i went to pret this morning to get my skinny late. my algerian crush was there. his friend made my late and he put the order through. i smiled and asked him how he was he said good and asked the same. i then thanked him again for giving me the free coffee yesterday, so he just smiled and said it was nothing. i then took out the small chocolate (pack of 3 ferroro rochers) i had in my bag, that i bought for him and gave it to him, telling him he did something nice for me, so i wanted to do something nice for him. that made him smile… he then called to his other colleague that was accross the store… saying “look what i got!” laughing and smiling as he said it, and waving the chocolate in the air, at his colleague, then he winked at me saying he wanted to make his friend jealous lol. anyway… he then said you know what i think u can have this coffee free too… to which i said nnnooooooooooo! not gonna let u do that! i totally refused. and he let it go. he then asked me where i work, to which i replied i dont come here to work i come here to study. he thought i worked in the area. he asked if i lived nearby, i said i dont live in london, again he was suprised. suprised it took me an hour and a half to get there. he then asked what time i finish studies so i said sometimes 3 sometimes 4pm depends how i feel. i asked him what time he finishes he said at 3pm and then he goes to the gym across the road. scored a massive point there… :) so i told him thats good, i also go to the gym. so hes like u go to that one, i said no, the one where i live. so he says i should go with him to his one lol. i said i will go there if u pay for my membership, sure lol. anyway it was a mish mosh of conversation. and then i said goodbye and he said goodbye. it was nice. i think hes interested but also scared to move quickly. maybe he will never make a move. i dont know. in my ideal world he would ask me to meet him after he finishes his work and i finish college and we could go for a coffee/drink/meal to get to know each otehr properly.
but so far taking it slow, and getting to know each other slowly. still both a bit shy. i like that he is a bit playful like what he did with the chocolate i bought him, to his friend. but yeah dont know if he will take it any further. and i will not initiate that cos im just too scared and i dont want to do it, if he isnt that interested in me. so if he does it, its better. thats if he does it at all.
tommorow is valentines day… dunno if i should go in there or not and get my coffee. i dont usually go there all week, but i have a week off work and decided to go to college all week to catch up on my work. anyway…. it may be too much going in there on valentines day after all this silly stuff going on. it maybe a little too obvious to him. i dont know. maybe i go there and he is busy serving someone else and i barely get to say 2 words to him. maybe it will be awkward.
ah well i think i will treat it as any other day. i dont think anything different will happen tomoz.
but yeah was a good day, we had a little chat, and he seemed pleased that i bought him a chocolate to say thanks. and we had our little interesting chat. i get so nervous around him. my hand trembles a little and i could see he noticed it. anyway i dont wanna get ahead of myself here. he could just be really nice to me. maybe he doesnt want anything serious to come out of it and he is jsut messing about. who knows. but it was nice.
i have a feeling for some reason, because ive had 2 really nice days with special little moments… that tomoz on valentines day of all day… it will all sort of end abruptly ie he wont be there, or he will be but he will be busy with other people and we wont be able to have a quick silly chat. or he wont be busy, but it will all fall flat and we will be shy and not say much besides a polite how are u and can i get a skinny late please. thank you bye bye. thats happened many a time. sometimes we have had small little chats. other times its jsut silence and making eyes and nothing.
i dont know. i overthink it i know. and that aint good. but yeah, he is my algerian crush. so lets just be positive and enjoy it for what it is. i dont know if i could handle it getting actually serious anyway, i like him, but i know it would be a bit different to past relationships. anyway, let me not get a head of myself.
anyway im proud of myself for being brave to give him the chocolate! hope it made him feel special like he made me feel special yesterday.
geeez you would think i am 16 the way i am about this guy! 3 months ago