...so much, dear iitjee You’re such a blessing and light to have in my life… thank you. (((hugs))) ♥ 1 month ago
That is such a gorgeous photo! The first 10 days of this year have been wonderful, so it looks like it’ll be a marvelous year for me :) 1 month ago
...so much, wren! ♥ I had a beautiful day with some new friends on the beach. :) 1 month ago
You’re the most exquisitely fluffy cat there has ever been and ever will be! I love you ❤
Here’s a mouse for you to catch:
Cuddle time?1 month ago
Thank you so much! I didn’t know I needed an ear massage, but it felt awesome! :D And I love the video!
Sending much love and hugs your way ❤ 1 month ago
Thank you so much for the wonderful wishes and for starting this goal – I didn’t expect anyone to remember since I don’t have my birthday in my profile, so it was a particularly nice surprise to see you start it! Thank you for being such a positive presence here :) ♥ 1 month ago
Oro ger ofta små ting en stor skugga.
Worry often gives a small thing a big shadow.
—Swedish Proverb 1 month ago
No one is ever at the mercy of their past any more than they’re at the mercy of old family photo albums. Take more pictures.
—Mike Dooley 1 month ago
I no longer look at every reflection of myself and see a map of disappointments. I see vigor, curves and force, an organic tumble of sensual, sexual energy. I stand straighter. I breathe deeper. My heart opens.
—Lise Funderburg 1 month ago
Take time every day to do something ridiculous.
—Philipa Walker 1 month ago
The world is a book, and those who do not travel read only a page.
—St. Augustine 1 month ago
❤ Having people to hug
❤ Opening my window for the sounds and smell of rain to come in
❤ The sand looking like little drops of gold in the early morning sun
❤ Sitting under blossoming trees, surrounded by the soft rays of sun coming through the leaves
❤ My pathetic Spanish – as bad as it is, it’s been of so much help… there’s no way I could survive with English.
❤ Having found a great doctor, by far the best I’ve ever had. He has had really interesting insights into my situation. bonus points for his cute Spanish accent
❤ The unexpected turns that life takes – it seems I may be getting an opportunity to study abroad some of the things that matter to me most, starting in the UK and then possibly continuing my studies in other countries including India and the US. :)
❤ The joy of evening walks, warm breezes, city lights in the dark, passing through the streets slowly waking up to the night life, small bars opening in places that seemed completely empty during the day.
❤ Dancing with strangers to beautiful guitar music performed by a few cute guys with dreadlocks on the beach while the sun was setting and the warm darkness started falling on us.
❤ Spending an evening watching the sun disappear as a golden glow behind the mountains, getting gradually replaced by the hundreds of lights of the nearby mountain villages, twinkling like candles in the darkness.
❤ Being present in the moment and available for the little blessings of life to flow through me: the songs that the early morning birds sing, the smile of a stranger, dry leaves slowly falling from the trees, the grass dancing silently in the wind, the feel of sand under my bare feet, warm breezes playing with my hair.
❤ Spain and this city – I am so grateful for everything it has taught me while I’ve been here. This has been for sure one of the greatest adventures I’ve ever been on, and has meant to me more than any other travelling because I wasn’t sure if I was going to make it here and through the heart episode.
❤ 43Things and the wonderful, endlessly wise, luminously beautiful 43Thingers ♥ It seems the Robots have forgot about this site, but I’m glad that so many of the people here haven’t. 1 month ago
If you’re going through hell, keep going.
—Winston Churchill 1 month ago
Don’t look to society and its condemnation. Nobody is to judge you here and nobody can pretend to be a judge. Don’t judge others and don’t be perturbed and disturbed by others’ judgment.
You are alone and you are unique. You never were before and you never will be again. You are beautiful. Accept yourself as you are.
That’s how existence wanted you to be. You have not created yourself; naturally the whole responsibility goes to existence. And there must be a need for a person like you; otherwise you would not exist. Existence needs you as you are.
—Osho 1 month ago
There is no need to be more – you are enough.
