Do not lose focus

Determined to surpass my limitations, yet I feel like a sticky of ailments and disarray! Why can’t these things NOT happen all at once.

Unbelievable migraines, depression, sleep deprivation, extreme hunger, home repairs needed, food spoiling, sudden debt, half a dozen birthdays with in days of each other, property damage, dental problems, but… I completed all my homework and even had enough time to play video games, whilst improving on my writing format.

I can do this. 2 months ago

It’s not the passivity of my demeanour that troubles me, it’s the complete absence of wanting change.

Don’t get me wrong, my ambition hasn’t diminished even slightly, but is this the quality of life that I have been striving for all these years or is this the middle ground, leading me to where I want to be? 4 months ago

I’m losing steam but not progress or motivation.

40 places emailed, 2 called, 17 viewings, 1 official viewing time and waiting on 3 prospective locations which are ideal on all fronts.

This could be the change I was looking for. 12 months ago

• get organized
• build a desk space
• enjoy the outdoors, often
• work out every day for an hour
• take the dog out for a walk
• plan a product design and start working
• reduce cholesterol
• stop eating red meat
• eat vegan regularly
• work on bench cover
• knit a replacement pillow/case
• prepare snacks in advance (cookies and coleslaw)
• finish a bottle sculpting project
• finish knitting slippers, then felt
• SEND MAIL
• hire someone for a project
• sort my bills
• pay off a debt
• meditate regularly and make progress
• build a routine for laundry
• build a routine to complete dishes
• write more recipes and practice new recipes I’ve written
• have fun

This is just last month and this week. 13 months ago