decide what the hell I would like to do with the rest of my life

I’m redoing all of my 43 things goals & this is very long term.

Well, not exactly without a clue as I do have an inkling, but what I am sure of is that life will take me to where I am supposed to be when I’m supposed to be there. And it will be great. Super. Mah-vellous, dahling.

I’m marking this done, not because I’ve figured what the hell I would like to do with the rest of my life, but because I figured that the key to this is in being flexible and being open to new ideas and new people and new circumstances. That’s the key for me anyway.

Everything’s gonna be alright, mon. (Yup, No Woman No Cry is part of the repertoire as well, how can one not love Bob Marley?) And my ducks will get in a row all by themselves when they’re supposed to.

I will be content to find out what to do for the time being. One day at a time. ;)

maybe that is not something that can be decided at once and forever. perhaps thst’s something that is permanently being decided as we go…

I’ve decided that i’m going about this all thw wrong way….why do i have to decide???? I’m just gunna go with what fate has planned for me :o)

Am wondering whether I’d enjoy being a therapist, as in massage, reflexology kind of thing. I don’t know, but it’s something to add to the “Possible Things I Might Want To Do”

tonight i’m off to do some travelling around europe! i always feel better when i’m on the road! gonna visit southern-eastern part of europe, the balkans – croatia and around. two weeks of no worries ahead!

oh i know, i would travel all my life, if i could afford it!

guess what, i’ve met someone, and during last few weeks i didn’t really care much if i know what to do with my life :D everything suddenly makes much more sense..

the bad part is that after two wonderful weeks she’s gone to do a summer job in the States. I guess it’ll be a loooong summer of waiting for me. On the other hand, I have some time to get back on my feet and prepare that “rest of my life” in case she would like to spend it with me :D

Well, I ask my friends and family what they can picture me doing with my life and they also draw a blank. That seems like a really bad sign to me. A little background: I went to college, but didn’t complete my degree. I’m about 3 classes from finishing it, but I don’t want to finish. I was going to be a teacher for the Deaf/Hard of hearing population. My professors never liked me and made it really hard on me. I became really depressed from all of it. This is a big reason why I’m hesitant to go back to school at all. There’s a part of me that wants to finish school, but I can’t go back for the same thing. I just can’t. I was miserable and realized I couldn’t deal with the politics of becoming a teacher. So, teaching is out. That leaves me with… what?

I haven’t had a decent job for about 2 years now. I moved back in with my parents ‘cause I have no money. Ok I have to stop focusing on the negetives here. I’ve been trying to figure out what I want to do by eliminating all those things I know I don’t want to do. It’s a longer process than I’d like. But, right now, I feel like it’s the only/best option I have. I think if I could figure out what makes me happy, I’d be set. Unfortunately, I haven’t really been happy for a while now. What to do?

That’s right. Join a team of strangers on the internet going through the same thing! :) I honestly think this will help me. Just venting and receiving the odd comment back. I do often feel like I’m the only one lost in this world. But now I konw I’m not the only one. So, there’s a small victory if nothing else. :)

Does this count d’ya think???? Still havent decided what exactly i hope to acheive by that, but it’s a start eh?