quit drinking

Why should I stop? I’m not an alcoholic and it’s fun and I enjoy myself so why the fuck not?

I was talking with a coworker who had one of those hellish hangovers you get from a night of partying. She was talking about the liquor and I was starting to crave it again. To just be blah! But it’s the afterwards part that feels wrong. Y’know? It’s always the ” shouldn’t of done that, never again” guilt trip but y’know if I get another drink in my hand I’ll be drinking it and awaiting my next one.

I may not be an alcoholic but if I keep doing things the way I do them I will be. I keep denying that I can become a drunk. But let’s see I’m under the drinking age so I can’t exactly go to a bar but whenever there’s alcohol involved its already in my hand. I only drink to get drunk. Infact it got bad enough that I f8cked up with my ex once. I went over to his parents and as soon as they took out the wine I basically ditched him to “try” it. I always make an effort to get wasted. But never again! Because this path keeps getting rockier. And I’m going to end up falling off a cliff.