Gypsy is happy
Seeing as we didn’t manage to get any full length shots Saturday night, I got my lovely man to take a photo of me tonight in the ‘goddess dress’!!
I just feel SO great in it – funny how one simple piece of clothing could make you feel so different!
Gypsy is happy
Calissa has mentioned in her posts under this goal that feeling feminine is a big part of connecting with her inner goddess, and wearing dresses and skirts helps her to do that… and I agree completely!
The thing is, I’m a tall, rubenesque chick with a BIG bum and thick ankles… so dresses and skirts haven’t graced my wardrobe for many, many years!
But yesterday, I went shopping with my beautiful friend Sammy and in a moment of self loving madness (yep, that’s loving, not loathing!) I tried on a maxi dress… man I love this floor length trend! Much to my absolute shock, I loved it! I felt like a goddess – so needless to say, I brought it home with me! (along with new shoes, evening bag and a sheer black wrap!)
So, now I can’t wait to wear it to my friend’s wedding next weekend.. and quite frankly, I also can’t wait to go shopping again and try on more dresses!! Hahaha!
Gypsy is happy
Who is the goddess inside of me? Is she strong, intellectual, sensual, nuturing? Is she all of that? How could I forget? Did I forget, or have I chosen to ignore her because the pressure to be like her all of the time is just too much?
It’s like if I’m not “goddess-like” all of the time, then I’ve failed. Which is ridiculous. Why do I put so much pressure on myself?
It’s time to start noticing her again – acknowledging the little glimpses I get of her throughout the day.
Today, it was getting home early after a long week of being sick and feeling tired, and slipping into my soft, comfy pj top and warm tracksuit pants to sit quietly with my laptop while I caught up with things on facebook and 43T. Quiet time. My goddess-part likes the quiet. A lot.
Calissa wonders why she's so tired lately.
Funnily enough, after writing my last entry I went out shopping with my mum for her wedding dress. She found her dress and so did I. I ended up spending the most I’ve ever spent on an outfit before. Mum was a bit concerned, but I feel it was worth every penny because it makes me feel beautiful and makes me think of Aphrodite. I can’t wait to wear it.
Calissa wonders why she's so tired lately.
This goal has been a lot about feeling feminine for me. I’m the kind of girl that lives in jeans and sneakers. However, the country is in the middle of one of the hottest summers on record. It just hasn’t been practical to wear that kind of clothing. Over the last month I have acquired two very lovely skirts and unearthed another two out of my cupboard. And I’m enjoying wearing them; I’m finding that it makes me feel a bit more feminine and like I am honouring my inner Goddess.
I also wore my lovely moonstone earrings instead of my usual sleepers today and a total stranger complimented me on them.
Calissa wonders why she's so tired lately.
It has been a while since I really connected with my inner Goddess, so I took some time out this evening. I had a nice long soak in the bath, which was followed by a moment of realisation. I am often dogged by uncertainty, fear and pain. But underneath that, I am powerful. I simply forget that sometimes.
It has been raining on and off this afternoon… just lightly, but enough to wet the earth and make it smell nice. I took a quick, barefooted stroll through my garden this evening and was amazed by the vista of stars overhead.
Calissa wonders why she's so tired lately.
I had my first Goddess Night tonight. I hadn’t planned to. I’d been working hard on my essay today and I decided to have a bath tonight as a reward. Then my inner Goddess kicked in, insisting I take the book on Animal Symbolism along with me and issuing a further stream of commands: exfoliate before you get in and again before you get out, shave those legs, ooo… it’s time to try out that cleansing mask, and make sure you moisturise your entire body when you get out.
Not only does my skin feel lovely and smooth, but I feel more present in the moment and the tummy ache that had been troubling me this afternoon (probably stress and bad eating habits) has quietened down.
Calissa wonders why she's so tired lately.
I did a bit of pondering about this today. It seemed to me that what I need to do is to instate a “Goddess night” perhaps once a month. I’m thinking long soaks in the bath with candles and a good book. Also a chance to slow down and get to know this Goddess, find out what she might like.
There’s also something here about reclaiming power.
Calissa wonders why she's so tired lately.
I’ve been doing a bit of a review of my goals lately and wondering just what it would take for me to be happy in marking this as done. I don’t know the answer yet, but I know that I still strongly associate this goal with being a bit more feminine, maybe pampering my body more… actually, yeah, that’s it, more than necessarily being more feminine.
Anyway, I certainly want to have a think about it a bit longer. This goal could be a lot of fun if I let it.
but it overlaps with my femininity goal, so I don’t need both on my list. And to be honest, I don’t feel much like a goddess – I’ll settle for making a success of being an ordinary mortal before aspiring to divinity :-p
