believe in myself more

This one, along with some other one, annoys me.

No matter what I strive for in this life, I seem to have more belief in myself when it comes to pursuing acting than anything else. I don’t see myself finding love, discovering my sexuality, resolving my religious beliefs, being solely financially independent or anything else. If I give up being an actor, I don’t know what else to believe in. You can tell a person what they should believe but it’s up to them to buy into it.

If I believed in myself more, I could accomplish more of my goals, be a better person, live life with more joy, see the challenge in everything instead of seeing the blessings and curses and I’d be happier with my life by accepting it as it is. I could disregard what people think about me, have more courage in daily events and interactions with people, know how to stand up for myself with confidence, speak up when I know I have the right to do so, fight back when I’m being wronged, correct those who’ve misspoke about me, conquer the defeatist in me, squash my apathy and have no regrets at the end of my life.