have friends

giving up. I think I am too busy to have friends.

not much to report in the friend category, but since my daughter is pretty busy with her 4H stuff, at least I am talking to nice people who are into being productive with all the stuff we are doing in the club.
I guess that is all for now.

well it looks like this lady I met is too busy with her kids and family… so… maybe we can meet… maybe not.
I can see why I do not have any friends!!
I tried though!

i have been emaiing with this new potential friend and since she has an office job and I work at home with no child care, the only time we can get together seems to be the weekend. Or if I get a sitter for lunch.
It would be nie to go to lunch but I dont have sitters.
so we are emailing now and seeing what we want to do with the kids on some saturday. I suggested meeting at a park with the kids and if it is hot, coming over to swim afterwards!

I called a mother I met at my kids’ school today. so we will see if anything develops. I can invite her and her kids to swim. easy!
It makes me realize that this yr… alone… I have called Sheila and emailed her after running into her at kinkos( she was friends with me and even there when my 8 yr old was born!) she never got back with me.
so ,,, It is not like I did not try.
i am not going to stalk someone!
and also… Julie who i saw at my dad’s funeral… we were friends from age 3 till 22 when we lived so far apart that we lost touch.
she really wanted to get back to being friends. well.. I wrote her and now I hear nothing. I will not stop trying, at least maybe send birthday card or something.
but another example.

Donna is an older lady who used to do things with us , but it has gotten super one sided ever since she became a grandmother.
Her grandson is in afaraway state, but she spends all her time quilting for him.
so.. even though I have called her and we chatted on the phone, she has no time anymore to do anything.

oh well.
so…thats all for now.

I do not think I have any friends.
It is hard to understand what I am doing wrong.
maybe I am too busy trying to work that I never can take time to entertain people, or call and invite them to do things. I am shy or afraid they will reject. I like things to be spontaneous but things are not happening.
I had one mother at my kids school say for me to call her if i needed help moving and I did not.
I saw her last night and she was talking and making plans with another mom. I was there for the whole hour sitting there at the brownie meeting and she and I did not make plans.
I tried to suggest something and it went on deaf ears.