marry my true love

She is the only one for me. We are made for each other. I just can’t imagine life without her. I don’t know why she started to behave like a stranger, but I know she would have been in some kind of problem or would not like to see me in problems. The truth is she loves me a lot and nobody but she is my life!

Lets see what happend

My true love is Tunisian and I cannot imagine my life without him. I want to be with him every minute of every hour with him. He wants nothing from me, except my love and all i want is his love, and I would love to have our baby, in sha’allah. I truly love this man and I believe he loves me.

Never marry anybody but your true love!

I have loved this boyed for 3 years and when he said he loved me i didn’t love him back now i haven’t seen him for 19 months and i cannot love anyone else until i have found him =[ my heart hurts so much I JUST LOVE HIM ;’(

i’m gonna get married to him in a year^-

why i’m giving up on this.

he’s hurt me for the last time.

I had to remove my godmother’s name from the wedding guest list tonight, because she passed away in February. I was so hoping to have her at my wedding. I know she would have loved FB.

I hesitated before deleting her name. I didn’t want to do it. And the worst part is, now that I’ve removed her, I feel like I have to remove a few other people. I realised that I was intending to invite some other people because she would be there.

I found the dress

(That wasn’t me who bought it, it was someone else.)

I am hesitant to buy a dress from this seller, solely because they are charging four to five times the price that the other sellers are for work done in China. I don’t have anything against the Chinese and their ridiculously low-priced wedding gowns, but I must admit that I am concerned about quality. And really, a dress of this magnitude deserves careful consideration, no? Not just a click of the mouse. Well, to some it may be okay, but I’m a bit of a fabric freak.

So I look at the dress, and I look at the price, and I think “Damn, I can do that.” And I could. I’ve made many dresses in my life; the last one I made was similar in construction to a bridal gown – corseted, strapless, lace frothy thing for my friend’s wedding. So why don’t I just make my own this time too? Because I’m an impatient seamstress. I’m convinced there are easier ways to do things. And I try them. And I screw myself over because of it.

le sigh.

Clearly the answer is for me to go try on a dress in a local shop that is similar. Try it on, decide if it’s really what I want, and then decide if I can make it. If the answer is yes, then I’ll go looking at fabric at the expensive fabric store…also known as My Heaven. (I once spent $125.00 on one-inch wide beaded trim. I shit you not.) If I can’t find the lace I want, then I’ll consider ordering this dress from eBay.

So many variables. Like, FB still has to ask me, again.

rrrrrrrrrrrrright.

after 7 years in an on and off relationship, i just became so exhausted. true love isn’t supposed to drain you. it’s not supposed to change you in a negative way. so now, i have moved on. we remain friends. sometimes it still hurts to remember what could have been. every single day is still a struggle. but i’m a happier person now. i have taken away the power i gave him. i am whole again.