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I am trying to incorporate more creative activities into my daily life. During basic training and tech school I obviously didn’t have the time to dedicate to my art and crafts hobby, but I really missed it and have felt for quite some time that something was missing! So I learned to knit a couple weeks ago and have made three scarves so far using some specialty yarn by Rico Designs. Above is a picture of the one I just finished tonight. It is so much fun and an excellent way to relax in the evenings, I plan on moving onto bigger projects in the near future. 6 months ago

Songs of the Humpback Whale

Harvesting the Heart

Picture Perfect

Mercy

The Pact

Keeping Faith

Plain Truth

Salem Falls – completed 3.20.11

Perfect Match

Second Glance

My Sister’s Keeper

Vanishing Acts

The Tenth Circle

Nineteen Minutes

Wonder Woman: Love & Murder

Change of Heart

Handle with Care – completed Spring 2012

House Rules – completed Summer 2011

Sing You Home – completed Summer 2011

Between the Lines – currently in progress – October 2012

Lone Wolf 2 years ago

“The worst enemy to creativity is self-doubt.” – Sylvia Plath 7 months ago

I’ve been dealing with a lot of stress and anxiety lately and decided I need to make some significant changes so I don’t continue to feel this way on a regular basis.

Here are some major things I feel I need to address:
- Living a more healthy lifestyle – reduce alcohol intake, make better food choices, and being more active.
- Volunteering at organizations I believe in – good for the soul :)
- Make better use of my downtime – spend time with friends, talk to family, create art, travel, and generally enjoy life!
- Continue to try hard at work, but understand that my job doesn’t define me – I am so much more than a title and a girl behind a desk!
- Get back on track spiritually – I miss attending church and shouldn’t be afraid to go, even if I’m going alone. 7 months ago

Today I received a phone call from a nurse at the clinic on my base. He basically told me that my weight was near the top of the USAF “healthy” scale and offered me counseling on nutrition and fitness. I agreed to go to a class earlier this week after failing a pt test last week due to the sit-up component. I was very upset, especially since I earned a rating of excellent on my prior pt tests. Luckily I have the chance to retest in a couple months, so the combination of these two events has really encouraged me to take better care of myself and get back into shape. This will probably also lessen the pain I’ve been having in my knee and help with my self-confidence goal. 7 months ago

I decided to deactivate Facebook again today. I did it before and lasted about 6 months before I got back on, so I know it is possible to live without. I have come to the realization that I waste way too much time browsing through pictures and updating my status when I really don’t have that much I want to say to everyone. Also, it seems like a bit of a popularity contest, my friends list grew over 800 people and most of them I knew very superficially. Always comparing myself to my peers and I think that is what has really damaged my self confidence most recently. I just need to stick to my small group of close friends and family and work on developing better relationships with them. There is so much more to life than sitting in front of a computer all the time, especially after being on one at work all day! I will work on completing some of my goals on here, and hopefully as a by-product will boost my now dwindling confidence. 7 months ago

I bet this time of night you’re still up
I bet you’re tired from a long, hard week
I bet you’re sitting in your chair by the window, looking out at the city
And I bet sometimes you wonder about me

And I just want to tell you
It takes everything in me not to call you
And I wish I could run to you
And I hope you know that
Everytime I don’t,
I almost do, I almost do

I bet you think I either moved on or hate you
‘Cause each time you reach out there’s no reply
I bet it never, ever occurred to you that I can’t say hello to you
And risk another goodbye

And I just want to tell you
It takes everything in me not to call you
And I wish I could run to you
And I hope you know that
Everytime I don’t,
I almost do, I almost do

We made quite a mess, babe
It’s probably better off this way
And I confess, babe
That in my dreams you’re touching my face
And asking me if I want to try again with you
And I almost do

And I just want to tell you
It takes everything in me not to call you
And I wish I could run to you
And I hope you know that
Everytime I don’t,
I almost do, I almost do

I bet this time of night you’re still up
I bet you’re tired from a long, hard week
I bet you’re sitting in your chair by the window, looking out at the city
And I hope sometimes you wonder about me 7 months ago

What is wrong with guys nowadays? Just when I thought I found someone special he goes and proves me wrong. Not even officially dating/a couple and he basically put an expiration date on our relationship. It is hard being in the military and dating, but I really thought another Active Duty person would understand :( It is hard to find guys my age that aren’t married already or totally materialistic, selfish, jerks. Sorry for venting, but it is frustrating. Especially when I’m in a foreign country and don’t speak the local language. Not saying that every guy I attempt to date has to be perfect or husband material, but I don’t want to put all my effort and emotions into a relationship if I am just going to be hurt or ditched if someone prettier comes along… 7 months ago

I feel like I should have accomplished this by now. Training for my job for the last year has kept me pretty busy and I haven’t made a lot of time for art, which I truly miss. I know I will have more time when it starts to get cold here in Germany. But now is the time to start planning :) 9 months ago

I have lost 3 pounds so far and still have 30 days before I leave, so if I can average around 3 pounds a week than I will meet my goal! I ran everyday this past week with the exception of yesterday, which is helping with my endurance as well as weight management. I am really surprised with how fast time is flying – I only have 3 weeks left at my civilian job and then a week to wrap things up at home before I leave! Wish me luck :D 22 months ago

I am already within the weight guidelines for my height, but I would like to lose a little more, so I am not worried about this when it comes time to leave in almost 6 weeks! I believe this goal is realistic and I should be able to reach it by tracking my daily food intake and continuing to exercise. 22 months ago

In preparation for joining the Air Force, I have tried to get myself on a normal sleeping schedule. During the week I try to go to bed by 10:00 pm and I normally wake up around 6:00 am without an alarm clock. I know I will be waking up earlier during Basic Training, but at least I am able to sleep a full 6 to 8 hours a night, when I used to have trouble falling asleep and staying asleep. I know that exercising has greatly helped me achieve this goal. 22 months ago

“Promise me you will always remember – You are braver than you believe, stronger than you seem and smarter than you think” – Christopher Robin (to Pooh) 22 months ago