Dcont want to getg a divorce. Itg’s off but things are worfkning wsell at the moment and have been for quite sometime. We are living across the hall frfom one another and are allowing for an open relationship. I love j…regardcless of his flaws. 13 months ago
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The name of this goal because I no longer need to evaluate things for two months and make a choice. I just need to get the papers and file them. 15 months ago
Had a long talk. I told him that I am depressed and afraid of him. I told him that I feel like he is controling my life and that I haven’t been happy for years. I even expressed my cdonfusion regarding my longing to please him that only heightens when he is terrible to me and finally I explained to him how hard it is for me to live with an unmedicated psycopath (not being mean, just honest).
He said he felt terrible and said that he wanted me to be healthy and happy and if that is how I feel then we should get a divorce because it’s not healthy for me to live like this.
One of us will get the paperwork soon…both get paid this comming week…
Yep…I’m sad but holding in there. Honestly, I feel a bit relieved. 15 months ago
But why wait to start the evaluation…
I am going to consider yesterday day one and today day two.
Yesterday I woke up to my hubby in my apartment…(he live across the hall) he kissed me and then told me he got me the new release by one of my favorite bands. Then he told me it was too hot in my apartment, that he needs to go back across the hall, and I am free to come over….nice right?
I lay in bed for a half an hour and then come over to say thanks for the cd and he seems exa 15 months ago
Well it’s done now. For anyone reading this and going through or contemplating doing this, it’s tough, but you’ll get through it. In the end, my ex and I were very agreeable about the paperwork, which he handled and served me with. Now I’m just waiting on the final okay, then I can get my name changed and…. now what next? 2 years ago
They had to make the paperwork so complicated… 3 copies of each, stapled then paper clipped then center two-holed punched, wrapped in a golden enveloped signed by the president of the united states. What the hell… why cant it be easier. I finally filled everything out, now I just have to send it off to start the 6 month process. At least its a simple one compared to what it could have been. 3 years ago
My papers are ready. (unless I’ve totally messed them up. It’s hard doing this stuff by yourself!) 3 years ago
....is it even possible to say that I’ve been on “observe” mode for the last 2years? amazing what you deny or internalize to being something wrong about yourself. maybe I’m wrong, maybe I’m not doing enough etc. anyone that knows what it is truly like to live with a man with passive aggressiveness, its definition, the fact that you may not be hit physically but emotionally, and stabbed in the heart time and time again.
I haven’t figured out this wife stuff perhaps, I have my own baggage but I’ve worked so damnn hard. I’m not perfect but I have been growing and working on being a better, brighter, loving person.
The last 2years have been hard. this is my second round of depression and being off work. I fought hard to build a life with someone who wanted to be a bystander and point out what wasn’t right. around to pacify and support him, his needs.
we moved 8 times in 14 years. lost a home, filed for bankrupcy, no money, have cars reposessed, have trails of old broken down cars in our driveway, suspended lisences and stickers, pay day loans….....I feel like a HUGE ASS writing this.
for the sake of not wanting a broken home, two parents for our son- now, I can’t even have anymore children.
Yet, through all this I realize its not him, its me in thinking I was deserving of this. I can’t change him only me. i’ve grown, really grown, I know what I don’t want and I am not damaged goods. I am deserving and worthy. 3 years ago
no progress, forgetfullness, no ambition, blaming, EXTREME passive- aggressiveness, cruel comments, neglect, ignoring, parenting by intimidation, being negative, everyone is an idiot, isolation, no gifts or celebrations for birthdays, anniversaries, christmas just excuses, no dinners, no help, watches hours of tv, no praise, acknowledgement, no support, no understanding just give give give him…..............i’m done 3 years ago