I am off work for the next three nights. I’m going to ask this dude to go out with me one of those nights. It seems to be the only way I can fathom getting over that other dude – attempt to move on.
I’ve been back home for a few days but have been working the whole time. Still trying to get my life unpacked and back in order. My apartment is a mess.
Don’t have much else to say at the moment. 8 months ago
Every time I think I’m getting over it I get sucked back in. I’m getting my hopes up again, I can’t help it. That’s all I’m going to say about that for now. Sigh.
Going back home tonight. It will be nice to feel grounded again. It’s going to be a rather hectic day – cleaning up the house and then dragging all my stuff and my cat back to my apartment. I’m also working a graveyard. I should probably try and sleep at some point, but I already know it’s going to be difficult. 8 months ago
Failing miserably with this, but now it’s one of my Health Month goals so I need to get going.
I’m right smack in the middle of my “weekend” (Monday/Tuesday/Wednesday) and I feel like I’m wasting it again. I’m house-sitting for my parents, which means I’m stuck out in the middle of nowhere unless I want to drive somewhere. I hate driving. I should be catching up on my reading but instead I’m sitting here watching bad TV and playing on the internet – being out of my element makes me lazy. Access to a TV makes me lazy. Can’t wait to get home and get back to a more productive schedule. 8 months ago
I used this day as my last “lazy day” before the new year starts and I have to get my shit together. Caught up on a bunch of TV to get it out of my system, because ditching out on that is one of my resolutions. I did get out of the house for a bit though – went grocery shopping and then sat on the pier for a bit. Sometimes when I go over that way I hope I’ll run into him and sometimes I hide so I definitely won’t. This time I was hiding.
My monthly lists and plans and goals and resolutions are all set for tomorrow. I didn’t go out tonight for a couple of reasons: 1 – I am rather depressed and didn’t really want to expose my friends to my misery. 2 – I’d like to start the new year off feeling healthy and un-hungover. 3 – I was afraid I’d run into him, or worse, him and his girlfriend. I’d pummel her, I know it.
I hope tomorrow is better. It’s a reset, a brand new everything. 2014, PLEASE BE GOOD TO ME11 months ago
I’m going to summarize my days on here for awhile. I’m hoping that having to write out what I did (or did not) do each day will help me to be more productive. I’m hoping it will get me off my ass. Accountability, blah blah blah. I’ll start tomorrow. 11 months ago
I changed keeping a diary to keeping a prayer journal, but it’s the same idea, so I am checking this one off :) 3 years ago
i want to do this but just for myself not to advertise myself because i am a person f myself not for anyone else to know but to figure out. 3 years ago
I have been keeping a diary for the last 5 years. I love it, I write in it everyday. I write down my experience, I write down what I’ve done and if anything has changed. I started writing a diary when I felt like there was no one there for me. I must admit that keeping a diary has helped a whole lot. 4 years ago
It was friday , on dat day i was bit late for school. Today my mood was to show some attitude n b serious throughout the day becaz last night i was planing for sucide due to disturbance abt something n i kept listening a song 50-60 times.in 1st three periods i was efficient but after that i started to answer ma frndz n changed mine serious mind 2 bit non moody.
i was also late 4 jumma … i gone 2 twition POMY nme gave test of math we also cheated abit . all students were gone v both gave test till 6 n also shared som ov our secrets while coming back to home .. v planed 2 eat something as it was friday..v found nothing to eat accept hotdoogs but i didnt becaz that was already present at home .. after that when i refused to eat anything with pomy i afterwards felt that i should offer him atleast hot dogs n then i went 2 waleed shouse in way a got bit scratch on mywrite feet due to aclose danger cut on bike. he was not at home i came back to home n as i came waleed came n v started using F-B n then v showed each other our new added g-f;s then v both also gone to eat hotdogs togather v eat them every friday sepacially waleed n me.. now im sitting at home n b4 writing this i chated with waleed n listened a song (SHOW ME THE MEANINING) many times my mood was again sad but now my mood is to study till late becaz there;s a full book test of bio on monday n i m bit eworied..!!!!! 4 years ago
I want to share all things about my personal life here….
My happiness, sufferings, failures, disappointments, heartaches, loneliness, frustrations and all the words that I could not say to all the people who are dear to me… whose so near yet so far from me…. 4 years ago