250 per slice.
But yes, I strongly recommend at least trying the site out, it’s just a tool to use as you wish, catered to your lifestyle, and does the tedious calculating for you as well as offering a progress chart. Oh, and it’s free! 11 months ago
I was it once a day with a gentle face wash, usually in the shower, and this cleans away the excess grease and makes it look very nice, although I still get blemishes which I attack with a blemish stick. The more I excercise the happier my skin feels and drinking more water as a result of this exercise makes it even nicer. I’m currently on a diet so most of my food consists of veggies, and some fruit which I think is also helping. I get spots only when I’m overtired or not doing enough exercise, or drinking too much. 11 months ago
Good luck! And people who try to trash others’ reputation simply make themselves look bad for it. So don’t worry. 15 months ago
wow you seem to have a very busy life! Not much time to actually procrastinate. Maybe that’s the trick? 15 months ago
I’ve started going to Zumba from time to time as well as swimming every so often. Food wise I’m drinking more water and tea and as a result I feel less of a desire to snack. 15 months ago
For some reason I’ve been feeling really down lately. I feel like I need a hug from a friend who will always be there for me.
I have my boyfriend but that isn’t enough for me, I need to be close to others, to just be around people and hang out and chat. All of my friends feel far away either geographically or in their busy lives, they’re in their own circles and I feel a bit boxed out. Making new friends takes time and it isn’t as easy as the internet of instant gratification and connectedness implies. It takes time to build trust and to learn each other’s sense of humour.
There are large chunks of the past I want to leave behind and forget. I’ve realised that analysing the past doesn’t teach you anything, except perhaps that you’ve changed. I have agonised over insignificant details to understand all the small moments that hurt me in the past, to understand whose fault they were, turning them this way and that in my head-analysing the individuals and groups, but it got me nowhere except back to where I started; leave the past behind. It’s unburdening. And illuminating. I think I see the world through clearer eyes if I leave the past because I see it through my current eyes, as my current self. I am not what I was nor what I will be and strength, life, meaning is in my hands right now. I want to embrace this moment. This present. I want to invest myself in the here and now, even if it means getting the hell off facebook which is a life sucker if you procrastinate on there as much as I do. I am so sick and tired of modern technology in some ways; I hate how programs like google filter my tastes for me, try to predict me, limit me, put me in a box I can’t escape. Someone on TED talks was talking about this. The internet was supposed to be a way OUT, challenging us with new ideas, not trying to standardise expression and thought. It feels like a massive glob of the same. I want to change, I want to explore. 16 months ago
I am definitely a bit healthier since starting this but I have not lost that much. At most I may have lost 3 kilos. To be honest, losing another 3-5 kilos is probably my ideal weight, as I don’t want to weight now what I weighed at 16… well I do but I don’t.
Curvy without the flab! That’s my destination. 17 months ago
How I did it: just took the plunge, approached people who were next to me in various places like in clubs or outside the gym I go to. It took guts especially in a place like the UK where people don't normally talk to strangers let alone compliment them. Read how I did it… 18 months ago