beat my depression

I see whyowhy’s entry a day or so ago fits my situation. I can’t get the mental energy to do things on my list. I end up taking naps.

It isn’t all bad. I got to the grocery. I got the trash out. And I read some entries on 43T. But things don’t seem interesting and I have to do a lot of mental talking to do anything. And after I manage to do something, there is a let down.

I ought to be writing this stuff down for my therapist. But somehow it seems you’ll understand better.

I’ve just learned something new, and it has made me feel better, even though I don’t know how it will turn out.

I put up a wiki after fumbling around. Right now it had pages to chat about books, and to make a suggestion or even a list of how to reduce depression.

go to http://doingourthings.wetpaint.com and see what you can add.

Learning can take up a lot of mind space otherwise devoted to depression.

I find that reading other entries and thinking hard for anything in my experience that helped even a little bit helps some. It helps more when I comment on the entry and offer that little bit of personal experience to the person who is depressed.

It doesn’t make me un-depressed for long, but it makes me feel as though I might like myself. Some of the things that helped me in any certain situation may sound nuts to someone else, or maybe it just doesn’t help. But I can hope, and if others come up with ideas, a few of them may help a few of us.

Is there a way we can make a list that we each can add to, and that we can look over when we need something? Especially something we haven’t tried or a new approach?

Is anyone interested? I’ll include my silly strategies and anything else that worked for a while or got me ready for something else to work? I’ve heard of a site called Best Lists or something like that. Anyone heard of it? Or maybe it was best of the best.

I do not suggest we stop sharing our pain- that’s important. But sometimes I get so depressed I think over and over, I’ve got to change something, I’ve got to do something. It would be great to have a list with things others have thought of.

Just thinking of this idea makes me feela bit hopeful. I’ll even try to do something on one of my other 3 things.

In spite of a greyness pervading my head, I managed to do a bit of quilting. For me a victory- 36 small squares I had 4 days ago is now one big square- 1 block.

Unfortunately, I lost my courage and am anxious about the next block. The greyness let up and the anxiety came in. So I changed activities. I’m starting to read an old statistics book because my brain feels like mush. So that’s 2 wins over depression.

And I’ll count typing an entry as #3. I need all the wins I can get.

I’ve had some level of depression for 30 years. Most of those years I could slog through the mud, though everything took a long time. I was managing in my way until Jan ‘05 when I took a plummet to the bottom- of the scale shrinks use. It came with PTSD a form of anxiety. The last 2 years have been difficult, though I’ve been in intensive treatment. {color:blue} But there’s good news. I realized that I’m much better, not to pre-’05 levels, but better. Example, I signed up for this service. Maybe there’s advice I could use. I hope so.