:):):):):):) 1 month ago
Looking at the haves, not the have nots. Cheers! 1 month ago
:) 1 month ago
In August, I will officially be the third-year. I’ve got two semesters left of course work and then a year of dissertation and another year of internship. I’m really, really grateful to have this opportunity to be someone I’ve never imagined myself to be. I was thinking back to when I first found 43. That was… 2004? August of 2004, I believe. At that time, I felt so lost, not knowing anything about anything. I was just hanging on. So much has happened since. I graduated.(Twice!) Months before I graduated with my master’s, my mom died unexpectedly, on Mother’s Day. The way I look at it now, it was one of the worst and best experiences. That’s when I decided to go for my PhD. I said, fuck it all, I don’t care what anyone thinks. If I don’t get in, fine. If I fail, fine. But I have to do this. I must at least try. The process of getting in was overwhelming and so was the interview. I applied to a university that was an hour away from where I was living at the time. I was told that my chances were slim to none. I knew that. Most people have to apply all over the nation. There were only two universities close by, and so I applied to both. I was told that applying to only two universities would only decrease my chances. I knew that too. But I had to try. I didn’t want to look back twenty years from now and wonder “what if…” My mom’s death definitely pushed me in that direction. I thought, “What do I have to lose?”
Today, I’m so glad I took the chance. This is not an easy road by any means. It takes a lot dedication, persistence, sacrifice, and courage. This is a huge decision. For me, this was a huge decision. I had so many doubts, worries, etc., etc. For that whole first year, I thought, “I think I made a mistake.” But once I passed the Benchmarks and started practicum, I started to feel more like myself again. Finally, it became more about the art of therapy once again, and less about infinite readings, tests, papers, and presentations. In my heart, I always felt like this was the right decision, but I gotta tell you, my head was not in agreement with that. My critic was louder than ever, telling me that there’s no way in hell I can do this. Not all at once, no. Not even in big chunks, no. It’s about taking it one day at a time,and sometimes, minute by minute. But, the bottom line is, it is possible.
Now if you’ll excuse me, I gotta get back my work. ;) 1 month ago
I like shoes. And no, I’m not getting rid of them. Well, at least not for the next few years, until I have another one of those “spring cleaning sprees!” :P 5 months ago
Sure is better today then it was yesterday. But perhaps that was because of some drama and bs at my practicum. Ya know… just life stuff. 5 months ago
::deeeeeeeeeeeeeeep breath:: 5 months ago
:) 5 months ago
When was the last time you had toast? Two days ago
What kind of bread is your favorite to toast? I like multi-grain.
What is your favorite topping for toast? PB
Do you like French toast? Yes, especially if it’s stuffed with blueberries.5 months ago
congrats, sweetie. Super happy for you. :) 5 months ago
oldies but goodies. Not that active and not that regular but there are a lot of memories here. 5 months ago
Sometimes I can’t remember my name or what day it is. But I’m trying. Just trying to remain in the moment, here-and-now, and take it one step at a time. :) 5 months ago
She’s been super, super busy with school, life, and all.
I’m in my second year of PhD school. I’m teaching, assisting another class, taking a full load, and doing practicum this semester. I’m also driving back and forth between home and school. I’ve gotten an apartment that I share with a roommate who is in my program as well. I’m there four days a week and then I drive back home every Friday afternoon to stay for the weekend. My working hours are super long, so by the time I get settled in, it’s homework time and then sleep. In the morning, it starts all over.
So, here I is. :):) 5 months ago
by Helen Keller…
“I long to accomplish a great and noble task, but it is my chief duty to accomplish small tasks as if they were great and noble.”
I think it says it all. All we can do is try and do the best that we can with what we’ve got. :) 11 months ago
Not sure how much they cost, but it might be a nice investment one day. 11 months ago
I try, but I don’t always succeed.
How do you see yourself? 11 months ago
Which group would be the easiest to live under? Extreme compassionists.
Which would be the most difficult? Extreme ignorance/apathy worshippers.
Which one are you choosing to live in already, if you were to honestly look at your patterns of consumption, diet, exercise, or awareness? I don’t live in any of them, and I can honestly say this. I can’t stand consumerism; however, that doesn’t mean I don’t enjoy retail therapy once in a while. I try to eat as healthy as I possibly can without sacrificing things that I like. I also exercise regularly. Sometimes I exercise less because I’m just busy up to my arse with school, but then, I make time specifically for that. Finally, I think I’m as aware as I can be of things going on around me, but there will always be something that I’m missing.11 months ago
1. How are you feeling today? Tired but ready to get this crazy and never-ending summer semester over with.
2. Are books usually better than the movies? Yes. Books are awesome.
3. What is your favourite genre of music? I don’t really have one. I like many different varieties of music.
4. Would you say you are an introvert of extrovert? Intro.
5. Do you prefer computer games or board games? Board games.
6. Kisses or cuddles? Both!
7. What is your favourite smell? Anything lemony… D&G has this perfume called Light Blue. It’s my absolute fave.
8. Have you ever had braces to make your teeth straight? Nope.
9. What is your age? Do you wish you were older / younger? 33. I love being in my thirties.
10. If you were to meet me, what would be the first thing you would say? Hi, I’m D. How are ya?11 months ago
I’m glad she saw through it all.
Life is not simple. Sometimes we end up in situations where we are damned if we do and damned if we don’t. I don’t know what would I have done if I were you… It always bothers me when people say, “Oh, I would never!” Oh, bullst. You don’t know st if you have enough nerve to say something like that. Never say never because you never know, unless you’ve walked in that other person’s shoes.
I think that you did the best that you could under the circumstances. Sure, you can always look back and say, I could have done more. Should have, could have, would have doesn’t serve you well. And she clearly recognized the situation for what it was.
Good for you. Good for her. Glad things worked out for both of you. 12 months ago
Ha! 12 months ago
I’ve showed him pics of other choices that I thought that would look nice on his finger, but that was really a waste of time. He said, no, no, no, no, no, no, no, no, no… That. “That’s where we started!” I know. That. “God damn it, G [insert first name] D [insert last name]!” ::sigh::
There goes that Russian temper again.
“Kiss my ass.”
Ha! 12 months ago
Well, the good thing is that he knows exactly what he’s getting into. I told him from the start, what you see is what you get.
He always says… “God, that Russian temper…” That’s right. And don’t you forget it! Hey, that’s the same temper that will kick someone’s ass if they say anything shitty about you. Just sayin’. 12 months ago