Grow in Christ

No matter how hard I try I never get any closer.
I think that I am my own worst enemy.
I just really need prayers right now.

I don’t really know what exactly my problem is.

I find myself doing things I know I shouldn’t do.
Even as I am doing them I tell myself I know that it is wrong.

Cursing is my main fault.

Pray.
A lot.

I have fallen further behind in this goal than when I started. I feel so disconnected.

Last night I decided to just dive into my Bible and look for answers.

I found all the answers and more. God showed me what He wanted me to be last night… Even though it won’t happen over night I still know that I have to change…

Because…

He died for me. I need to live for him.

I am in a really bad place with my personal walk with Christ. I feel like I will never get my faith back. I find myself doubting all the time. I feel miserable about it.

Some bad stuff happened at my church, and I wasn’t comfortable going back until recently. It really harmed my relationship with God. I know that I shouldn’t have let one person’s rude actions do that to me. I wish that I could take it back.

I need everyones prayers.