This means: daily self-care, true movement, finding real joy and peace and healing in ALL of this.
Meditation daily could be just a 5 minute contemplative walk, or some breath of fire in the shower. It doesn’t have to be a long sit-down navel-gazing session.
It’s always about making space. 3 months ago
I’m going to focus on some body love.
I’ve never really, consistently, truly loved my body. I know I can look sexy with clothes on, I know how to dress to flatter myself. But really when I get naked …well I don’t love it.
I want to lose the weight, get more toned, etc. etc. (don’t we all) but in order to do this I need to come from a place of loving myself FIRST-or at least in tangent.
If I love my body for real, and truly appreciate it every day (not just looks, but all the amazing things it does for me), then I will be more motivated to keep it healthy via diet and exercise.
Right? That’s the idea, anyhow. 3 months ago
I just realized recently that there are fairly cheap packages (air and hotel) you can get and stay in this (two star) hotel in Old Havana. Apparently it’s not an unsafe place to be as a solo traveller.
So I just realized that it’s a realistic one-week trip to think about doing. I was tempted this spring, but money troubles continue.
Still, I’m one step closer to making this happen, and I’m re-inspired to travel alone again. Woot! 3 months ago
i’m completely disconnected from my ex now (on fb) which is really good. we had a terrible argument and his attitude was – well – very immature and unpleasant. the things he was saying were making me feel like a shitty person, which i know i am not.
now i feel i can really move on. probably him too.
this is me loving and respecting myself. 4 months ago
first time a blog entry is published elsewhere! this is a small but important step to getting more readership and exposure, and involving myself more in that community! 4 months ago
the start of what could be a long or short haul…not sure how fast i can do this while working full time. but at least it’s started. 4 months ago
i love my photos and i make cards out of them. i think it would be easier to sell them at craft fairs than on etsy. i’m not even sure how much ‘profit’ but even making someone happy and recouping the expense would be nice. 4 months ago
this doesn’t have to be ‘sitting’ meditation, or morning meditation, or any specific type of meditation. what it is is taking a few minutes to actually breathe and practice that presence. it doesn’t take much. 4 months ago
and just having more conversations at work are starters. i get so in my head sometimes that i forget that when i do ‘extravert’ i can actually make people smile! 4 months ago
If I actually get trained in technical writing I could work from home and make decent money doing this. Not sure how fulfilling it would be but I think I’d be good at it? Maybe? 4 months ago
this is always number one. but in order to respect and love myself i have to be doing things that make me feel whole. so i moved writing to #1 because that is something that helps me to respect and love myself. 5 months ago
I’ve set 3 2013 resolutions on here that highlight specific writing goals. I am truly inspired and I think I’m getting better. Not sure if I will get ‘paid’ or when I can write professionally, but my goal this year is to just practice and get my work out there, get something published. I feel that these goals are truly realistic at this point in my life.
1. write a short story (I think that i’m no good at fiction but how will I know unless I try?)
2. get 1000 followers on my blog
3. get published on a website other than my blog 5 months ago
Or, is alone time underrated?
I think that I want to do this for myself FOREVER! Whether I’m single or not, I WILL take time out to treat myself!
It does not have to be about spending money (in fact, right now treating myself well means sticking to a budget).
But it IS about nurturing, pampering, respecting, and treating myself. There, just ONCE per week, if even for an hour, I will take myself out on a date. 5 months ago
I love swimming. Sometimes I have ‘bad’ swim days like there are ‘bad’ gym days, and also it is too much of a hassle to go to the pool more than once/twice a week. But, I just love the feeling of moving through water, and of using my whole body at once. 5 months ago
over time my boyfriend stopped helping out really anyhow so it’s just as soon i have the place to myself to keep clean. i feel i procrastinate it less than i used to, too. it feels easier to do it regularly. 6 months ago
in looking back, i knew there were problems from the getgo. i just wanted a real partnership. i asked, he tried to give, but it didn’t really happen in the end. i blame myself somewhat. i still think of some of the sweetness and wonder how i could be such a sap.
why am i seeking or yearning for love from those who clearly can’t / will not just offer it? i have always done this, no matter what. chasing or wanting emotionally unavailable men. always.
doing so sometimes gets in the way and makes you blind to who IS truly showing you love.
i’m trying to focus on the exchange of real love with those who really do, can, and will love me for real. i only mean friends right now but eventually that will cross over to relationship. it just has to. 6 months ago
going / gone.
it was interesting re-reading some of these entries. it’s too bad those warm-fuzzy feelings didn’t really stick around. i am nto sure who rejected who more, but at some point he just stopped wanting to come home. it makes me sad. 7 months ago
and feeling like i didn’t have much to say. that’s the introvert in me. i love spending time wtih people but i would like to be able to keep them more engaged (and talk less about myself). there are a bazillion things to laugh and talk about. i just have to practice getting my head out of my ass!!! hah. 7 months ago
amongs other things, the money is big. money and focus. i sometimes am sort of ‘high’ or hyper the next day after drinking. my brain fires on all cylanders to the point where it freaks me out.
i have to tone it down for many reasons. that said, even if i quit temporarily, i hope i can always (ultimately) have a glass or two of wine with a good friend. 7 months ago
i have one sporadic side job and i’ve had a few misc things, but i need something that just brings in even $100 more a month, though ideally two. it needs to be something i can manage/enjoy outside of a full time job though. 7 months ago
