I had my first car accident this week.
Not really something I really wanted to experience. It was so scary and I am not very sure what really happened. I took all the blame, however it probably wasn’t entirely my fault (the man came from behind and hit me after all). It was the company’s car which makes this even worse. Nobody got physically wrecked (except the cars), but emotionally I still feel very shaky and I feel very anxious when I think about it or that I have to drive again. I also feel very worried cos I have to drive a car cos of my work and it might be that the car is at shop to get fixed and I don’t own a car. However I know that I can always rent a car, so I guess what really makes me nervous is that I need to drive anyway. I wonder should I get a job where I don’t need to drive at all (until I get a car that drives by itself, this accident would have been avoided if the car would be smart and the human errors would be deleted).
It also bothers me that I got already a warning from police about my driving habits last week and I didn’t learn anything as it seems.
I know it’s normal to feel all these feelings after a traumatic event, even for weeks, but I really wish I could shake off this feeling I have all the time. I also wish this accident won’t affect negatively my driving habits. I never have been very good driver cos I drive so little.
I guess I need to just go through these feelings and then move on. And drive much more safely in the future. 5 days ago