learn to drive

I had my 14th driving lesson today…and it ended being pretty bad. I kept making mistake after mistake, and I could tell the instructor was tired of it. My confidence just dropped 100 notches. Maybe I’m too stupid to be able to ever drive properly.

After 4 months of hiatus, I’m back onto driving lessons – with a different instructor. He’s so serious and intimidating, it makes me nervous. Mum arranged a lesson with another instructor but I’m still getting lessons with the other one. All this driving and no improvement is stressing me out.

Forgot to update. Had another lesson last Thursday and it was a better drive, except for a nasty turn near the end. I’m really beating myself up over the things I get wrong. The idea is that you’re supposed to learn from your mistakes – but I’m not exactly getting anywhere. It’s so frustrating.

Just done with the first lesson. I’m glad that my instructor is nice and isn’t too intimidating. It was embarrassing to admit that I took two lessons 3 years ago but I didn’t tell him why I stopped.

I feel a little bad that I sprung up the issue of my disability just before the lesson started instead of mentioning it more in advance. Not only does he have to deal with someone with a disability but also severe anxiety as well.

The lesson was okay. I had trouble keeping to the side of the lane and controlling the steering wheel was [as suspected] difficult. I know it’s early days yet but part of me believes I’m never gonna get there because I’m unable to mentally and physically process all the information.

Mum bought 5 lesson vouchers. The first one is tomorrow and it couldn’t have come at a worse time. Just peachy.