lose weight

Personally, I look great. I’ve been going to the tanning booth a lot lately, and I wear an old bikini to tan on the beds, and when I’m putting on my lotion I notice that I look a lot better. My stomach is toned, and when I’m far away looking at mirror, I can see the toned parts of my stomach and the frame that I have. It looks awesome. I still have a littleeeee bit of a stomach, but honestly, if I didn’t have that, I bet I’d look like a stick! You have to have some fat on you, or else, you’d be a walking stick!

I look great, I feel great, and I think I’m doing good. For now, this problem is solved. I’m eating less, but enough… I’m not starving myself. I’m getting the sufficient amount of calories, or whatever.

I also haven’t weighed myself, but I don’t personally care for numbers. Numbers don’t give me results, and the way clothes fit me does. I’m currently in a small in almost everything I wear, and everything fits.

I don’t wear Abercrombie or Hollister, and everything from American Eagle fits. Athletic shirts fit. Sweatpants fit. I look good.

I’m happy with myself.

....For now.

I’ve been running outside every day – or any day that I can, due to weather. I just prefer running outside than on the treadmill, because I get to see a change of scenery, and being in the same place for 30 minutes makes me not want to do it. I’m currently 144, and I’ve only lost 4 pounds so far. It’s so annoying, because I feel like after all the work I’m doing (and the sweat I’m perspiring) I should be losing more after what I do. But it’s annoying, because I weigh the same. My stomach is getting toned, but I feel fat for my height. Even if I am average, and I’ve got nothing to worry about, I feel so self-conscious. ...I’m even eating less, and I know I shouldn’t be. Today I haven’t even had a real meal. Grrrr. I hope I lose more soon.

Okay, so I’ve always been skinny, and I seem to carry my weight well….until the other day last week when I realized that my weight is starting to show—as it always ends up doing after winter. So I’ve started to work out every other day, giving myself time to cool down. I pretty much sweat it up yesterday, and I want to give myself time to adjust to the workout plan…since I haven’t been working on for a long time. And I jumped into it pretty harshly and overworked my abs while doing crunches, so I was out for a while.
I’m 5’6” and 148… but I don’t weigh myself every day anymore. It only leads to more anxiety. I eat what I want, but it’s not a lot. I mostly tend to snack, but I don’t go eating everything in sight. I am often told I am skinny, and I have a perfect body… But I don’t believe it.