whatever I am, be a good one.

Now that I’ve taken all my classes out of order and knocked out several 400s, I think I want to change my major.

I think I want to transfer schools and become a Global Studies or German major. But I’ll only do it if I can drag him along. Is that bad? 1 month ago

Thank you, Techkat. 2 months ago

I don’t think I really want to be an Officer. I want the military life, but enlisted is where it’s at! Reserve, NG, Active… whatever! Active is the end-goal. College is the, “right here, right now” goal.

Honestly, I think I’d make a good Officer. I can take care of my (wo)men. But really, I’m not a “natural-born” leader. I’m just me. And I think I’d survive my first four/whatever years as an O, but my heart tells me I’d probably resign my commission and go into the E’s anyway.

My true passion is language. I’d love to be a linguistic or German major. I don’t know if South Dakota has those majors. Maybe SDSU.
Things are getting complicated now that the government cut Tuition Assistance. 2 months ago

I did not sign with the Air Force today.
In fact, I called my Captain up and told him to send me to Leader’s Training Course. He said he was proud of me, and we’re starting the paperwork on Monday.

I feel absolutely terrible. I have sacrificed my option to go to Basic Training. Basic Training, to me, is almost a moral obligation. However, at this point I would only be in my MOS (my job) for about a year before my officer training takes me elsewhere. The National Guard will NOT give me the job I want. So my line of thought is currently, “Why should I go to Basic Training, miss an entire year of school, come back, have a job I hate that I’m not even committed to, and then become an officer?” It makes no sense time-wise. It makes sense in my heart: “Yes, be enlisted! Endure the hell of Basic! It makes you closer to your men!” but not in my head: “Worthless. Worthless! For a little rainbow ribbon on your dress uniform? There’s no time for this! You need to go to LTC! COMMIT!”

My Captain today flatout told me, “If you go to LTC, I will NOT send you to Basic Training.”

GODDAMNIT. I want the best of everything! Give it to me, all!

And by the way, I will always, always have that “What if?” with the Air Force. South Dakota Air National Guard’s Security Forces seems so wonderfully structured. The training is amazing; the camaraderie, beautiful. I truly hope I can find that same cohesion and structure within the Army. My cadets have it. But we’re a temporary bunch. We’re fluid. It’s not the real world. 3 months ago

my contract with the Air Force in fourteen hours.

OMG.

I can’t help but to think if I carry through with this insanity, the Blue to Green program is going to be my best. friend. ever.

I love the Army :)
and Air Force.
My heart’s conflict will never find rest. 3 months ago

this morning” says she, Starkle.
“Was meinen Sie?” I respond in my high-pitched persona
“während der Lauf”
“Wann?”
“während der Lauf” she repeats.
“Ich weiß aber… wann?”
“Die Staffelläufe.”
“Ach, was waren sie sagen?” said I, ever-curious to the public opinion.
“Sie sagten, ‘Wow, [Nachname]’s Lauf hat im Vorjahr verbessert.’”

This makes we wonder why I can’t pass the test :(
Dankeshön für das Kompliment.

Damn. That took about an hour. 8 months ago

I love small-town South Dakota. My dad was in the local paper simply because he got a new job. The employers put in a simple, “Welcome to the [Place of Employment] family, [TechKitty’s Dad].”

D’awww :)

Even though they probably do that for all their new employees, to me, this is actually noteworthy news. Before my father got his new job, he worked at Burger King for 34 years. Thirty-four! In addition to his full-time job, my father has also been employed at a hardware store for seventeen years. Typically, my dad works seven days a week and he has for a very, very long time. Mom also worked at the second Burger King for twenty-nine years. She now has a job with pretty brutal hours that keeps her on the road most of the week. It’s not uncommon to only have my mother in the house from Saturday night to Monday morning before I wake up.

I’m so proud of my parents for exemplifying a hard work ethic and loyalty! I hope I can make them proud too :) 8 months ago

Waitingwaitingwaiting on a medical form.

“You have to sign a release form”
Bitch I’m 300 miles away.
^{Sorry for the profanity.}

I’m going (yes, going) to pick it up on Wednesday. It’s a good excuse to spend time with my boyfriend. And eat sushi…delicious, delicious sushi…

AND THEN. They will probably waive it. And if they don’t… I’m going to point out, “hey… I broke that wrist DURING a PT session then finished out conditioning drills on it. Problem? I didn’t think so.”

:D :D :D :D :D
AND THEN.
Physical exam. Pee in cup, bend in odd ways, breathe deeply while doctor touches my chest.
AND THEN,
MEPS. Ew.
AND THEN,
DEP. About, FACE. Run run run. LEARN STUFF BOOYAH.
AND THEN. Deep breath.
BASIC TRAINING.

Easyeasyeasyeasy.
Is what I tell myself.

I should probably revert back to writing less like a child with ADHD. Serious face now. 9 months ago

I do believe I have reached my official five year anniversary at my job. I think I was hired on the 5th of August, 2007. Does that mean five on the fifth is a golden anniversary? Like having a golden birthday?

I have to admit, I’m quite the investment. Yesterday I accidentally broke a scale at work. My boss informed me it’s going to cost $400 to replace it.

I one time cleaned our carts with this stuff called “block whitener” which is a bleach substance with the texture of congealed milk with shards of glass in it. I stripped the coating off our carts. I affirmed, “Hey, this is the cleanest they’ve EVER been!”

I spill food. A lot. It usually just happens to be food we import from Turkey or Bulgaria.

One time on delivery night, I took the metal tracks off our ramp to clean them and neglected to screw them back on.

I have slammed my fingers in dicers.

I have ruined whiteboards.

I have stripped wax off floors and broken a tile or two.

I may have even caused us to replace a credit card machine.

I. Am one hell of an investment.
I’m pretty sure I’m worth it. 9 months ago

really speaks to me. I strive to do the best I can. I believe I have a very strong work ethic in general. I have held the same job for nearly five years now, and I’m planning to be a commissioned officer in the military within the next…say… four years. I just hope I do it right… for myself and my people. 12 months ago