Have a one word resolution for 2009

I have fallen off course. I am re-committing myself to this goal. My life won’t change into what I want it to be unless I DO.

I have had some moments where I lost sight of this goal but I am back on track. I have seen the quality of my life improving each time I “DO” something instead of just thinking about it or putting it off until later.

was helping me a lot during the last two weeks. I had to give this big presentation in front of a lot of experts of my project. When I thought about the presentation during the preparation of the talk – it made me feeling sick. In these moments my word “fearless” helped me a lot to keep calm =) and a lot of valerian worked too, of course =) I gave the presentation last week and everything went very well. I got praised from some people and made some very helpful, friendly contacts. So I can say, it was totally worth it to be fearless =)

I didn’t think about my word (Fearless), because I was in vacation and everything was going well. Puh – but now I have to use my word again to encourage myself. In only two weeks I have to give a presentation instead of my prof in front of all the experts on my research field. And of course I am affraid. I have the give the talk in English, of course and I’m scared that I don’t find the right words. And what can I do when they don’t like my presentation? I’m representing not only project, I’ll represent my boss. huiihui. I really have respect about this. To not flip out about it I use my word again (and of course some valerian pills=) wish me luck =)

A friend invited me to go to an Indian festival last weekend. Apart from looking forward to having Indian for lunch, I didn’t have any expectations of the day. I ended up having a great time watching the Indian dancing and colour throwing festivities. I also wandered into a tent and listened in on a Happiness workshop. Topics discussed were the importance of visualisation, gratitude, having a positive self concept, language and labels and most importantly, the lesson that everything in life is a choice, an opportunity.
How apt! The word opportunity is never to far from my thoughts, being my one word resolution for 2009. I love this word, it has served me so well this year so far :)

to continue to “shed” after my weekend away. I’ve shed some lbs, still more to go but doing well. Now I really want to focus on some physical clutter that is really emotionally draining me.

I’ve put in so much hard work in the last 6 months – first looking for a job, then driving, then writing – that I have run out of steam. I really feel as if I need a break, to clear my head and start again.

The mother-in-law is coming to stay this weekend so I’m going to take an opportunity to have some fun (yeah – sounds wierd, but she’s a real character). Then back to the plan on Monday.

I am not in control…as much as I would like to control….as much as I can prepare….I am still not in control. Things happen as a result of other things that happen. Some things (my actions and my thoughts) I can influence. Some things (other people’s actions and thoughts) I can try to influence. But I am not in control.

am shedding some weight, need to tackle some clutter and old keepsakes around the house. its weighing me down emotionally. its just sooo hard to go through that stuff. i get really involved in it, start thinking about everything, start crying. its so painful.

I am still not going as well as I would have liked but I still am doing something. I give myself credit for starting over each and every time instead of throwing in the towel and giving up when I fail. I am currently researching ways that others have successfully overcome procrastination. I have missed out on a lot of opportunities and I don’t want to miss out on any more.