compile a 100-things-about-me list

I had my first car accident this week.

Not really something I really wanted to experience. It was so scary and I am not very sure what really happened. I took all the blame, however it probably wasn’t entirely my fault (the man came from behind and hit me after all). It was the company’s car which makes this even worse. Nobody got physically wrecked (except the cars), but emotionally I still feel very shaky and I feel very anxious when I think about it or that I have to drive again. I also feel very worried cos I have to drive a car cos of my work and it might be that the car is at shop to get fixed and I don’t own a car. However I know that I can always rent a car, so I guess what really makes me nervous is that I need to drive anyway. I wonder should I get a job where I don’t need to drive at all (until I get a car that drives by itself, this accident would have been avoided if the car would be smart and the human errors would be deleted).

It also bothers me that I got already a warning from police about my driving habits last week and I didn’t learn anything as it seems.

I know it’s normal to feel all these feelings after a traumatic event, even for weeks, but I really wish I could shake off this feeling I have all the time. I also wish this accident won’t affect negatively my driving habits. I never have been very good driver cos I drive so little.

I guess I need to just go through these feelings and then move on. And drive much more safely in the future. 5 days ago

last year when i was compiling some of the entries for this list, i had written that i was depressed and unhappy or something to that description. i am much happier now since that time. i owe that to changing my lifestyle and focusing on eating better and fitness. it was the best thing i did, and has done wonders for my soul.

my life is not perfect at all, i could winge and moan about everything thats wrong about it, but i feel happier in general. and its good to be in this place 1 week ago

im a gymaholic. love going to the gym and working out! love lifting weights and have recently re-discovered the joys of running. 1 week ago

used to have massive food issues (i was obese in the past about 2.5 years ago), i lost that weight, then my weight was a yoyo for a few years. fat years, thin years etc… now i think i have finally dealt with my food issues since the beginning of 2013 and why i ate like that. i made it a priority to get healthy and fitter, upon seeing some horrible fat exmas pics last year, that totally made me feel depressed. and i eat clean and much healthier. its an ongoing process, but i dont miss or crave junk food or processed foods that much. i like eating healthier. and enjoy making healthier foods. i also eat more from a fitness point of view ie eat for fuel not for taste, for the most part. 1 week ago

95. I’ve been struggling with completely accepting myself and my life for as long as I remember and it sucks!

96. I have so many ideas and thoughts that they overwhelm me so I have a hard time accomplishing anything

97. I am terrified about my daughter going to college in 2.5 years. I am worried something bad will happen to her.

98. I toss and turn all night but when its time to get up for work I am the most comfortable.
100. I believe in love more than anything else. 2 months ago

86. I’ve never seen Top Gun or Jerry McGuire

87. Brad Pitt does nothing for me. Robert Downey Jr is my celebrity crush and he just gets better with age.

88. Driving and singing in the car with my daughter is one of my favorite things to do with her.

89. Even if I could have children, I dont think I would want any more. Not because I dont like them but because this world is going to shit and it scares me.

90. Did I already mention I love the movie Labyrinth and know most of the words???

91. I would love to go to a masquerade ball.

92. I want to get married but I dont want to marry someone who provides me with mediocre love just to get married. I need a true head over heels connection.

93. Love and laughter mean more to me than anything else.

94. I wish I could play the piano or guitar. Until then…cowbell anyone? 2 months ago

56. My birthday – sept 22 – lists me as a virgo but the time I was born makes me a Libra…which I am through and through

57. Good bread, tomatoes, mozzarella and oil and balsamic = I could eat every day

58. I have been to Mardi Gras but only got drunk once – I’d love to go back to New Orleans.

59. I have light brown eyes.

60. I was blonde until about 3 and then my hair got darker to a light brown.

61. Ive never smoked a cigarette.

62. Ive been to Disney once but I dont really care for amusement parks and try to avoid going.

63. I check Facebook way too much…and I realize its mostly garbage and it irritates me but I just cant bring myself to cancel it.

64. I admit, I did read all three fifty shades of grey books. But I also read all of the Harry Potters!

65. I saw all seasons of Sex in the City for the first time when I was out on medical leave after having surgery. And I loved them!

66. I prefer dark chocolate over milk and hate white.

67. Wildberry skittles are my favorite candy.

68. I work in the home office for a company that makes bath and body products. I dont think this is what I am meant to be.

