Loose Weight... A lot of weight...

hi ladies its been awhile since ive been on this.
and well..it hasnt been so good
Ive been eating some what normal for the past few months. I still suffer from bullimia, and yes I say suffer cause I dont find anything boastful about it. I think its a horrible thing that no one should ever get involved in.
But I went from nearly hitting my 108 goal again to now being around 118.
Im fasting from today till friday and hopefully that will get be down to 110 at least. In the past on a 3 day fast I loose up to 10 lbs. So wish me luck.

As odd as it is, I am very happy with myself. I have came to the conclusion I am beautiful no matter my size. But I do still have those insecurities which im going to get rid of. I want this weight gone and then slowly but surely become healthy. I have a person in my life that knows everything ive been going through and I know they are there to help me when I need it.

This summer I have worn a swimsuit and felt pretty comfortable. Mostly since I was around boys.
And my confidence has gained since a lot of my guy friends joke with me being so small still. I dont think im small but I am thin. being 5’6” and 118. its not a bad weight. But im just not fully happy with it.
One of my guy friends have been helping me without even knowing.
saying “your so tiny” or “dont complain about your weight, i hate when girls do that, your thin! shut up”
haha. as weird as it is, It really just makes me thankful and realize sometimes my thoughts on what guys want is nothing close.
But im here, supporting all you girls, will help all of you in whatever.

Good luck with getting to your goals, however you plan to achieve it.
Im here for you.

so I have yet to weigh myself in the last 4 days. and from weighing myself everyday to just a few times a week is a lot better. just so when I even loose the smallest amount, its still a success rather than going day by day not seeing anything change and then get pissed when only a little has went away.

I do though feel a bit like im getting closer to that old 108 ish

but by summer I plan to be a good 105.
so that gives me just about 2 months.
going to try my hardest to do so.

well its early, no ones awake yet, so before going out and accidently having a horrid binge, im going to try to get a few more z’s in.

good luck ladies
think thinnnnn

So no one ever really writes in here, that should change!!

since mostly Im overloading the entries.

anyways been able three days since ive been on here.
Last night I ate a good amount of food and deicided to keep it. I didnt really gain anything but you could tell I had a bit of a bloated stomach all day. and last night I woke up in pain cause my body was trying to digest it all.

but I havent weighed myself in two days, kind of scared.
But I think Im around 116

Tomorrow im going to run for a 20 and walk for another 20. and if its nice go for another walk later for about a half hour.

Im going to start a fast on tuesday, until thursday.
I think I can get a good amount of weight off. In the past a three day fast gets me down 7-9 lbs. with a good work out too.

so wish me luck ladies
and I hope any of you who get on here start filling the entries. and making good progress to your goal

gw:100-103

i weighed myself and luckily im 117.
still pretty fat though

anyways
this is before and after pics
i just took the top two
and the others are my old 145lbs

ignore the blacked out swimsuit.
haha

anyways let me know what you think

there goes that 3 day fast.
>=/
I ate right when i got up. But I knew it was going to happen.
So Im not too bummed.
Plus its going out. Im purging it right after im done with this entry.

Ill put my stats for today and pictures up later.
I still have my 145 lbs pictures. seriously..soooo gross.
but ill put that and a new pic up.

I deleted my old account, dont even remember my old names, I use to be on here and the older ones that 42 things deleted, “become anorexic” But im back. THANK GOODNESS!

My stats are:

SW:145
CW:118
LW:108.5
GW:100
Height: 5’6’‘

I went from a size 11 to a perfect fitting 0.
but now im gaining weight due to stupid binges. like tonight. I purged most everything but i ended with TWO brownies and THREE slices of pizza. GUH
I feel soo fat and by tomorrow i swear ill be at 120.
DAMNIT!
but yea my 0’s are getting tight and size 1’s are ok on me..but all i see is FAT!

anyways I need you girls again. To keep me strong. Im on spring break now and want to loose at least 10 lbs before im back at school. Usually if I fast for 3 days I can loose up to 9lbs.
but fasting is so hard now. I eat too much. Crap at school and then whatever i eat at home I try to purge but like tonight it just sucks.

Im tempted to go buy diet pills but im afraid my mom will find them, shes a huge snoop. Thats why everything i do i have to keep as secretive as possible.

Anyways ladies starting tomorrow im doing a 3 day fast. I NEED YOU ALL!
I dont think I can do this.
and since im on break I can work out more. So Im going to run at least an hour everyday.

before with you all I lost 30lbs in 2 months. I can do this, I know I can.. But its getting harder.
and since summer is so close im afraid to see what id look like in a swimsuit