quit smoking

Do you know how hard it is to quit when you feel like your life is falling apart. I’ll try again later.

I caved once and cheated. I feel really guilty about it and it wasn’t even good. It tasted bad and I could not stand the way I smelled afterwards. It will not happen again! A little while longer and I will declare myself a non-smoker. I just still feel too guilty about cheating to do it just yet.

I’ve had some cravings this weekend, but I didn’t act on them. All it would have taken was to have a pack of cigarettes laying around. That is why I am so glad that DH quit with me. Before, I would get a craving and he would have a pack laying around. Now, if I have a stressful day and need one all I have to do is not buy any. Anyway, I guess I’ll give this goal a little bit longer before I call it done. Maybe the occasional cravings will eventually go away.

WOW, it’s been almost a month and everything is still going good. We got a new treadmill and I’ve started walking. I don’t think I could have done 3 miles on the treadmill at one time while I was smoking.

It’s been getting easier everyday. I still get a craving every now and then, but the patches have been really helping. I also pop in a piece of sugar-free gum when I would have normally had a cigarette, like after dinner or in the car. It will be three weeks tomorrow since I quit and I hope that within the next week I can move to a lower dose of the patch.

Today is the first day that I haven’t felt that bad. The patches are helping with the cravings, but I am still having trouble with the mental part of it. Driving has got to be the worst. And after eating. And first thing in the morning. My DH is actually doing better than me. On the plus side, I can smell stuff so much better. I also feel like I have more energy. I’m not nodding off at work anymore. Anyway, just felt like updating on how it’s going.

I offically quit on Thursday. I have been using my patches and things have been going OK. It has been a little hard at times though. I have found that chewing gum helps. If I keep busy it also keeps my mind off of the cigarettes. I’m going to leave this up until the end of February to make sure it sticks.

I used my first patch today and ended up taking it off tonight and having a cigarette after I got pissed off about our taxes. I am just going to start quitting on Monday. I should be calmed down by then.

I sit here writing this with yet another cigarette in my hand. The quit date that I set came and went. I will be trying again very soon. I don’t have an exact date, but DH has agreed to quit with me this time. He wants to try using the gum and I will be giving the patch another go. I thought the gum was awful and won’t even give it a second chance.

I am going to set my “Quit Day” for December 26th. I just do not think that I would be very sucessful until after the holidays, but I don’t want to wait until New Year’s because it would be too much like a resolution and those always fail for me.