69. Im still trying to figure out what I am meant to be but I know it involves helping people.

70. I love a guy who can make me laugh. Being thoughtful comes in close second.

71. My fantasy alter ego is a dominatrix.

72. Ive never been interested in a threesome…I dont like to share.

73. I listen to music almost all day, every day.

74. I am wondering if I have repeated any of these.

75. I am an excellent procrastinator.

76. I can be often indecisive.

77. I wanted to be a fashion designer and live in NYC when I was young.

78. I punched a guy in the face because he grabbed me and pushed me in a bar.

79. I absolutely hate mice. I cant even see them dead they freak me out so much.

80. Instead of watching scary movies, I read the movie spoilers on themoviespoiler.com

81. I want to do a pin up/boudoir photo shoot.

82. I like coach handbags

83. Where there is smoke…I am most likely cooking.

84. I drive a 2004 Jeep grand cherokee and if I could buy any car I wanted…it would be a new Jeep wrangler 4 door in white.

85. If I won the lottery, I wouldnt tell anyone and I would do so much good for my community, friends and family. 3 months ago

46. The first time I lit a grill, I turned the gas on and after 5 minutes opened the cover and lit it. Needless to say, my eyelashes were singed.

47. My friend and I were at a bar and when the band was on break I started belting out “Oh Sherrie” a capella and the whole bar joined in…and the band on tamborine. It was awesome!

48. I will dance and sing karaoke without any alcohol encouragement.

49. The last time I did karaoke it was “Ice Ice Baby” by Vanilla Ice. My throat hurt so I couldnt really sing but I killed it anyway :)

50. I hope my ex realizes that I am not the girl who got away but the girl he so easily let go. He’s a fool and I am realizing I am better off.

51. When I was 4 I had a blue metal crib on wheels and I would load up my babies and roll it through the house destroying whatever my brother was playing with.

52. My brother pushed me off the bunk bed when we were kids. A neck brace and 80’s clothes are not cool.

52. Good vodka and soda is my drink of choice but I am not a big drinker

53. I have a handful of very close girlfriends

54. I’m hilarious. And Im not just saying that – Ive been told that.

55. I get caught singing and dancing in my chair (in my office) too often. Hey, if I have to be here 40 hours a week, I need to be happy! 3 months ago

26. On that note, I dream about zombies way too much!
27. I dreamt about my grandmother and woke up with a red handprint on my body twice.
28. I have a thing for animals noses…I cant help but touch them. Ive been bitten because of my “pooking” habit. I would really love to touch the end of an elephants trunk and “hold hands” with it.
29. I would wear yoga pants every day if I could. But I cant :(
30. I prefer dresses to skirts.
31. I think celebrities make way too much money and do not do enough good with it. Instead of buying 500,000 watches they should do something for the people of their country or community. Imagine that?!
32. I have been on quite a few bad but hilarious dates
33. I want to get married but I need to let go of not being married at 32 and just live life.
34. I love the smell of spring and fall. And the ocean. And chlorine which means summer is here!
35. I love flowers so much I am tattooing a garden down the side of my back.
36. I am a hopeless romantic
37. I give great advice and am a good listener
38. My gut feelings about men are usually right
39. I am thoughtful
40. I am a good party planner – maybe I missed my calling.
41. I was born and raised in Massachussetts…still here for now.
42. I start playing Christmas music the day after Thanksgiving.
43. I love to dance and am pretty good at it!
44. Sometimes I daydream on the way to work and wonder how the heck I made it there alive.
45. I love making people happy with random acts of kindness. 3 months ago

1. I am Irish and French Canadian
2. Brownies are my favorite dessert
3. When I was little I threw rocks at my grandfathers banty hens and one charged me and jumped on my head
4. I am 5 feet 4 inches
5. I dont ever want to see the grand canyon because I am afraid of falling in
6. I really want to visit LA and San Diego, California
7. My mom and I had cancer at the same time when she was 49 and I was 27. Different types. We are both survivors.
8. When I was little, after seeing Lauren Hutton in Once Bitten, I would wear my moms black satin nightgown and drink cranberry juice pretending to be a vampire.
9. I am a great gift giver
10. I had my daughter 3 days before my 16th birthday. She was 9 weeks early.
11. I have a Business degree in Marketing and Management.
12. I am a certified health coach but dont do anything with it right now – I am nervous :/
13. I am currently getting a second degree in Health Education
14. I put ketchup on my grilled cheese
15. I have three tattoos.
16. I have a sister who is 6 years younger – I met her in 2010 (same dad)
17. I have a half brother who is 2.5 years older (same mom)
18. I have 2 step brothers and a step sister
19. I would love to start an empowerment workshop for teen girls
20. My greatest fear is something bad happening to my daughter. My house burning down is another fear.
21. When I ate doritos, if I was alone I would lick the cheese off then eat the chip. I know, gross.
22. I am the only person who can make my mom laugh
23. I play (safe) jokes on people
24. My friend and I dressed as Gumby and Pokey for Halloween. It was awesome. We made a music video. Look for “Gumby and Pokey get low” on youtube!
25. I love the walking dead 3 months ago