I wrote a very detailed wrap-up entry, and then the internet ate it.
Perhaps it’s for the best to not spill one’s guts on the internet
For various reasons, I had great expectations from 2010.
After 3 draining years, I thought I would finally be the master of my own time and attention.
And for a few months it worked. I made a good solid schedule and was following it, I was exercising regularly, doing Pilates 2 times per week and walking daily. I was GTDing successfully and was finishing projects.
I tasted success for a while, but it didn’t last for long.
The changes that were thrust upon me were too much to handle, and things fell apart for a while.
But I’m back in the saddle, working at it again. The transformation is not complete, but it is a work in progress!
2010 has been a pivotal year. Although I’ve made positive changes to my work, home and health, creativity has taken centre stage. I’ve made the jump to becoming a writer and an artist. This has been achieved in a number of ways – by creating quality work, joining an art class, attending a conference, blogging, reading about the craft of novel-making. I’ve been vocal about my desire to become a published author and in doing so, am slowly becoming part of a wider writing community. I plan to build on this in 2011, growing my network, making deeper friendships and producing better work.
I have just said I don’t feel like summarizing. But here I just have to say I have made 2010 a year of 180 degree transformation, although in a way I wouldn’t ever imagine.
When I first saw this goal I was a little scared. Transformation? Sounds big. And yeah, it’s big. But I thought I would have to take big steps in order to get there. Do something big, what? asked my scared self. I had no idea. And yeah, it doesn’t take big steps. Little by little, you get closer and closer and finally, you realize you are right there.
There would be many bullet points here to show how I transformed my life but I think these are neglectable. The one big thing is that I finally believe I can do it and that I deserve, whatever it is that I imagine. The hardest thing on earth seems easy (or at least… viable) once completed. I have to just do it.
Another thing is that I am absolutely certain it’s not the material side of life that matters the most. It’s relatively easy to have. You can do this and that, get a house, change a car, buy holiday trip to a foreign destination. All that doesn’t mean anything as soon as you get it. In a long run, what matters is your self-actualization and people around you. Pay attention to how you feel, and how you treat others. How can you contribute, does it help your brother? I am not saying that not having is good and having is bad. I am saying that unless you get to terms with yourself, nothing, no material good will ease the pain that is consuming you inside.
So, dream big and go for it. Take little steps and you’ll see you get there on the very time. Look, there are others going along with you. Respect them and thank them for joining you.
continuous improvement perhaps? what else? any thoughts or suggestions anyone??
joyjoei We read, we travel, we become.
in 2010, i’ve been more concious with what i want out of life and have managed to make them happened.
- many dreams have been reached.
- travelling destinations were crossed off the list; philippines, india, cameron, genting, KL, singapore, Bangkok, Phuket, Krabi, Hua-Hin, etc.. i’ve travelled extensively with more new groups of people, not stick to the old ones as before. it helps open my horizon.
- friends were made and met; Wim in Hua-Hin, Venusian2 in the Philippines, Joy and Tang to India together, many old unviersity friends via facebook and new people i met when travelling..
- spent most of my time when not travelling or working with family, seeing and growing up with my little niece and nephew, spent more time with my parents and helped dad get through his sickness.
- got over the second-time breakup and managed to talk nicely and friendly with PT again.. though sometimes i felt that i was still mad at him for cheating and leaving me..
- started to invest more on my business; know when to work hard and when to take a break from it.. i don’t want to get richer or bigger but i want my business to go on running..
- physically, i’ve intended to make some changes in my body.. i take up running seriously and keep up with weight training. as a result, i am in a better shape and healthier than the previous years. though some signs of sickness have been showing up lately.. i let my hair grow out after the breakup. the reason is that i want to look different from the old me.. it’s been 15 years ago since i had long hair.
- mentally, i am sanely growing up. i know how to tackle when i am in a foul mood. when i got pissed, friends said they rarely saw me got pissed easily.. i sink in some kinds of art or creating something to calm myself down. i let the funny side of me run wilder. i am cultivating myself to be more passionate, hilarious, open and honest..
- i talk more openly with friends; both males and females. i’ve taken some risks to make them learn the real person in me. i don’t want to bottle it up. i speak up my mind honestly and sincerely. as a result, i’ve learned which friends like what in me and which not.
yes, the year has apparently transformed me in a great many ways..
wren You'll not see nothing like the mighty wren!
2010 really has been a year of transformation for me, although not in the ways I had originally envisioned.
I had thought transformation would occur by me setting a plan and following it closely. That isn’t how it happened. The transformation that I experienced was not what I anticipated, and it happened unexpectedly, just by me doing whatever was the obvious right thing to do at the moment.
These things involved taking care of my health at the beginning of the year, when I was very ill with a malignant ear infection followed by c. diff, by taking care of my dog by getting her a sister and them by taking care of them both with daily hikes, by plodding along in therapy, and by standing up for myself at work & taking steps to secure a job that paid fairly.
Somehow, all of these things worked together to give me a gift that I never expected. For the first time in my life, I have not been depressed, and this is without medication. I’ve been hesitant to say anything about this, but it has been months now. For someone who has dealt with double depression since early childhood, this is a huge and very welcome transformation!
There are still plenty of things in my world that need to be transformed, and I will keep at them. For now, I think this has been pretty good work for one year.
My best month all year. Validation and abundant creativity. Hoping that this continues through my productive ‘dark’ months and I emerge at the other end with something special.
A definite improvement. Day job’s important, but secondary right now.
Generally good. Pacing myself. Sleep, walking, fresh air.
Warm, cosy, clean. Looking forward to Xmas socials.
joyjoei We read, we travel, we become.
has changed me in some ways.. travelling and meeting new people always gives me new attitudes towards life and the way i think. naturally, i am an open book but more when travelling. i don’t travel to find ‘me’ bc i’ve found and known ‘me’ for a long time. but it’s like i’ve created and found new layers and new shades of ‘me’ everytime i visit new places and meeting new people.
India is not an easy country to travel but not too hard if you want to try it. we’d done a lot of homework before going bc we wanted to enjoy our time travelling there as much as possible. though, plans couldn’t be fixed and things could be changed every minute, we were open and prepared for that. and these are what we’ve learned and adapted them to living life and the way we think..
2010 has brought massive transformation in my life – but not the way I thought or planned it would.
In July my daughter abruptly decided to leave film school, move back into the family home, and study psychology.
And my husband decided that we would re-locate our business on a VERY short notice.
Both changes implied extremely hard, literally back-breaking, work – followed by energy-sucking new dynamics. I’m still trying to recover.
I made the choice to commit with these 2 projects 100% – and neglect all my own projects.
After 4 months, I find myself exhausted and with SO much to get back to. All my routines appear to be gone, and the very idea of implementing baby steps feels intangible.
I need to work this out!
Finished a short story and back in the fiction game. Also experimenting with art. Experienced a slight dip in confidence and hoping to push past this in November.
Went through the pain barrier and came out relatively unscathed. Unfortunately, we may need to go through more uncertainty before we can reach a happy plateau again. I’m supporting my team members to the best of my ability – no corners cut.
I’ve managed to avoid a number of lurgies so far. On the downside, I have put on half a stone of weight. More exercise required.
Again, another sociable one hence the extra weightage.