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this is the name of my first born baby boy that i hope to concoct sometime in the near future. lol. brio is italian and colton’s just a good middle name, and lydic is williams last name. william is a big head. and i have big ol lips soooo, if brio comes out with a big ol head and big ass lips, thats gonna really hurt. but jokes aside i am actually, in between thoughts at the moment as i have just encountered a walnut 3 days ago. and on this day, something weird took place. and now, i cant sleep at night. i am allergic to nuts. +basically, at the end of the month, i will be testing for baby lydicstein, because, i am not doing to hot. i was , but now i’m not. and i think it wont matter anyways cause i’m on the inventory team, and wont be getting enought sleep nor have i been taking pills, nor have a been eating adequetly so, as far as i am conserned i suck balls. ...oooops.

had period :(

on the 24th

ladies!!! i need your help. so i had sexual “contact”(wont get into detail but it provides for a chance) on the 8th” then had sexual intercourse on the 13th. 3 days later i noticed darked areolas, and that my nose had been runny for awhle, like since before the 13th. i also remembered i had wierd nail growth before the 13th as well as a firm pudge that i thought was fat that i couldnt seem to get rid of. well since the 16th when i finally put all this crap together i cant help but think maybe its chemical again, and if so, then why were all these symptoms here before i noticed it? sooo what do you think. boobs still ulta haeavy, and darker nipps, still get runny nose and nails are amazing, also at work all a sudden i get lower back strain. but havent been lifting…? obviously i will test after 28th if i miss my period, but, in the mean time, i’ll just keep telling myself its coming that way i’m not so depressed. wish me luck!(hope this wasnt too confusing)

...Its been ten months since i’ve ben on here. me and william a going to try for a baby. we want a boy and we want to name him Brio Colten Lydic, i am african american and william is japanese philipino and german, lol. we are moving in january to denver so, depending on how that works out we might delay or start on little brio. congrats to everyone else. im finding alot of people are pregnant right now.

If I am luck he will be the very sweet fire fighter i am talking too. :) Or some one else with dark hair and Blue eyes, that is soo hot. If we had kids our kids would be mixed, with really dark hair and strong face structures…Handsome husband, handsome boys..ahh, wishful thinking…but still cool. :p

I had a miscarraige at 16. my ex and my mother never new,still dont know and, probabley would have never cared. After this I now feel like If i have a kid in my future I cant name him carmine, because that was going to be carmine’s name, lol. But anyway, now my kids name will be Jacob Ryan, and then Ethan Andrew, and then Treavon Isaiah. I know i’m having all three boys. I better.lol :p R.I.P Carmine Anthony.<3