be happy

now that im married, it a bliss.

butsadly, this weekend was atotal bummer.
squabbles after another. arguments after another.

i can stand it.

how long more will this goal holds up to.

=(

haiz.

well. got thru first day of sch. it was ok. not wow. but just ok. yeah made friends. but you know not so wow as my previous frens. well 1st day…

hmm… all my new friends got bf. and yeah they were all rushing to meet them. im meeting mine later so doesnt matter.

they are so-so interested in school. v slack. all smoke.

but i guess i wouldnt be happy there. well my purpose there is to study and get good grades. and yu know concentrate and not be influence by any. ok.

will i be happy? sigh. ill try. plus the journey to and fro sch sux. didnt know all this can affect my happiness..

this is gonna take awhile….

im ok now. haha. just emo back then. well i dont how things will turn out. with me starting school in a whole new environment.

will i be happy there? will i make friends. do i wanna make friends? cause seriously i wanna concentrate on my studies. sigh.

it sucks. im feeling very down now. everythings not right. im breaking down at the thought of this and that.

when will i get over it and stop depressing. aye got such word? haha.

but well to others i seem happy. able to hide feelings well.

but when im alone i shattered. i become somebody else. i just break down.

i wanna be happy again. somebody make me smile… and please keep it that way. cause to me i think thats how one’s life should really be. its a paradise. a rainbow. gee. happiness.

i think this is a lifetime goal. who doesnt wanna be happy? haha.