:):):):):):) 6 months ago
Looking at the haves, not the have nots. Cheers! 6 months ago
:) 6 months ago
In August, I will officially be the third-year. I’ve got two semesters left of course work and then a year of dissertation and another year of internship. I’m really, really grateful to have this opportunity to be someone I’ve never imagined myself to be. I was thinking back to when I first found 43. That was… 2004? August of 2004, I believe. At that time, I felt so lost, not knowing anything about anything. I was just hanging on. So much has happened since. I graduated.(Twice!) Months before I graduated with my master’s, my mom died unexpectedly, on Mother’s Day. The way I look at it now, it was one of the worst and best experiences. That’s when I decided to go for my PhD. I said, fuck it all, I don’t care what anyone thinks. If I don’t get in, fine. If I fail, fine. But I have to do this. I must at least try. The process of getting in was overwhelming and so was the interview. I applied to a university that was an hour away from where I was living at the time. I was told that my chances were slim to none. I knew that. Most people have to apply all over the nation. There were only two universities close by, and so I applied to both. I was told that applying to only two universities would only decrease my chances. I knew that too. But I had to try. I didn’t want to look back twenty years from now and wonder “what if…” My mom’s death definitely pushed me in that direction. I thought, “What do I have to lose?”
Today, I’m so glad I took the chance. This is not an easy road by any means. It takes a lot dedication, persistence, sacrifice, and courage. This is a huge decision. For me, this was a huge decision. I had so many doubts, worries, etc., etc. For that whole first year, I thought, “I think I made a mistake.” But once I passed the Benchmarks and started practicum, I started to feel more like myself again. Finally, it became more about the art of therapy once again, and less about infinite readings, tests, papers, and presentations. In my heart, I always felt like this was the right decision, but I gotta tell you, my head was not in agreement with that. My critic was louder than ever, telling me that there’s no way in hell I can do this. Not all at once, no. Not even in big chunks, no. It’s about taking it one day at a time,and sometimes, minute by minute. But, the bottom line is, it is possible.
Now if you’ll excuse me, I gotta get back my work. ;) 6 months ago
I like shoes. And no, I’m not getting rid of them. Well, at least not for the next few years, until I have another one of those “spring cleaning sprees!” :P 9 months ago
Sure is better today then it was yesterday. But perhaps that was because of some drama and bs at my practicum. Ya know… just life stuff. 9 months ago
::deeeeeeeeeeeeeeep breath:: 9 months ago
When was the last time you had toast? Two days ago
What kind of bread is your favorite to toast? I like multi-grain.
What is your favorite topping for toast? PB
Do you like French toast? Yes, especially if it’s stuffed with blueberries.10 months ago
by Helen Keller…
“I long to accomplish a great and noble task, but it is my chief duty to accomplish small tasks as if they were great and noble.”
I think it says it all. All we can do is try and do the best that we can with what we’ve got. :) 16 months ago
Not sure how much they cost, but it might be a nice investment one day. 16 months ago
I try, but I don’t always succeed.
How do you see yourself? 16 months ago
Which group would be the easiest to live under? Extreme compassionists.
Which would be the most difficult? Extreme ignorance/apathy worshippers.
Which one are you choosing to live in already, if you were to honestly look at your patterns of consumption, diet, exercise, or awareness? I don’t live in any of them, and I can honestly say this. I can’t stand consumerism; however, that doesn’t mean I don’t enjoy retail therapy once in a while. I try to eat as healthy as I possibly can without sacrificing things that I like. I also exercise regularly. Sometimes I exercise less because I’m just busy up to my arse with school, but then, I make time specifically for that. Finally, I think I’m as aware as I can be of things going on around me, but there will always be something that I’m missing.16 months ago
1. How are you feeling today? Tired but ready to get this crazy and never-ending summer semester over with.
2. Are books usually better than the movies? Yes. Books are awesome.
3. What is your favourite genre of music? I don’t really have one. I like many different varieties of music.
4. Would you say you are an introvert of extrovert? Intro.
5. Do you prefer computer games or board games? Board games.
6. Kisses or cuddles? Both!
7. What is your favourite smell? Anything lemony… D&G has this perfume called Light Blue. It’s my absolute fave.
8. Have you ever had braces to make your teeth straight? Nope.
9. What is your age? Do you wish you were older / younger? 33. I love being in my thirties.
10. If you were to meet me, what would be the first thing you would say? Hi, I’m D. How are ya?16 months ago
Ha! 16 months ago
I’ve showed him pics of other choices that I thought that would look nice on his finger, but that was really a waste of time. He said, no, no, no, no, no, no, no, no, no… That. “That’s where we started!” I know. That. “God damn it, G [insert first name] D [insert last name]!” ::sigh::
There goes that Russian temper again.
“Kiss my ass.”
Ha! 16 months ago
Well, the good thing is that he knows exactly what he’s getting into. I told him from the start, what you see is what you get.
He always says… “God, that Russian temper…” That’s right. And don’t you forget it! Hey, that’s the same temper that will kick someone’s ass if they say anything shitty about you. Just sayin’. 16 months ago
No worries, Shellster. I know you’ve been super busy. I’ve been keeping up with that. I’ve been just as busy myself. But, somehow, in the midst of all of that, I managed to sneak away a little life.
Thank you. He’s my rock, and I’m very grateful. This man has seen me at my worst as well as my at my best. He’s seen me just throw my hands up in the air and say, “I’m done with all of this. I just can’t do it anymore.” He is my best friend. He treats me like I’m a freaking goddess and sees the best in me through it all. I don’t have to be anything other myself and that’s a LOT. I know I’m a handful. ;) 17 months ago
Have any of you heard of Zoara or used it?
I’m planning on buying my sweetie his wedding band. Something simple but classy too (14K white gold 5mm). So I’ve looked at Kay Jewelers yesterday and Zales. They did not have a whole lot of selection. I know it’s just white gold wedding ring to them, but it’s not to me. Zales had two kinds: classic and comfort fit. Kay just had one—comfort fit (although they called it something else but I know it has to be basically the same thing). I’ve checked Zoara and they have a lot more selection. You can get “low curve,” “slightly curved,” etc., etc. It can be quite overwhelming, but I think I may just have found the one. (see the image)
Any suggestions? Tips?
The ones I saw at jewelry stores just didn’t do anything for me. Not that I know that this one will either because I can’t hold it and look at it, but I just have a feeling that this maybe it. But, then again, not sure.
And don’t give me that, “Oh he’ll love whatever you get!” Damn it, I know that. I want to get him something special, even if it looks simple. :):) 17 months ago
Now I’m hungry…17 months ago
pop … sicle
magic … wand
connect … the dots
hot … cold
evening … star
pretty … colors
time … flies
silent … night
far … away
left … right 17 months ago
by Anaïs Nin.
“And the day came when the risk to remain tight in a bud was more painful than the risk it took to blossom.”
Life is not simple, and sometimes no matter how you look at a situation, you’re damned if you do and you’re damned if you don’t. Thinking logically doesn’t make things better or easier for anyone involved. So what do you do?
You just get through it. You’ll find the strength along the way. It won’t feel or look like it to you, but you’ll see it for everything it is (was) once you cross that river.
I wish you all the best. ::hugs:: 17 months ago