—Osho 1 month ago
I didn’t have the pleasure to know you while you were active on 43Things a couple of years ago, but I hope you don’t mind that there’s a stranger in Europe thinking of you. Not knowing you, it could be that I’m not able to give the kind of support that you’d need, so please ignore me if I’m saying something that doesn’t resonate with you. I just figured to share a little bit of my own experience, since it is the only place I can speak from, but people obviously experience things differently, so my take on things may or may not be for you :)
For a long time and especially for the past few months, I’ve been in a place with my health where there’s no guarantee that the future will come. Nothing quite compares to the anguish when the time is suddenly taken away and for the first time one has come to face the fleetingness of not only the lives of others, but of the life of oneself. All other challenges in life fade away in comparison. It is difficult to keep going when there’s no certainty in one way or another: one might live, one might not live, but one can’t know which one it is going to be, so acceptance either way isn’t possible. It is a nightmare and a hell on earth for the human mind that would like to be able to control the future, and now suddenly everything is uncertain and out of control.
In my experience it is the most shattering experiences that are of most value in life. Nobody can know for sure they’re going to be alive tomorrow, but most people are not aware of the fact, and will eventually die without having ever started to live. Often only a severe illness can force one to face the temporariness of human existence and make one to focus on the only moment anyone ever has, the present moment, here and now. I know I might have never had started to live had it not been for severe illness because a large part of the education and conditioning that the society does is to teach people to focus on building security for the future which might never come. It is always in the opinion that now is the time to be concentrated on security; there will be time for dreams afterwards. Rarely it happens so – more often people die without having truly lived, without having been themselves, without having embraced the adventure that their life was meant to be. It doesn’t matter how much health or time one gets if one always lives in the future, and so severe health problems can often be the biggest blessing in disguise. No matter what the end result is, going through severe health problems is probably the most transforming path one can walk on.
Speaking from my own experience, after going through the anguish and anxiety because of not being able to predict and control the future, it is possible to arrive to the kind of inner peace one has never experienced before. Now that one doesn’t take time for granted anymore, by disappearing the future gives its energy for living today and for coping with the only situation that can ever be coped with – the present moment.
It seems paradoxical but now that I’m in the kind of a place with my life where I don’t know if I’m going to be alive tomorrow or next month (not that anyone knows that, but with severe health problems the possibility of dying seems greater), I’m probably the most relaxed than I have ever been. I’m doing my best to heal and believe in my possibilities to be healthy, but I still cannot know the outcome for sure, and I don’t think the future will ever be there in the same way as it was before. But due to having had time taken away from me, I’ve discovered what I’ve come to feel to be the only meaningful way to live: being present, stopping preparing to live and starting to live, being myself. For once I can simply be instead of always being in the process of trying to become. Before there was an illusion that I had something to lose, but it is not there anymore; I’ve nothing to lose but everything to gain. And if and when I get healthy, I know to use it for nothing less but to follow my dreams and to live a life according not to the society, but to my heart and spirit.
Sometimes there’s physical pain in the present moment, but I can handle it; deep acceptance that this is the nature of this moment is enough. It will pass, as everything does. Often there’s beauty to get lost in: the early morning sun gently touching the green leaves, the hundreds of birds waking up to a new day… rainy evenings surrounded by great silence despite the stormy sea. The world is tremendously alive and beautiful when one is present and available to it, and suddenly in that presence you feel that you have everything you always imagined you could ever want, and that in this moment your life is always complete regardless of whether the future comes or not. Many times the present moment is challenging, but what is real can always be faced and dealth with; only what is imaginary and what one is imagining in one’s head cannot be coped with because life only gives one the ability to cope with what is, not with what is not yet, and may never even be.
The impossibilities are many for Western medicine, but very few for the individual. I would have died many times had it been for having had all of my trust in Western medicine, but the possibilities for healing within the individual are almost endless. Western medicine often fails because it believes that the cure can come from the outside, while true healing can only happen within. The journey into discovering what kind of miracles can happen when I take full responsibility for my health has been the most worthwhile adventure I’ve ever been on – not that I would ever have chosen it, but now, from my current point of view, I am grateful that my life has taken the turns that first seemed the worst thing ever happened to me. I could easily give up a few happy memories, but never the darkest times of my life, because they’re what have made me grow.
Not that I know what you’re going through, and not that you should see things similarly to the way I’ve come to see them… but I’m hoping that as impossible as it probably seems right now, this experience could transform from being possibly the worst thing ever happened to you to the most transforming adventure of your life, a journey into discovering your potential and the true essence of your being. By going through something like this, you’ll be a new being on the other side, now aware of the limitless potential you carry within.
You are never alone. Countless of people have travelled the path of severe health problems and have been not only physically healed while on it, but otherwise transformed. I’m sending inner peace and healing energies your way. :) ♥ 1 month ago