Half-way through the evening I was feeling pretty lonely when all at once I asked myself, “Is this how I feel when I don’t have the tv to turn to?”
It reminded me of something I heard the radio, how researcher has shown that people watching their favorite tv shows experience the same emotions associated with having friends. This makes sense now. Fundamentally I am lonely – and since at the moment their I cannot see an avenue of escape from this emotion, I settle for the second bes, tv.
I’ve been lonely off and on (mostly on) for a long time. I know firsthand that loneliness is not a subtle or easy emotion. It can be one of the hardest things to live with.
It’s good to be reminded that there are real reasons for the things I do and they need to be respected. I am not to blame for my own lonliness, not can that lonliness be swept idly aside.
Sometimes tv is neccessary to fill a void. It’s just hard to find the right balance, where I use tv now to get through to a better place in my life but don’t become so dependent I’m stuck watching tv forever. It’s ok as a temporary crutch, but I don’t want tv to actually become who I am.
I have to take this one step at a time is all and keep reflecting along the way. Things aren’t as simple as they seem.
Jun 04, 02:32PM PDT | 2 cheers | 0 comments
Ugh, just ugh. Oh, let me try to find the words. All this damn tv watching must have zapped away my creatity. Shitty, tv, blah.
There is so much more to life! Why do I allow myself to be drugged by flashy color and sound, instead of living in 3D?
I know, because it’s so easy slipping into a world where everyone knows their lines, situations are black and white and endings are neat and tidy. All this in contrast to the desperate untidiness of real life, my life.
So, what to do? Give in? No, as tempting as escapism is, it’s not satisfying over the long term. Even though life is difficult and full of frustratingly unanswerable questions, the only satisfying way is to face it head on… and pull out the good things.
I just seem to have forgotten exactly what those things are. I’m not sure what to do without the tv on.
May 28, 03:09PM PDT | 0 comments
its good doing this and knowing that you can do it
some people might even like it
its quieter and mre peace full
i think its just great
Jul 13, 2007, 07:53PM PDT | 1 cheer | 0 comments
I often go a whole day without YV.
Jun 26, 2007, 05:16AM PDT | 0 comments
When I first did this, I was so angry, mostly because I was forced to do it. Now it’s easy and I frequently go days without watching TV. The down side to this: my TV time has now been translated into computer time, pretty much defeating the whole idea behind it.
Jun 06, 2007, 05:26PM PDT | 3 comments
I rarely watch TV and find that the less I watch the more that I recognize that most of what is on is not worth watching.
May 21, 2007, 10:38PM PDT | 9 cheers | 0 comments
Apr 24, 2007, 01:34AM PDT | 0 comments
i always turn on the TV at night, but i dont really watch it unless it is law and order SVU. this goal would be easy.
Apr 17, 2007, 03:07PM PDT | 0 comments
done this. it’s owrth doing you get more done
Jan 26, 2007, 04:57PM PST | 0 comments
To me not watching TV is something I do daily. Sometimes I watch it. TV isn’t a big deal to me I watch OK GOOD I don’t watch it OK STILL GOOD.
Jan 05, 2007, 07:49PM PST | 1 cheer | 2 comments