do not understand men…why is my ex speaking to me to tell me about his wonderful new life with his wonderful new gf and their wonderful new found happiness? i really, really don’t care. if i did care, it would only be because i want the same things as him.

i don’t get guys. all my friends tell me that i’m beautiful and intelligent and whatever else, so hundreds of guys are after me and i shouldn’t have a low self-esteem. well, where are they then?!? i don’t understand…why do they keep insisting on all this when clearly i am unattractive for whatever reason? also i am apparently a crazy insecure young girl who needs professional help, which is personally why i think guys don’t go for me.

it just doesn’t make any sense. i’ve tried everything. i’ve tried being calm, being relaxed, flirting, wearing loads of makeup, wearing hardly any makeup at all, being talkative, being nice and kind and attentive and NOTHING WORKS!! none of the guys i like EVER EVER EVER like me back. ever. and i don’t even act desperate, i mean they’ve never guessed that i like them or anything.

and another thing, why is it always the ugly and boring guys that do fancy me, when such a miracle occurs once in a blue moon? i mean, is that all i’m worth? no intention of being arrogant here, beauty is in the eye of the beholder after all.

just…could someone please help me?

I do NOT understand men. I really really don’t. Why do they sporadically text and when they’ve texted you back after 3 hours of suspense they fail to write more than about 5 words? Why is it that when you ask if it is ok to call them via text they don’t text you back? Why is it that when you’ve met their friends with them and have officially become their girlfriend, they think it is acceptable not to contact you properly for 5 days? Why do they not wish you good luck for important competitions that you’ve been talking about for the past 3 weeks? Why do they tell everyone but YOU that they had a fantastic time with you on fri night?

WHY???

I met on Yahoo 360 back in January, before I was even on 43things. At that time she had just met a man through MySpace and had started dating him. I was kind of suspicious when she told me he didn’t have a home phone that he could call her on, as he only had it hooked up to the computer, and only had a “pay-as-you-go” cell phone, so they couldn’t talk on the phone very much, just e-mail and IM. I mentioned my suspicions to her, and she thought about them, but decided they were unwarranted and that she needed to trust someone.

Over three months later I just talked to her and GUESS WHAT? His WIFE IM’d her on Friday night and wanted to know how long my friend had been messing around (my words, not hers) with her husband! AS you can imagine, she is DEVASTATED!!! AND afraid to trust again!!!

to work on this goal any longer!!!

I AM SO CONFUSED!!!!!!!!

thanks for listening…I just needed to vent!

not understand…accept. IM OVER IT! Im living life day by day and as i cross confusion in my path…ill tackle it as it comes..

What is it about them that makes me (and alot of other women) lose it? I mean, seriously! One only has to exhale and im a shivvering wreck. They have this sensuality, this sexuality…ahhhhh! God, and im not kidding, the more Itallian they look, the more i like them.

I lived in Italy and go there several times a year (work and family) and I know the types well (often they are steriotyped as greesy, slimy men) and I like alot of those types!

I need answers! There must be a vaccine!

when I spoke up and mentioned that I started my career in my organisation 16yrs ago. A handsome young man from out of town took note and as I was passing by him to leave the room he stopped me and said I look nowhere near old enough to have 16yrs work experience. He was seated, so I laid my hand on his shoulder, gave a big grin and said “Why, that’s a compliment, isn’t it? Thanks!” and gave him a gentle squeeze. A little later we struck up a conversation about the conference topics, then suddenly out of the blue, he asked me if I was married. Today I returned to the conference and one of his buddies asked for my business card and told me the guys were hoping that I would have shown them around my city last night after the conference. Now, I don’t know if I was too forward with him or if he and his buddies were imagining that I was a “good-time girl..” When I stopped to talk to two of his friends they both put their arms around me…I never met these people before…Because these guys are part of my organisation, I decided to immediately tone it down…that’s all I need now is a reputation as a good-time girl. All this attention from a little shoulder squeeze!

You know, most of my romantic relationships for the past six years have not lasted more than four months. So I was thinking…instead of setting myself up for failure by trying to establish a long-term relationship, why don’t I do like the guys I meet of late and give my next romantic relationships a 3-month expiry date??!! That way I’m almost guarenteed success!! Heh heh. I’m not kidding.

recent email sign-offs
He: How is my beautiful new friend doing?
Me: Fine. How is my sexy-kisser new friend doing?

Is that toooooo flirtatious? or just plain corny???!!! Ha ha ha ha..