Got my restricted last week. Just a few more months until I can go for my full. 2 weeks ago
How I did it: I was meaning to write something about this. Been taking anti-depressants the past few weeks through a psychiatrist. Still feel a little sad sometimes but otherwise much more relaxed and less stressed out. Really helped me feel much less irritable about life. Maybe not much action, although I did tour a local cave a day short of August if that counts. But I have been cleaning out lots of rubbish that's been accumulating over the years. Mostly from my university days. Read how I did it… 8 months ago
I’m on the waiting list now. The hospital said I should be seen to within the next six months. 15 months ago
No one else in my family have pierced ears. I guess I’m just afraid of all the commotion it would cause. But I love those hoop earrings. Clipons hurt too after a while. 16 months ago
You guys are so great !! I love you all. I found four therapists in Hamilton who have an interest in transgender issues. Plus a trans friend of mine gave me a recommendation from her therapist. So hopefully I can find a therapist on my own.
I hate my life, I wish I were dead. No one wants to help me. All I wanted was to talk to someone but I guess I don’t deserve it. I feel so ashamed. Telling a doctor was just one big mistake. Now I have transgender stuck on my medical record and all the crap that come with it.
I just saw a doctor again. It was a different one this time. He knows I want to be a woman but seems to think it’s just self-loathing. He didn’t refer me to a therapist or anything but prescribed me an antidepressant. I don’t know, there’s a reason why I gave up on doctors before. The last time I took antidepressants I had a panic attack and a hypomanic episode. He told me to come back in three months but if this one doesn’t work it’ll be six months. I can just see myself wasting a LOT of time just being mucked around. But I suppose I can see why he’d think like that. I do have depression and I didn’t really assert or explain myself well. I just feel so stuck. I guess hormones are off the table, probably forever.