Enjoy being single

i just had dinner with a friend i haven’t seen for 4 years. she’s recently single .. and talking to her felt like i was having a conversation with myself. i realized how alike we are. we just want someone who’s gonna tell us we’re beautiful and who’s gonna love us, and who got their sh*t together and know what they want. that’s not too much to ask? is it? why is it so hard to find a decent guy? i hate being single.. but i really want to try to be happy being by myself..

my friend showed me my horoscope and it says that feb is the month i meet some new love.. i hope it’s true cuz i don’t like being single :( i feel that i need to have at least a crush or something, not that i have to be with that person, but just so that i can see there are some good single men with potential out there…

being 25, my biological clock is ticking, and i get stressed out and start thinking of all the what ifs. what if i never the person who i’m suppose to be with?! arg.. i’m scared i’ll end up settling for less… i need to love my life being single before i can be with someone else i think…
and i’m annoyed that i have no crush, no one i can focus on..

recently single for 5 months now… once single i went to europe alone, and started planning activities to make myself love the single life. but there are still some days that i really hate it. i like having someone telling me how beautiful i look and how much he loves me.. regularly..

i met bunch of new people but i still can’t fill that void… i am starting volunteering and volleyball next week, hopefull meeting even more new ppl will help my social life and i’ll enjoy the single life more.

one thing i do enjoy is the attention i get from men once they find out i’m single.. something i haven’t experience for awhile.