My cherished day alone is not going to happen today. B drove Cl home last night as arranged and she left happy and calm, only to beg him to come back and get her before he’d got even half way home. There are some serious issues within that family dynamic and the fears that B has harboured for the past 8 years over the situation for his daughters appear to have been well-founded. I have no idea how this situation will pan out. I fear it may not end well. I hope I am wrong.
Yesterday was a non-starter so far as getting things done was concerned. I lost the morning to the laptop as Cl slept until noon and I was reluctant to risk disturbing her. We spent the afternoon talking and watching some tennis. The evening was lost to drama.
Today is likely to be a repeat of yesterday I suspect. But for my own sake it’s imperative that I get back some of my normal routines. My life has been suspended for the past 10 days: diet, exercise, household chores, my own family needs… B has elected to work from home today which I’m pleased about. He is exhausted. I am exhausted too – we are all worn down from what’s going on and what’s coming into the open.
Although I am tired, I’m also very calm this morning, and accepting of what this day will bring. It’s almost impossible to predict and I’m going to make no hard and fast plans beyond doing what I can that is ‘normal’ and being available when called upon.
I cannot see a path ahead but perhaps that’s just as well: this is not my journey; I am merely a fellow traveller who can hopefully carry some of the burden.
Today’s Focus: Cl and B. Take each moment as it comes
“The true secret of happiness lies in the taking a genuine interest in all the details of daily life.” ― William Morris
Mind, Body, Spirit
Set daily goals✓
Test blood sugar levels✓
Make healthy food choices✓hurrah!
Take supplements: black cohosh, calcium, kerela, greens
1 glass only
House and Garden
5000 steps min
Relationships, Friends and Family:
spend time with Cl✓
buy and post card for Vtoo late -will send text instead
Admin – flat:
await call from agentsdidn’t hear yesterday – follow this up AM✓
House and Garden:
clear the ironing✓
whip round with Henry, duster and polish can✓downstairs
Run errands in town✓
follow up re missed T voucher
consider and act re prime membership
try again to order some good jeans for myself (failed after hours of trying yesterday)
Extra Brownie Points For:
email Dad re loan✓
bought steam cleaner✓
final clean of plaster dust: chairs7 out of 8 remaining
Future Focus:5 months ago