lizzybeth73093

i know how you feel about the boyfriend stuff, love. I’m in a very similar situation. In the last few months, i have lost almost everything, including the man that promised to marry me. What i figured out the other day though, is that tommorow isnt promised. The future is always changing and its going to be whatever YOU make it. As freeing as that is, it also scared the living shit out of me. That’s a lot of responsibility…thats alot of breaking out of whats become so comfortable…a lot of throwing out the excuses you never even relized you were hiding behind.
The best advice i can give? Don’t let anything (or anyone—including yourself) hold you back. it’s cliche i no, but if you really sit and think about the weight of those words…you’ll get what i mean. Take what you have been given, every moment until now, every lesson, every joy, and every pain…and let it go. It will always be a part of you, but it doesnt have to define you. It doenst have to weigh so heavy on you. YOU have control. YOU say what happens in your life, because you are the one who ALLOWS how certian things will effect you.
I wish someone would have told me that a long time ago. I really hope some of it helps. Food for thought i guess. Best of luck. 23 months ago

I know this is a life long journey, but i guess the first step is realizing that i don’t know who i am. I didnt realize until the other night just how much i pretend…how many things i say i am that i’m really not. It’s like a mask of words i hide behind, where if i say them enough or for long enough, they’ll become me. Thats not how life is, though. I have to break down walls and let go of the things i know and hide behind if i am ever going to let who i really am shine through. Thats some scary business, and im not one hundred percent sure how to do it, but i guess a realization is a pretty good place to start. 23 months ago

This is something i have wanted to do for the longest time, but for some reason there was always something standing in my way (money, age, didn’t feel comfortable in the shop, etc). But i have finally decided i’m going to do it. I think its just what i need to get that extra self esteem boost. I just got out of a pretty serious relationship, and i think it may be the ticket to gaining some grounding again. Do something just for me, you know? Fun and sexy and what i’ve always wanted. =) 23 months ago