master cleanser

About day the first, I got cold, very cold. And then right before bed I got achy, my freakin’ shoulders were hurting. Night is the worst time for this. The cravings (still nachos), the aches, and the cold. Happening again today. I was sooo close to caving in today. NACHOS! Made it through work with no problem but on the way home and once here, knowing they were only a block away…But I perservered. Tomorrow is another day and as for today: I kicked its butt!

My husband is also doing this with me and he is so horribly positive it makes me sick…Oh, and I also feel nauseous at times. Need…spellcheck…

8:30-ish pm here, drinking my tea. Turning in early because I have to work tomorrow at 7. Well, I guess I made it! Even did the SWF, which seemed to take, actually did take, hours to get through. Probably just have more tea in the morning, can’t be running to the bathroom every few minutes at work. Especially angry and on the verge of tears around 7pm because I wanted nachos from Santa Fe Burrito. Not even hungry, just want to eat. My sinuses feel better already although, I know, it’s terrible, I’ve still smoked about 10 cigarettes today. I can’t face the idea of giving up all three of my favorite vices (food, alcohol, smokes) in one day. Last time I tried MC I failed miserably on day two. I was also at work then and was disgusted with the lemonade so I went and got some french toast. I trust that such a thing won’t occur tomorrow…Here’s hoping…

Ha! Almost finished the vodka…nearly ready for the tea and bedtime. Man, I hate Xmas. I’m ready to try the master cleanse again, though. I tried it months ago and made it a whole day and a half. But this time I have company, at least four friends that I can think of are supposed to be starting tomorrow. Hopefully we can actually have “dinner” parties where we just sit around and drink some juice. I’ve been eating everything in sight and swear I’ve gained 10 pounds in the last week in preparation for the fast…Wish me luck…